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7/5/20 3:38 P

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Just a heads up... I have started a new thread for Spangle's first 100 Days of Weight Loss book. If you're following 100 More Days of Weight Loss, continue to use this thread. If you'd like to go back to the first book, check out the new thread!

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6/7/20 7:36 P

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"Keep it simple sweetie". I like that!

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emoticon ps ~ reading the Spangle books - for me, I just read 1 chapter at a time and ponder it ~ sometimes a couple a week... or 1 a day. that way, I can think about if the little idea is something that will help me - or not... Like trying on those clothes... some way don't fit. some maybe later... some are ideas that I want to start using...

it's different than reading a fun novel book/story beginning to end for the romp of it... if I read Spangle like a Nancy Drew novel, then I never really figure out if the ideas work for me... so, I usually take a few days thinking about the chapter to see how it fits in my life.

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6/7/20 12:13 P

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emoticon the hard part is sometimes just the part where we start. when I am feeling it's pretty hard, I try to simplify & KISS ~ keep it simple sweetie ~ and focus on the basics and 1 or 2 or couple of things to do... if I make it big or complicated I get overwhelmed...

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I started reading the book 100 days of weight loss yesterday. most of what I read I already know I should do...but I have to find a way to keep motivated and do what I need to do.


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emoticon sounds like an awesome summertime thing to do!!! Enjoy :)

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the Linda Spangle 100 days of Weight loss and the 100 More days have little easy chapters ~ an idea in each chapter ~ kinda like reading a SparkArticle and pondering the ideas... I read something most days - and it's kind of like sampling and trying on different clothes - some don't fit and never will fit, so we just put those back - some we might try again later ~ and ever so often we find something that is just right - and we use it and it helps it...

emoticon that's what doing 100 days is like for me ~ it's focusing on the rainbows and roses and good things - doing what's possible, happy making... and it helps me keep going and focused on what I can actually do today - and not fret the rest...

emoticon glad to have you join us Carol :)

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Will do my very best to stay on track. 100 days of weight loss is a big motivator for me. emoticon


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I'm here!!!

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6/3/20 6:53 P

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read 100+ days 14... very empowering. worth the read. blogged it.

He who would learn to fly one day must first learn to stand and walk and run and climb and dance; one cannot fly into flying ~ Friedrich Nietzsche. I want to fly.
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5/31/20 3:37 P

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I am still reading & pondering the 100 More days book... anyone else?

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5/20/20 3:21 P

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emoticon wow! sparktacular! you just inspired me to keep trying! woot!

emoticon last year we did the Linda Spangle 100 days of weight loss, this year, some are redoing that... I have been reading her other book 100 More days... feel free to do either book or share anything you're reading! It helps to explore new2us ideas!

Cheers :)



some of us have also read/talked about the Pink beck book - so really, anything you're pondering & want to talk about is ok :)





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5/20/20 1:00 A

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5/20/20 12:42 A

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Im joining you all in this challenge down almost 40 this year so far.

Goals-
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emoticon 100 More days ~ day 13 Get some passion.

thought about this for a few weeks, and this goes really well, hand in hand with sparking/staying motivation, and focus on the next 'now' kind of thing - do something intentional, take the step and the passion will ignite... think that's a really good skill for when we're just not feeling it - we can reinforce or strengthen or ignite our motivation and passion (for things that are important for us personally) by taking steps and doing it.. making time for it... it does help, it's part of my overall self-care - as essential as our food and movement choices and medical care - this is like an essential 4th wheel... blogged it.



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5/14/20 9:24 P

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I'm still here!! Been @ 2000 calories for the last several days. Still tracking and am at least conscience of what I am eating.

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5/14/20 8:42 P

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Oh, man. That was it. That was the day.

I managed to do two things on that list, but I crashed and burned, and I didn't eat the meal that I had pre-tracked. I don't even remember what I had! But I haven't had an on-track day since. Boo.

I don't have anything insightful to say. Just that I continue to struggle, but I am still here.


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5/7/20 6:37 P

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#3 is totally positive to your wellbeing and counts!!
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100 More Days of Weight Loss, Day 8: Set NOW Goals

I wish I were more like Edna.

I get so bogged down in... gunk. So much gunk! Today's Spangle lesson is really perfect for me.

From the (free, online) journal:

"If you can’t seem to stick with your exercise or weight-loss program, throw out your lofty plans and start at a simpler level. Instead of aiming for the sky, plan some now goals or simple steps you can take today."

"Create three now goals. Begin each one with “Today I will…”

#1: Track all of my food today and earn a blue dot. (WW Healthy Eating Zone)
#2: Go get a produce box.
#3: Feed the birds.

Okay, #3 doesn't seem weight loss related, but sitting outside with my dog and filling up my bird feeder is one of those Life Affirming things that I really need right now.

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Day 3

Identify things "I don't want to do and Do it anyway"

This is a never ending list. I don't want to do dishes, do laundry, vacuum the floor. The pandemic has just about narrowed my life to cooking, eating and sleeping. Showering and getting dress has become a major chore. I don't want to live in a dirty house so I need to clean it. No one else is going to do it. Having pajama day once a week when we are sheltered at home is probably ok but not everyday. I need to put on "real" clothes!! I love to cook. I just need to concentrate on doing it in a healthy way.

No Matter What!
I can do this!

I do "Choose Me" and no matter what I am going to choose to love myself. Take care of "Me"! The good Lord gave me today and I am going to make the most of it.

If I want it I have to work for it.
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5/3/20 3:04 P

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emoticon good thoughts Christi

~ struggling with binge urges, especially related to strong negative emotions for any reason - well, it's still my hardest battle - and the Pandemic has really evoked that again for me too...

~ so thank you for revisiting day 2 ~ very helpful thoughts.



I think this might of been the 1st pic I snagged from you - and i sometimes add....
-- I choose me... over food. I am worth more than any bite of any cookie (or whatever is calling my name... Choosing me remains my deepest heart reason for going through these struggles - and doing things like these readings to help myself...

emoticon Hang in! emoticon

ps ~ this pic really resonated with me too... choosing to take care of ourselves is essential; not selfish. We matter.



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5/3/20 2:54 P

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Revising Day 2
emoticon This is really helpful revisiting my old post and my old motivations.

DAY 2 Interested or Committed

Declaration:
My declaration to myself is to just do "One Day at a Time". I can stay committed and on track for a day and then recommit myself tomorrow. I become overwhelmed if I tell myself that I need to loose 100+ pounds. The goal doesn't seem anywhere in sight. If I break it down into 10 pounds at a Time then I know I can do that. I just need to move forward a day at a time and I can do it.

emoticon Sometimes I need to take it 10 minutes at a time. If I can put off binging or eating something I shouldn't for just 10 minutes, I can redirect myself. I need more than a moment by moment but sometimes hanging on for a day becomes to much.

No Matter What:
I choose me. I am a caregiver and I tend to always put others needs before my own. I have came to the realization that I am better at taking care of others if I first take care of myself. I am a better wife and mother when I see to my own needs.

emoticon still true!

Do One Thing Today:

emoticon I got a new Ninja 8 in 1 pressure cooker air fryers!!! I can't wait to try it out today. Chicken is what is on the menu tonight!!

emoticon Moving forward!!!

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5/1/20 5:16 P

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emoticon I still love Day 1 Christi - it remains my all time fav, because this is something we can choose, at any moment, any day... that doesn't mean it is easy to change... it can feel hellacious - but it is empowering... it is the place to start, the day, the moment we choose to help ourself, for ourself…



emoticon Mermaid, I feel the same way about cheese, and many other things... it is the same as day 1 - we are choosing what we can and will do... for us personally - and we can do that at any moment... we do not have to eat anything we don't like. we don't have to follow anyone else's rules... we simply need to explore and choose what is helpful for us personally, and you're doing that. I am glad Purple is working for you! Yay you :)



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5/1/20 4:06 P

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Revisited my original post and I think it still resonates true for me.
The last few months have really jumbled up my life. I know I am fortunate to be able to step back away from life as the world deals with the pandemic. I do have to find some structure and control. I have gained 35 pounds in the last year and twenty of that has been in the last couple of months.
emoticon I have to stop and get myself back on track and moving in the right direction.

DAY 1. I Use to be that way...

Fears and negative behaviors:
-I am morbidly obese and I could die.
-Rather then dealing with problems I tend to hide away and eat my troubles away.
-I 'm scared of losing my mobility.

I use to be in a life "rut" but now I "Choose Me" and I am determined to take care of myself and live!!I

I use to use food as a pacifier but now I choose to eat healthy, to track my food so that I am accountable for what I put into my mouth.

I use to be inactive but I choose to move!!! My joints feel better and I have a better outlook on life when I exercise regularly.

10 Reasons I Want to reach and maintain my goal weight

1. I want to live!!
2. I want to have more energy and stamina.
3. I want to be healthier and feel better.
4. I want to be more confident.
5. I want to look better.
6. I would love to work outside my home again.
7. I want to feel in control of myself.
8. I want to sleep better.
9. I want to be more active in my community and my church.
10. I want to always remember to "Choose Me" because I do matter!!!


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4/30/20 11:01 P

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100 More Days of Weight Loss, Day 7: Not Willing to Change

- Identify several things you are not willing to do.
I will not give up cheese (not for the long-term). I am NOT willing to be miserable for the sake of a diet or even "good health." (Because I don't think being miserable is very conducive to good health!) I am not willing to count every single thing, every single day, for the rest of my life.

- Decide how you could make small changes in those areas and get past them.
I can totally reduce cheese. (Cheese isn't the only food like this, it's just the one I'm thinking about right now. I am not willing to eat a burger without cheese! Tacos without cheese! NEVER! And I am also not willing to use low-fat cheese. I'd rather use less of the real stuff.)
When something feels miserable, I change it. Eventually. Sometimes it takes awhile, but I'm also not willing to give up (!), so I am committed to learning and adapting.
Purple is a very good compromise for tracking. I do not bother counting things that are zero points. There are a lot of people who disagree with me on this, and that's fine. For me, ONLY tracking the things with points is extremely helpful. I don't feel like a slave to the tracker. I only have to count what I spend!

- Record your new plan and follow through with it today.
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100 More Days of Weight Loss, Day 6: Monday Diet

I've been reading and pondering this lesson for a good week or more and trying to make it work for me. My issue is not really the weekend. I am off during the weekend, but Mr. Mermaid is not, so I actually tend to do really well on Saturday and especially Sunday. (Also, making my weigh-in day on Sunday keeps me from over-indulging.) I am more likely to go off-plan during the week, when he's off. But now, he's officially unemployed, so it feels like he's off everyday. But, I am looking forward to this change and creating a new schedule! So really, I've had to re-think this lesson.

The general message of the lesson is: we tend to fall apart on the weekends because by the time Friday rolls around, we've been through a lot. Our tanks are on empty, and we are ready to recharge, but we're also more likely to do that in ways that aren't necessarily helpful. ("It's been a long week; I deserve to relax with a slice of cake! I'm too tired to exercise/cook/etc.") Spangle's suggestions for this problem boil down to better planning and self-care. And this you can do (I can do!), regardless of whatever your trouble days are.

So the first thing is to look over your schedule once a week. What events are coming up? What's particularly draining emotionally or tempting foodwise? Make a plan for those events, and then make a back-up plan. If you know your Mondays are always hectic, make a plan for a simple dinner. If you're usually worn out by Wednesday, then schedule yourself a bubble bath for that day. That kinda thing.

For me personally, self-care is a huge priority, and I cannot let those things go. I cancelled my sheet mask subscription a few months ago because I had quite a few stocked up, and now, my supplies have dwindled, and I really miss my masking days! It's cheap, so I'll sign up for that again. With Mr. Mermaid being home now, we can also work on keeping a more regular sleep schedule. That should help a lot. And I'm looking forward to planning some simple date nights. Nothing fancy, just quiet nights to focus on quality time together, even if it's just watching a DVD. (No phones!) I am also making a point to read a little more and get in more spiritual time. I feel better when I do these things. When I feel bad, they're the first things to go, and then I feel worse and worse until I finally stop and take care of myself.

"I don't think that loving yourself is a choice. I think that it's a decision that has to be made for survival." ~ Lizzo

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4/9/20 4:02 P

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blogged day 11 ~ Never give up...

emoticon keep trying and practicing ~ the brain will learn from the practice (repetition)

mostly, never give up ~ you don't know which time will be the time it clicks... but it will eventually, so don't quit, get up, dust off and keep trying...



He who would learn to fly one day must first learn to stand and walk and run and climb and dance; one cannot fly into flying ~ Friedrich Nietzsche. I want to fly.
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100 More Days of Weight Loss, Day 5: No Willpower

From the journal... "If you believe you can manage your actions by the choices you make, you won’t have to worry about willpower abandoning you at the wrong moment."

Great thought! I have gotten to where I flat-out just don't believe in willpower. Maybe I'm just sick of hearing that word. I generally do better when I make stronger choices that don't rely on moderation. (There's some abstainer/moderator stuff in that Gretchen Rubin link.) Like this past week, when I thought I needed snacks for WW. NO. Snacks do not work out very well for me. Well, most snacks... If I have fruit for snacks and also a box of Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches for snacks... I will eat that entire box of Skinny Cows before I even remember that there's fruit in the house.

-- Think about places where you'll face a food temptation today.
We had a mini-date to the Whataburger drive-thru.
Later today, I need to make a grocery order and I need to clean out the fridge of tempting leftovers.

-- Create a new mindset for protecting yourself from unplanned eating.
For the drive-thru, I pre-planned and pre-tracked my meal. Mr. Mermaid got a huge burger with the dipping sauce I love AND a shake that I love... Kinda chapped my hide a little... But I focused on MY food and ignored his. And I told myself that I could plan to have that shake when I really wanted it. It's just not milkshake weather today. Also, I was really mindful when I ate, and it was extra tasty.

For the grocery order, I already wrote everything out on paper. (This is mostly to keep track of what I can get from Walmart, and what I'll need to try to buy in person at HEB.) I'm also promising myself not to open the ordering app after about 8 PM. I tend to overbuy when I'm tired, and I make poorer choices.

For throwing out the leftovers... Maybe I'll brush my teeth first. And remind myself that the recipe didn't turn out that great. I made a baked ziti type casserole in the slow-cooker, but I didn't have the right noodles, and it came out kinda gummy. Parts of it are cheesy and comforting, therefore tempting... But a lot of it really isn't that good. And I either waste it in the trash, or I waste it in my body, and I am not a trashcan!

-- Record your success with using this new mindset.
From previous experience, I know that pre-tracking my meals helps me because I've already made the choice, y'know? I don't have to rely on phoney-baloney "willpower" because Mentally Balanced Mermaid has already made the choices for Trainwreck Mermaid. I also know that just not having snacks in the house helps a lot. (Whenever I start WW, I always try to do the moderation thing and think, "Oh, nothing is off limits if you plan it!" But really, this just doesn't work for me. If it's in my house, I'm going to eat it. So better to just not bring it into the house.) Holding on to these strategies, I am confident that I'll have a better week ahead.

"I don't think that loving yourself is a choice. I think that it's a decision that has to be made for survival." ~ Lizzo

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100 More Days of Weight Loss, Day 4: Today I'm On Plan

Uh, well, today I was on plan for half the day... So let's do this exercise with tomorrow in mind. (Or, right now. I am back on plan right now.)

-- Write a list of three things you will do to stay on your plan today.
1. I will drink plenty of water.
2. I will do something productive.
3. I will pre-plan and pre-track my meals.

-- Identify any emotional issues such as stress that might get in the way of your focus.
Woo, buddy... How much time do you have? Pandemic stress (food shortages, how to make masks, will my husband have a job tomorrow?) Hormones (shark week!) Family stress (my mom is just a lot) Having too much to do and being too overwhelmed to do anything.

-- Create a self-talk phrase to use instantly when your focus starts to slip away.
Accept the solution. Embrace the challenge. You can do anything! Just start somewhere!

"I don't think that loving yourself is a choice. I think that it's a decision that has to be made for survival." ~ Lizzo

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100 More Days of Weight Loss, Day 3: What If I Fail?

-- Write down one of your biggest fears around managing your weight.

My biggest fear is... the status quo. I have weighed "around" 400 pounds for the past ten years of my life. Each year, I carry it a little worse, in terms of how I look and how I feel. I weigh less right now than I did ten years ago, but I am in bigger clothes and I am less active. So my fear is that if I continue doing the same things, what will my life feel like when I am still 400 pounds at the age of 46? How much bigger will I be? How much more mobility will I lose? So my fear is aging at this weight. Which means that my biggest fear is that I will never be successful, I will never be able to make the necessary changes.

-- Identify your emotional response. Let yourself feel the fear and panic around it.

There's a list of emotions available on Spangle's website (weightlossjoy.com), but I can't find the direct link to it right now... It's actually really helpful. My emotions around this fear are intense and varied. Mostly from the Emptiness column (apathetic, hopeless, sluggish, stifled, suffocated, tired, unfulfilled, weak) and the Sadness column (anguished, dead, depressed, discouraged, down, drained, helpless, low, miserable, morose, numb, pessimistic, powerless, unhappy) with a dash of Intense Pressure (desperate) and Irritation (aggravated, exasperated, impatient) and a bunch of Stress (embarrassed, humiliated, jealous, overwhelmed, trapped). It is both overwhelming and helpful to look at a list and pick out all of the adjectives that apply to your current state of being... There's a little bit of relief in saying, YES! That is how it feels!"

-- Create a logical, positive message to use any time fears creep into your thoughts.

Identifying the emotions might make it easier to stop a downward spiral... If I can identify fear earlier in my own thought process, then maybe I could use strategies before it got too big and unmanageable. So... I use a few sayings that help me. One that I use specifically for stress and panic/anxiety attacks is "peace beyond understanding."

For weight loss, I have so many things that come to mind. One that I read recently is that when you fail and start over again, you're not starting from scratch. You're starting over with everything you learned from all of those attempts. So in that aspect, I have a wealth of knowledge! I also like the saying, "In order to change your life, you have to Change. Your. Life." I like that, but it also conjures up some fear in me, so I don't know how useful it really is... It mostly makes me feel more overwhelmed.

I browsed the SparkTeam for 100 Days of Weight Loss, and they have a thread for every day, in every book... I like to browse those threads for help when I feel stuck in my blogs. Today, one of the team members mentioned Day 92 in the first book: Accept the Solution. For context, Day 91 is Obesity is a Condition... Both good sections to re-read. Obesity is the condition, and a healthier lifestyle is the cure. When I am feeling stressed and restricted and just flat-out pissed off about not being able to eat whatever I want (the way I feel like "everyone else gets to do"), I need to take a deep breath... and accept the solution.

Peace beyond understanding. (Philippians 4:7)
Accept the solution.

(Going to add those to my signature!)

"I don't think that loving yourself is a choice. I think that it's a decision that has to be made for survival." ~ Lizzo

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100 More Days of Weight Loss, Day 2: I'll Start Tomorrow

This was the lesson that made me postpone the book until after the wedding! It was absolutely the right call. After a few more weeks of struggling, I feel that NOW, I can move forward with confidence. I have a plan, I have back-up plans, I have goals... I can do it.

The journal lesson for today is basically the process I used when deciding to do WW again.

-- Identify one thing that is getting in the way of your weight-loss plan.
Not being able to get keto food!

-- Decide how you can get past this barrier. Write down your ideas.
I thought about Keto Chow meal replacement shakes, but they still require a fat to mix into, like heavy cream, and that's been hard to find, too. Plus, it doesn't help me feed Mr. Mermaid.
I considered calorie counting, but I hate that more than counting points.

-- Take the steps that will make it happen today. Record what you did.
I talked it to death over many days, and I decided to sign up for three months only. (As always, I reserve the right to change my mind...) My goal, as of today, is to switch back to keto after three months, if it's feasible.

I feel okay about this. Obviously, I'm concerned about being on WW again because I know how detrimental it can be for my mental health. I am trying to be aware of this. I am not focusing on "blue dots" or their "healthy eating range." I am not trying to do any weird food swaps. I am not spending a lot of time on Connect, their social media-type support group, because that's where you find a lot of those recipe hacks or images that just aren't very helpful for me.

WW. My SparkFriends. Linda Spangle. That's the plan. For now.

"I don't think that loving yourself is a choice. I think that it's a decision that has to be made for survival." ~ Lizzo

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So much has happened in just one week, I still haven't gotten around to catching up in the workbook, I'm going to put this on my priority list for today.
Since I'm the early bird I need to get on the computer and do more sparking before dh gets up and starts using it.



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emoticon blogged day 10 - (Courage to) Do it in Fear

thought it was particularly good timing since world news is so dang distressing... so, the thought is that we can do things that scare us - remember to reach for our courage and use our tools to take the step, even if we feel the fear.... fear is like an emotion... anxiety - they can be a normal feeling, so it helps me to acknowledge those feelings, express them, honor the feeling, then figure out the step to take/thing I can do to help do/fix it... or if I need to release it. The companion to that is to help me with the feeling - to soothe myself in NON-FOOD ways... like flipping on the funny movie, getting to bed a tad early, you know - those kinds of things... and of course, sparking here with you :)

He who would learn to fly one day must first learn to stand and walk and run and climb and dance; one cannot fly into flying ~ Friedrich Nietzsche. I want to fly.
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I do want to continue. I’m bad at not following through on things, I Really need to get my head back in the game. I’m going to start making this a priority.



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emoticon Hi everyone... anyone interested in continuing? Hope to see you all here, yakking soon :)

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emoticon day 9, blogged it... Have a Plan #2
(book says B, but dont' want it confused with the drug! LOL ;)

So, essentially it's about - how do we want to eat for special events. Like in the original book lesson to "widen the road" ~ Plan 2 is our Special Eatings approach...

Plan 1 is our every day regular eating plan - whether it's a special diet for weight loss or maintaining our weight or for our health or whatever. It is the regular eating guidelines that we are trying to do most of the time... so when we need to widen the road and make adjustments to eat more, whatever... that is when we go to our Contingency Plan 2...

emoticon and to think about it before we are at the food eating event, so we have an idea of things we want to do, ways we want to eat, so we don't revert to OVEReating - our OLD/Past/Former way of diving in and feasting... which she says would be Contingency Plan #3... Throw it away. don't go back to that...

emoticon Create a strategy/Contingency plan that works for you for special occasions when you want to widen the road.

emoticon worth the read! cheers :)

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I still haven't done Day 7. Every night when I get home I get busy with something else and totally forget. The other thing is the books are in the living room and since I hardly ever watch TV I don't go in there. Terrible excuses.

Has anyone tried Intermittent Fasting? I'm thinking about giving it a try next week. I'm sure having a hard time lately.

Hope you all are doing well. It's still raining here in Georgia.



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emoticon Day 8 ~ Set NOW goals!

the idea is to set little mini, single action goals to do today, that are measurable, that you actually can do, that you will do. toss out the big gnarly plans and focus on what is doable today - it is kind of like doing the basics and baby steps - the important part is set them, do them! and it has been working well for me...



emoticon 1 of the ways it helps me is to think of it as many, mini- small acts of self-care, often, daily…. it is the fun, easy stuff that lifts my spirit and helps keep me motivated!



emoticon it also helps me with the tougher, harder stuff... like exercise, when I get stopped, I get a resistance and a huge "I don't wanna" going... the way this helps me, is I will set a timer to do something like walk for just 1 minute, just 1 time a day and build from there...

emoticon and I celebrate the doing - each and every time I do it! today I walked 20 consecute minutes for the 1st time since my surgery last fall... I didn't start at 20 mins. I started at 1 min... and right now, my goal, just for today, is 10+ mins, and I did 20! Woohoo!



emoticon and I hope you are chasing your dreams, in many, mini-little ways, each day! We got this! Cheers :)



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emoticon WW is a good program - I love that we can choose foods we personally like. nothing worse than a list and most of the foods suck! LOL

~ so just a word of encouragement - when I start trying to quit EXCESS eating - sometimes I go through physical/uncomfortable withdrawals... (carbs/sweets/treats, fatty/salty/yummy things ;) ~ I was just reading a little thing that physical withdrawals can take 3 to TEN days! Yipes, but that sounds right, now that I think about it... I recognize that I usually start to feel better about the morning, 4th day... I never really thought much about days 4 - 10... other than I used to think of it as 3 hours, 3 days, 3 weeks - if I make it 3 weeks, feeling much better...

but hand in hand with the physical part is the emotional part - sometimes I feel like I go into grief - deep grief... and feel really sad because i'm letting go of my fav treats overeating...

my go to thing with that is to like not fret anything else (exercise/water/whatever) during that time... I try to focus on choosing good4me foods that I like... plus I add in "other" comfort - things that make me feel better - good movie, early to bed/nap, sparking, sitting on the porch in the sunshine.… little mental/emotional bubblebaths (moments to just site and daydream something positive that pushes away, pushes back on the feelings of hard... like daydreaming summer vacation or Christmas morning with kidlets - something that evokes a smile! ;)

so big, squishy emoticon
-- you're worth doing all this for Shirley... go4it!

repeat after me (or your own brain strengthening sayings... cuz, me is rootin4u! ;)



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I never did get around to doing week 7, tonight is doubtful too. I have a chiropractor's appt. after work and when I leave there I'm very relaxed and don't feel like doing anything, including cooking. I wish I had just skipped the Dr. and her steroids and gone to the chiropractor instead. Whatever he's doing is working!

Well! I unfortunately gained back all of the 6 pounds I had lost the week before (I knew it had to be a fluke) so I got mad when I realized I've been at this for 8 weeks and all I have done is gain and lose the the same few pounds so I decided that this weekend I am going to start doing WW the way it's meant to be done and not my way. I have logged everything I have eaten (first time ever on a weekend) my only cheat was I had 3 small bites of dh's cookie from Panera last night. I fell short on my water but overall I did great and I'm very happy with myself. Now if I can just keep this up the rest of the week. I just have to make myself a priority.

I loved Today's Quote! It really makes you think of how much we criticize ourselves.



"This too shall pass"

I need to get up, brush myself off and keep doing it until I learn to do it right!

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emoticon speaking of shifting with baby steps, stumbled across this pic today - and um, yes... agree!



we often praise babies/others - and criticize ourselves - I think the self-criticism is learned and becomes a habit - which means, we can unlearn that and replace it/learn something new - to celebrate and try and explore and practice more baby steps!

Cheers :)

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emoticon Here's to recognizing & celebrating small changes!



honestly, the day 7 technique has helped me move changes forward... at times, I celebrate the change with a little happy sticker on the calendar - one year, I had 7 little pocket calendars going for the tracking - one for exercise, one for things like sleep or water drinking, even big things like didn't binge middle of night - or didn't scarf down a whole big open package and used regular portions...



you can see one of the little mini pocket calendars I used to track a little change, sitting on top of the paper food journal/tracker that I used to jot down what I was eating (instead of full blown online tracking)... it creates a happy visual to see the stickers add up and helped me to stay focused and take intentional actions on those particular things - sometimes just to get my sticker! LOL

emoticon I went shopping and found pretty stickers, pink, sparkly, ones I liked... and you can see, some days/weeks I got the stickers and other days/weeks, not so much... and that was ok... I just tried to focus on the actual activity for the current day... it was not about getting perfect stickers... it was about practicing the actual activity. some days I made it. other days not... either way, each day was a brand new chance to practice more, just for me, just because I chose to... the calendars/tracking were not anything I intended to show anyone, ever... just a tool to help me :)



emoticon life evolves, for sure and having the kidlets means a different routine. it's ok to make intentional changes/adjustments in the schedule/activities for different kinds of days - actually, that's what this is kind of about - we're learning how to eat well - that is not our life... it helps us go live and do the other things in life we need to do - work, play, babysit!

emoticon I am looking forward to being able to go walk at the zoo again.


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I still haven't done Day 7, that's on my to-do list this weekend.
I was doing meal prep for entire week on Saturdays but since dh is back to working from home I've fallen back into the pattern of cooking every night. I really want to get back to it though. After I get home and go to the chiropractor a few days a week I'm not much in the mood for cooking.
I still try and get salads made for the week and boil some eggs if I do nothing else. I have my granddaughter this weekend, I don't know why but when she's around I just don't get anything done. How did I ever do it with two kids?

Hmmm! I need to sit and think about what changes I have made for better health.

The one thing I can remember is I drink Almond Milk now instead of regular milk and I really prefer it now, even in my cereal.

I usually get diet cokes when we go out to a restaurant but now I'm trying to drink more unsweet tea.

Have a great weekend!




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emoticon Not Willing to Change ~ Day 7 of 100 More days of Weight Loss

~ the lesson for today is interesting ~ and as I look back, I can see times and ways I have done this and it has helped me... Essentially, Linda Spangle asks are there things you are not willing to do or change? But those things are holding you back from actually losing weight? And, for a solution, she suggests that: Quote ~ "Shift Just a Little. You don't have to eliminate all of these areas at once. Instead, identify one (or I would say, identify 'an') issue... and look for ways to compromise just a little. A tiny bit of extra effort is often enough to change your pattern. For example, if you're not willing to exercise, maybe you could walk for five minutes or go to the end of your street and back." /end quote.



emoticon Shifting with Baby Steps emoticon

Change can be hard and this has been 1 of the most essential skills that's helped me make progress... to Shift just a little (work on the next baby step ;)

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emoticon emotional compromises with chocolate
- left off the candy in-between holidays and special occasions; stopped clipping coupons and stocking up 50% off the day after holidays

- occasionally buy 1, like a 240 cal pack of m&ms and work it in...

emoticon other emotional compromises
~ use chocolate whey protein powder in my morning coffee! yum (after I proportionally mixed/switched from cocoa powder)

emoticon from milk chocolate to dark ~ heart health emoticon
~ never ever wanted to eat dark, didn't like it... but it apparently can help with heart health - so I decided to eat dark if I was gonna eat. started with foil wrapped raspberry chocolates, then 65% non-alkaline processed dark, and worked my way to 90%. I use a square melted with a tbsp. of pb as a dip for bananas or apples - and discovered to my surprise that it will snap/break a sweet tooth urge/urge to binge... as do pickles with mustard! lol ;0

emoticon it is hard to imagine future changes, but this technique helps me - to get real about what I am doing and to find things I am willing to shift/try as I reach forward with my hopes & dreams :)



emoticon this is very different than going cold-turkey, white knuckled, no excuses, all in... with a change... that I had to do when I quit sickerettes…. and when I withdraw from EXCESS/OVEReating carbs - which totally sucks and I often don't make it through the withdrawals... but that is emotionally much harder... and when I'm doing that, it's like all sorts of extra tlc - go take a nap/cry my way through it... and I hate it... so the little baby steps/small shifts actually is much happier making way to make changes for me :)

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emoticon doing any batch cooking this weekend? we just did a whole chicken crockpotted last night... I added a bag of small white beans... (didn't think about pre-soaking... big mistake.... huge! - they tooooooookkkkkkkk fooooooorrrrreeevvvvverrrrr!!! lol ;)

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Jules, thank-you, thank-you, thank-you, I so needed this today. You definitely captured my inner child now I need to learn how to rein her in. And thanks for the laugh. I'm still laughing. She's actually kind of cute. I love the image about the Inner Idiot coming out.
When I have slip-ups I need to forgive myself off and get up and keep on trying because I'm worth it. We're all worth it! emoticon
Hope you have a great day!



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I think of this as my wild child, inner 2 yr old child ~ she used to totally escape & run wild, evenings & weekends & all holidays and for days after.... ;)



urging me to eat, eat more, eat more now!



popped up everywhere ~ in the craziest of times, in the whackiest of places!



and, I saw this one today, and thought, yeah, that's about right! emoticon



emoticon just made me laugh...

emoticon a few years ago, I decided that I just needed to practice and keep practicing helpful ways to eat and helpful things to do for non-food stress... read these little books, have heart2hearts with dh... forgive myself, get up, dust off, assess & adjust what happened, tweak perhaps, then more practice... and repeat...

emoticon honestly Shirley, sometimes, this is what it feels like! emoticon



and other times, it just has helped tremendously - to release the guilt, to forgive, to dust off and move forward - it has been my key to forward motion... I think Mermaid last year shared a "recovery" strategy. I've lost the link, but that was it... We are adults, we're going to have ups/downs, but we are gonna just keep trying because we're worth it! we choose to, we want to and we're just gonna! Chin up! This week can be gr8! Onward :)



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Jules I so enjoyed reading everything you wrote, you're very inspiring and know just what I'm feeling. I had a good week and lost 6 lbs.! Then the last 3 days I went out and self-sabotaged myself, even after waking up saying each day today is going to be a good day and I'm going to track my food and stay on course. I didn't realize how sabotaging my dh is until this weekend. He would go into a gas station to get something to drink and bring me back a candy bar or something. I should have just gave the whole thing to him but no I just share half and eat it and then beat myself up. Weekends just do me in. I need to have a talk with him I guess, after all he's not a mind reader.

As for Valentine's Day dh admitted that the cookies were all that he was planning to get me but after being at work all day and seeing several women in the office getting flowers he felt guilty and stopped and got me some on his way home from work, at 11:30 at night. I think I got him straightened out that cookies were not appropriate when I'm trying to lose weight.

The good news is he starts working from home today! I'm so happy. As of yesterday he thought they had gotten all of the glitches straightened out, I sure hope so. We'll see how things go this afternoon.

I had good intentions to do Chapter 7 and didn't get to it either. Hopefully tonight I'll have a chance.
I guess I better go and get some work done. Hope everyone has a great day!



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emoticon just didn't get the next chapter, day 7 done, yet... ran out of time - will probably not do until later this week/next weekend... I did skim day 7 and am pondering it... because it is an approach that has worked really well for me with some things... and not others...



which always brings me to... just start. start where you are today, go from there... It's all good :)



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emoticon {{{Mermaid}}} ~ sooooo glad 2 c u! Yes, agree, there is a time and a place... and there are times when I just can't or won't and there is nooooo reason to beat ourselves up for it when we don't! I think 1 of the most freeing lessons in the original book was wide/narrow road - and the realization that it is ok to make adjustments... You are in an extraordinary moment of life ~ it should be full of things related to your wedding ~ make them happy, enjoy them, no guilt! You will get back to creating a self-care normal days routine after the honeymoon! And during these days, because life does not stop... find ways that make you happy, nourish you physically and emotionally, that support your hopes & desires.... and when you are back, I can't wait to hear about your adventures!!!

and, ps, I think this could be done anywhere ;)




emoticon {{{Shirley}}} I dooooo hear what you are saying... I went through several times when hubby knew I was trying to "diet" (for whatever reasons, I was trying to stay away from carbs...) and he brought me some.... I didn't ask for them, hadn't planned for them, and usually they triggered me to dive in and eat them and then I would be so upset... After several incidents of that happening and subtle hints from me, we had a little heart2heart... I asked him gently, 'why are you bringing me food? are you trying to sabotage me?" and he, not defensive... said… No... I love you... I wanted to bring you a treat - because I know you like these things... [which is true, they were things I had.... in the past, called him at work and asked him to bring home for me.]

emoticon I was not expecting that answer, and it melted my heart about it... we went onward in the conversation about how... for now, again, I was trying to step away from those things, please don't bring them for me...

emoticon sometimes it is hard to change our own thinking, let alone our hubby's! LOL... it was not a 1 and done conversation - we have had it often, in many more ways, especially because he has not wanted to change the way he eats in the ways I want to try eating - he doesn't want nearly the amount or ways I like veggies and try to have 2 cups at lunch and dinner (helps fill me up) ~ I quit baking because he would have like 1 or 2 pieces and I would eat the other 98! He brought home donuts, and I asked him to put them someplace I would not cross paths with them.... because I would raid them... and dang, I found them like 6 months later, he had eaten 1... I would've scarfed the box before bedtime... and

emoticon It was because I could not help myself/resist my trigger foods that I had to find different ways to cope - which included asking him to keep his eatings out of my sight... like when I quit smoking, I just could not be around anyone smoking, because I would like tackle them for their sickerettes! Same with sweets, treats & goodies...

And honestly, it breaks my heart that it's even a problem, but it is, and it helps me to get real about it, with me and my own self-talk and when I need to, to let hubby know what I need from him... and it has helped.

emoticon now bosses are another story - they pay us to be there and do what they want.... and to do it with a smile. And, it is hurtful when they are snobs about it... I had a boss who looked me up and down at my appearance, darn near every time I encountered her, and it always included a flash of disapproval in her eyes... and that really can knock us off our self-confidence feet... and get in our head and make us feel anxiety...

because, honestly, it is their personal problem and character flaw to be judgemental and a snob...

emoticon somewhere along the way - I realized that... I was xtra sensitive to what everyone thought of me... good, bad or ugly, a lot of people and the world make me feel fat and ugly... it seems to be the way of the world these days... and honestly, it's stupid, as stupid and ignorant and racism and stigmatism/hate towards any group of people for their gender, race, reglion/faith beliefs, height, eye color, left/right handedness, squeaky voice or booming voice problems, the way people gigglesnort or whatever... or the color a person paints their house or the car they drive... I mean what the heck is up with any of that???



emoticon it is a change in thinking to choose different self-thinking - to set aside other people freaking expectations - to not carry on where they left off... to not beat ourself up with wet noodles because we're not good enough, too fat, or whatever...

emoticon I had a real hard time in 2017 when a doctor fired me because I was fat and would not have the weight loss surgery or take happy pills - I tried to tell her, I was not depressed and those things don't fix my urges to eat - I am trying to change how I eat and my whys, hows, whatnots... She said but you are still stress eating, don't do any of that... and when I still wouldn't do what she wanted, she fired us, started getting all jerky, and slammed the door...

and I thought wow.... and in that experience, brought to mind, all the people who disapproved of me because of my weight. Honestly, it can be severely damaging to self-confidence... as if our weight makes or breaks us as a good or bad person, and honestly, it just is not true....



emoticon I love everyone, my family, my friends, just the way they are... I don't care if they wear glasses, are left or right handed, short, tall, skinny or fat... we have people who have the other "disabilities" or whatever, and when I love them, I hardly even notice... I can't remember what eye color they have or anything sometimes because i'm not sneering at their quirky quaint uniquely them personal characteristics and qualities...

emoticon what I am loving is their kindness, their thoughtfulness, their giggles and sense of humor, the hands they reach out in love or friendship, the heart2hearts they share...

emoticon and what does that mean for me - I am as precious and worthwhile and valuable and marvelous as any other person on this planet... as precious as any baby...

emoticon I do think it is something we have to consciously and actively choose to think... and practice... I find it hard to look in the mirror, and when I do catch someone sneering at me or trying to "fix me, because I'm just not ok the way I am" well, dang, I have to talk back to that.. express it, and choose to release it... and I find the emotions from that come in waves, for days... of upsetedness and sorrow, and self-flagellation that I didn't meet their expectations, then anger, like who the heck do they think they are...

and that's when the hand comes up - emoticon talk to the hand emoticon

even if it's just in my mind - because we really can't talk back to the boss... :\… but we can reject it in our brain and our heart...

we can consciously choose to release their nasty...



emoticon and we can choose to love and accept ourselves, and practice that as long as it takes, until we believe it, deep down inside ~ until it is our 1st thought, instead of something we have practice...… because we matter... as much as everyone else...

emoticon and I am forever grateful that Christi shared this pic in our book talks... It has helped me choose me... and accept me, just as I am...



emoticon sorry about the long, I get long too... ~ methinks it helps to express and talk through these things! thank you for sharing. thank you for caring, and thank you for listening :)

He who would learn to fly one day must first learn to stand and walk and run and climb and dance; one cannot fly into flying ~ Friedrich Nietzsche. I want to fly.
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2/14/20 8:47 A

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It's so good to hear from you Mermaid! I can understand why you might not be quite ready to start with your wedding coming up. I know you're probably stressed and really excited.

Jules, I work for a large school district in the central office so I'm a year round employee. They started doing the compressed work week about 8 years ago, oh how I hate them. Don't get me wrong I do enjoy having a 3 day weekend but I'm so exhausted by Friday that it does take a day to recuperate. This is supposed to be an "energy saver" so all offices and schools are closed on Fridays. I go into survival mode. We have a tendency to go grab fast food more because I'm too tired to cook. I don't even enjoy summers anymore.

Oh dear, I'm kind of frustrated with my dh. Usually he's very supportive of my dieting and he needs to lose a little too so we try and support each other. Of course he's working today and I really won't see him again until Sunday. Usually he has flowers delivered to work or he buys them but since he's working I know his time is limited. There are these home baked cookies at WalMart and they are to die for. I love them. Thankfully there's only 3 in a package. So this morning when I got up he had put out those cookies and a card. I appreciate him thinking of me and he knows I do love those cookies but I'm on steroids and have to watch the sweets and carbs plus trying to lose weight. So wow! He woke up long enough to tell me Happy Valentine's Day and I told him I got his gift and was happy. He said it wasn't much and I told him it was fine. I'm just feeling really disappointed or hurt like he set me up for failure. Do you get what I'm saying?

Wow! Talk about a kick in the stomach, the other day I had my evaluation with the director. She's very skinny and petite and always dressed to the nines. Here I am obese and I wear whatever clothes I can find that fit and kind of look frumpy. So I'm sitting there in a chair that's too small for me and feeling so utterly awful about myself, I've never felt fatter in my life. I'm the biggest person in the office so I always feel a bit out of place. I was sitting there comparing her to myself and feeling very embarrassed, I didn't hardly hear what she was saying. I'm hoping I'll keep that vision in my mind and be more motivated to lose weight. I will have to say I'm doing much better about tracking my food. I just need to stay motivated. I'm so thankful for this team and the support from everyone. I'm really enjoying this book.
Hope everyone has a good weekend. Sorry this is so long.



"This too shall pass"

I need to get up, brush myself off and keep doing it until I learn to do it right!

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2/13/20 5:09 P

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Y'all don't know it, but we all just had a lovely time catching up... When I noticed how many posts I had to catch up on, I got something to drink (can of sparkling water), turned on some background jazz (from YouTube), and lit a candle (fresh cut lilacs).

I'm not ready to get started yet, but I do have a few observations...

First, I love reading the book together and comparing notes. I always find it interesting when a certain line in the book triggers one person and soothes another. On Day 2, when Spangle says something along the lines of, "If you're not ready, don't even start!" I can fully understand the triggering reaction. But for me... It was like, "Y'know what? I'm NOT ready!" It reminded me of something I read in Beck a long time ago. Before you start a new chapter in your weight loss journey, you need to consider whether or not you're truly ready. On the flip side, the ideal conditions do not exist. Stress happens, life happens. But during certain big moments of change in your life (like say... planning a wedding!), there's really only so much you can put on your plate. Figuratively speaking. (Ha!) So when I read that line, I gave myself permission to put the book down.

But then I kinda allowed myself to give up entirely for what felt like an eternity...

So I said all of that to say this: I am back, just dipping my toe in the water. I'll watch here from the edge of the pool, cheering you on, until I'm ready to dive into the deep end!
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2/13/20 2:36 P

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emoticon 4 ten hours a day, that's the thing, they are exhausting... I would need a day to catch up and rest... Any chance they could rearrange so you had Wed off instead of Fridays this summer. it was easier when I could do that... otherwise, I spent Fridays at home, puttering... I would sleep in, do a little light housekeeping, take a nap, have lunch - go do an errand, come home, nap, dinner... then more unwind Fri night... Usually felt much better Sat morning! It was like Friday became my 'me time' ~ in some ways it was nice to take a pamper~me day each week...

emoticon Happy Valentines tomorrow ~ we have not quite settled, but hubby may come home early for a dinner out at a smoked meats restaurant... they have a hoagie sandwich and you get to choose 2 or 3 meats.... served warm.... considering that with a green salad... mostly, just looking forward to getting to sit and yammer fireside for an hour or so...

I will do the next day sometime this weekend too :)

He who would learn to fly one day must first learn to stand and walk and run and climb and dance; one cannot fly into flying ~ Friedrich Nietzsche. I want to fly.
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During June and July every year we work 4 - 10 hour days, no lunch break, and now I have an hour commute each way so I'll be gone 12 hours a day! OMG! I absolutely hate it, it's nice to have Fridays off but usually by then I'm so exhausted I just feel like i need to recuperate. I just go into survival mode during the summer, I sit down and think about what easy recipes I can make that don't take much time and crockpot meals. A lot of times we would just go eat out because I'm so tired, but since dh will be working evenings now we won't be doing that. I've started food prepping on weekends that's what I need to do.

Anyway, dh logged into the system at work last night from home and it worked! So hopefully next week will go off without a hitch. LOL!

I want the same things you do too, I guess most of us do. I'm so tired of waking up every morning with a different pain. Unfortunately this steroid my Dr. has me on now isn't working at all. Yesterday was really bad and another bad night. I haven't slept for more than four hours any night this week. It's starting to catch up with me. If I have time today I'm going to look for a chiropractor that takes my health ins.

I'm so glad to be on SP too, it sure helps when you find out you're not the only one struggling. I hope you have a wonderful day! Going to try and work on Day 7 tonight.



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That would be great Shirley, if he can work from home again... and if not... maybe later!

I am glad you're doing better this week... and yes, 'thirsty' is just the word... when I worked in an office, 10 hr days and more sometimes with OT, I would feel thirsty for fun, free time, and time with hubby... it was way worse when our schedules were not the same... Looking back, I wish I had learned better coping skills - I love the idea of the diamond painting - I can see how that relaxes... and I also have gotten up middle of the night with can't sleep~i~tis… it drives me nuts and sometimes, I just get up... usually flip on the tv to a boring monotone "teach you how they make nuts and bolts" kinda show.... and even that doesn't always work, lol

anyway - the older I get, I just feel like hey... whatever... what can I do today to help myself - whatever the day is... reading this book once or twice a week is part of that...

yesterday I watched a "where are they now..." show about someone who had the weight loss surgery and it showed the 2 - 3 years afterwards... amazing... she went from like 700+ lbs to 150... had severe arthritis in both knees, 1 had locked up, couldn't stand/walk - and eventually had both knees replaced, was able to get started walking, and could walk without the wheelchair or walker!

I want that. I want to be able to walk, bend, reach, get up, get down, move, breathe easier... and not need help!

emoticon it's why I'm here, doing these things, and I am glad to have people here who understand and who will talk about it! Thank you!!!! hugs



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