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2/13/12 7:41 A

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i dreamed about him last night, we have this huge field in front of our home and he used to run down there to the fence there is another dog on the other side, he would run and she would come over and bark at him.
i dreamed he was just laying down in the grass in the field and there was another dog laying up by our porch and i guess he was afraid to come up to the porch cause of the dog.
so i went and picked him up, but in the dream, i never saw his face, i just picked him up and was carrying him and i remember looking down at him and his hair looked shaved, in the dream i was thinking it was back when he had the surgery and they had shaved him.
then i dreamed my sister called and told me they were going to have to put her dog to sleep and i was saying how badly it hurts and she better be prepared, but the thing is, in real life, her dog had to be put to sleep in november, she had seizures and sparky lived 2 months longer....i guess dreams are just crazy thoughts and feelings mingling together in our subconscious.....but it was nice seeing him again.

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2/13/12 12:00 A

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Anyone who has loved a pet knows how your heart is breaking.
It hurts to lose a beloved pet,especially when you have to make the choice to let go.
But that last act of friendship was the most caring thing you could have done for your companion.
It also says a lot about the special bond that you shared with your pet-
a bond that will leave behind many wonderful memories.

In dreams and in life, nothing is impossible.


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2/7/12 6:55 A

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i came home just an hour after sparky had been put to sleep and bagged everything of his up, and took his bed, pop-up kennel, he had been sleeping in since he had gotten sick last summer, i put everything in that kennel, dog shampoo, nail clippers, toys, everything, and set it out on the front porch.
i took all of his bedding and cut a swatch out of each blanket, and i took one of his newer toys, and two of his little sweaters and put them in a zip lock baggie and kept.
i am going to take those swatches and make a picture frame with them. i buried him with his favorite two toys and two of his favorite blankets around him.
the other day i was looking thru a drawer and found his nail file, and i also still have his clippers.
things i overlooked, i guess it was irrational of me to do that, but i just didnt want to see it.
knowing he would never be sleeping there or playing with the toys.
they are all still in a bag on the front porch, i thought honey had set them out for the garbage, but i guess he is dealing with the loss in his way as well.
i go to sparkys grave at least 2 times a week, i have plans to fix it up alot nicer when spring and warm weather stick around.
i am still very lost and lonely without him, people are already asking if i want a dog, but no, i swore i wouldnt ever have another....not like that, not to love.
my son has a dog he is planning to start staying with us soon and wants to bring the dog but honey says no, he will have to take it elsewhere, i dont know how that will work out.
it might help me to have the dog around to feel not so lonely, but i just dont think im ready for that yet.

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I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I hadn't thought about the dog's hairs like you are before or about the dog's barking. We are always trying so hard to keep the barking down to keep the neighbors satisfied, but the silence when those who bark are gone is deafening sometimes. When my friend's wife had my dogs taken away while I had cancer and just got out of the hospital, I took an old tape recorder up to the kennel (I actually foiled her and got them to a friend's kennel) and taped the dogs barking. Blue actually talked to me about things (I wish I could have understood what he said). I used to sit on my porch and play that tape over and over. I wonder if I could find it now. I also wish I had video of the dogs when they were younger. Venture is quiet now and doesn't even bark at the dog next door. I still haven't moved Blue's crate or washed the cushion bed he used the last few months.



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I am so sorry for your loss. It is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. But yes there is nothing like the joy they give you or the way they are waiting for you to get home. I hope in the near future you will be able to remember the fun times with your Angel.

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To the last poster, LASTFIRSTDAY, thanks for sharing, your dog and mine both died on the same day.
I know what you mean about the clothes, yesterday I finally washed the little throw I keep on my couch, the day before my Sparky had to be put to sleep, he was so so sick and I wrapped him in that throw and held him on the couch and petted him, and just tried to ease his suffering as well as I could.
It had been in the hamper, right on top, and I would pick it up and try to find his smell on it, but I no longer could, so I finally washed it.
I kept two of his little sweaters and swatches of several of his little fleece blankets, I put them into a zip lock baggie, and I still find myself getting them out and smelling them trying to find some trace of him on them.
I am slowly losing that smell memory. I have tons of pictures and even a couple of videos....but my biggest regret is that I dont have video of him barking, I have one where he yaps for a second and that is the only one with sound of him.
In 9 years I had him, I wish I had thought to make more video of him barking and playing, in better happier healthier times.
It has been 2 weeks today, And I still have trouble sleeping. I replay over in my head that day in the vets office, and I cant seem to just doze off to sleep without troubling thoughts.
If only I can get to a place where my memories of him are of happy times.
I honestly this morning thought about calling and getting an appt with the local mental health place, I went there after the death of my brother 14 years ago and had been going regularly up until last year when my counselor left.
Now I honestly feel I need grief counseling.
I hope your healing process is alot faster and easier than mine. Thanks again for sharing.

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I had to have my dog put to sleep on the 23rd of Jan, she had cancer and a tumor started to grow near her throat making it more difficult to breathe and eat. I had her for 11 years and got her for my 13th birthday. I knew she was miserable and I could prolong it any more or be selfish. It was the most difficult decision of my life. Ironically her name was Angel [after the Buffy character :)] and I hope that's what she is now.

I think the hardest things are the little things. Hearing a dog bark and automatically having that instinct to go to your dog and then you realise it's not her, expecting to see her all excited when you return to your house or finding a dog hair on your clothes. I'm almost afraid to wash my clothes because I know eventually I'll never see any dog hairs on them. I remember I used to be so annoyed when I'd go to put on a jumper and it would be covered in Angel hairs because she used to barrow into my clothes piles, now I'd kill for a Angel hair covered jumper.

"If you have a dog, you will most likely outlive it; to get a dog is to open yourself to profound joy and, prospectively, to equally profound sadness.

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thanks to everyone who have shared their stories, the twinkle had gone out of sparky's eyes that sunday, the way he looked at me on that little exam table on monday, as if saying, "hey, i will be ok, im ready and you better stop crying".....how i regret that i didnt go in and sit and hold him when the last little breath of life left him, but i just wanted his last memory of me to be the kiss i placed on his little forehead and my last memory of him to be the way he laid his head down and sighed, like a sigh of relief.
i will find comfort in all the good memories.

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January 27th 2009 - at this same time - 5:55 pm, I was just getting ready to take my boy for his last van ride. Even though it has been 3 years, the pain of being without him is still overwhelming at times.

I was the first person to hold him when he was literally just a second old, taking his very first breath, and I held him in my arms when he breathed his last. It was time to let him go, I know that for certain. The ever present twinkle had gone out of his eyes that afternoon, but it did not make the decision any easier - just the right thing to do for this wonderful dog that gave his all to me for his whole life.

My Lucky can no longer share adventures with me, or go in the van, but I feel his presence comforting me whenever I am particularly down in spirit - I know he is still watching out for me . I have been truly blessed because I have had not one but three Heart Dogs in my lifetime, but neither of the other two were as close to me as Lucky was.

Lucky you are still my special 'Angel Boy', even though now you live with the Angels instead of here with me. I love you Luck -- RIP little buddy.

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its been 4 days now, i was just sitting here a few mins ago looking at the clock and realizing it has been exactly 4 days, as he drew his last breath around 912 am, monday
we buried him wed evening right before dusk, and made him a good little grave.
as we were burying him, over the hill from the spot we chose, was a little white dog in the yard, barking its little head off at us.
i wonder if it knew what we were doing there.
i wish my boy could have lived long enough to move up there so he could have seen the little dog next door.
my pain is still overwhelming, but each day i find comfort and some laughter has even cracked the wall.
i miss the little things he did, like watching honey eat, every time honey would look at sparky, sparky would quickly look away and then back, honey would trick him and act like he was looking away and then quickly look back to catch sparky watching him
it was a little game the two had.....
thanks to all who have understood and offered kind words.

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1/25/12 2:45 P

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I am still praying for you. I know the pain that you are going thru. We have ours cremated now and I do not feel complete until we have them back home. I pray that you will find peace and comfort.

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there is a song i found on youtube that helps comfort, but i have cried so many tears the last 4 days, sunday when i knew the pain for him was just too much to go on, and monday when i took him as soon as the vet opened his doors to be free from pain.....
and now the tears i cry arent for him, as i know he is in a better place, i imagine him running again and frollicking with other little dogs and being watched over by bigger older wiser dogs and maybe his mommy is there with him.....
that is my comfort, as tonight we prepare to lay him to his final resting place....i went today and bought a few little flowers and grave markers, but soon as we can, i am going to have a proper headstone made for him


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I am so sorry about your loss and really feel for you. A person can never replace the one they lost, but often some other dog will get into your heart and help to comfort you. It doesn't sound possible right now, I know. When I had to have Blue sent to the bridge last month I realized it on Friday evening and cried the entire weekend. I do still have his brother, but I am afraid he will be gone soon, too, and I am not sure I can handle the loneliness when that happens. I have been without a dog only one year since I was 10 and not without a horse since I was 16. I hope that you will find comfort even though you will miss your baby.

I'm not sure what website you were told about, but here are a couple I found:
rainbowsbridge.com/
www.petloss.com/
rainbowbridge.org/



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1/24/12 8:45 A

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I know what you are going thru altho I have never said I will not have another dog. I love my fur babies and will always have at least one. That does not mean that I don't miss the ones that I have lost but they bring so much joy, love and comfort that I will always have one in my life. Maybe you will change your mind after you have some time to grieve. I am sorry for your loss. emoticon

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Someone was telling me about the Rainbow Bridge yesterday, does anyone happen to have a link?
They told me you could register your pet or something like that.
Yesterday was a very hard day for me as I had to have my beloved best friend put to sleep. He was 9 years old, some would call that young compared to some dogs, but he had a good 9 years, he was blessed.. Warm beds and covers to sleep under, food and water, love, toys, joy he brought to me.....
I blogged a little about it, he had been sick really since July, he had had surgery for a perineal hernia and while the last 6 months werent all bad, he had had some problems return, and the hernia had shifted to the other side, by the end they said he was slowly being paralyzed by the cut off of blood flow, it had started to move up his organs, he would drink water but couldnt eat much and when he did he would vomit.
Saturday he seemed fine, but by Sunday he was in terrible distress, I knew he was in bad shape and I had to make that choice, I cried all day Sunday because I knew when I was finally able to get him to the vet on Monday that it would be over.
I am hurting, and I know I will never give my heart to another dog, I cant take the pain it brings to lose one.
I plan to blog more tomorrow about what a good dog he was and some of his little quirks.
I am so sorry to all of you who have lost pets as well. I cant even call him a pet, he was a family member, he was my best friend.

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Suz, and Cwhite - I am so sorry to hear about your multiple losses! That makes everything feel so much worse, when suddenly there is not just one special soul missing from your daily life, but two empty spaces. I understand, because I've gone through it myself.

When I was so dreadfully lost after losing my sweet Lucky, someone suggested that I write about him and maybe that would ease some of my pain. It took me several weeks to do it, but they had been correct - it DID help, at least a little. If you think reading what I wrote about his life, and then a year later how I felt without him might help you, then please feel free to do so - they are both on my spark page.

The pain of the loss never, ever goes away, but I can promise you , from the bottom of my heart, and my own experience that it does become easier to bear! Take heart in the knowledge that there are others of us here who understand how you feel.

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Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened!

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Suz, I am so sorry to hear that. I haven't been through losing more than one at a time, but I know how terrible it has been when losing just the one I've had before. I hope that you have support from other and know that we are here to support you.



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1/16/12 11:20 A

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I am so sorry for your loss. We(my daughter and I) have lost 2 since the day before Thanksgiving. The first was Allie, a 6 1/2 yr old pitt mix that my daughter rescued 6 yrs ago. We were totally unprepared for this. On that Tuesday State Veterinary Hospital diagnosed her with 3 brain tumors and said that we would probably have 2 weeks with her, but sadly by the next morning she was moaning in pain and didn't seem to know where she was or who we were, so my daughter made the decision to spare her anymore pain. Then the Sunday after Christmas Zeppie(the husky/shepard mix)that donated blood to save Allie the day she was brought in couldnt walk(spinal) and didn't seem to know anybody and the vet said that she thought he had some type of brain tumor. He was 14 but was such a good dog that we adopted from the shelter when he was about 2.

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My sweet little Indy passed away early this morning..... today was his 13th birthday..... I knew he wasn't going to make it much longer yesterday and we spent most of the day snuggled together...... they told me just after my Winston died and Indy had developed kidney problems from his diabetes..... I have been giving him insulin shots for almost 8 years and they had me start doing IV's to help his kidney's but it didn't help....... the Vets and everyone tells me that for him to have lived to 13 after being diabetic for nearly 8 years was amazing......... he was amazing and never gave me any problems.... he was a sweet and loving son......

I've lost all my children within a year..... 3 wonderful beautiful children........ 2 to heart disease and 1 to diabetes complications.......

I'm just so totally devastated I don't know how I"ll get through the days ahead.......

Suz

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I found great comfort in the poem Rainbow Bridge- it came back to me with my baby's ashes. I framed it and hung it over the place where I keep my guy's ashes.While it has been over 3 years, I still miss him every day but know he is no longer suffering. The last few months were difficult ones. I know we will meet up again- until that time emoticon

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I am so sorry about your little Winston. Some people don't understand how we can feel such pain when we lose our little ones, but they are our family. I am still crying over Blue, so I can understand how you are missing Winston so. I hope that soon you can find you are remembering happy moments with him more and more.



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it's taken me awhile to post I'm still so upset over the loss of my beautiful precious son, Winston. I lost him 3 days before Christmas to an enlarged heart. He had just been diagnosed with heart problems in April and that had been right after I lost his pretty little sister to heart problems in March. I pleaded with God to not take my son from me he was only 7 years old.... not that old for a Yorkie..... but he had trouble playing he'd cough and fall over, he couldn't run in the fenced yard he loved anymore without coughing, and then he wasn't even able to get off our bed without coughing so I'd carry him...... now he's gone.... he was my baby........ my little one....... I told him how much Mommy loved him every day and brushed his beautiful silky coat..... I miss my son so very much.... it's really difficult to get through the days without him....... I want my baby back...... Winnie Mommy misses you so very much......

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Do what you have to to be happy in this life.....
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The animals have no voice but ours....
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What have you done today to make yourself proud? (biggest loser)

NEW YEAR NEW RULES!



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I am so sorry to read of all these new losses. My deepest condolences to all of you, and hopes that your pain eases as quickly as possible, so that your memories are not so much tainted by the absence of your special friend, but rather filled with joy and laughter as you recall all the wonderful times you shared with him / her!

Several years ago, we had to make a doubly difficult decision, because we had to let 2 go on the same day. They were 1/2 brother and sister and were the foundation of our breeding program. It ended up that in the next 5 1/2 years I also lost her son, then the daughter of the first pair, and just 6 months later I had to unexpectedly say good bye to her son. The four were all between 12 and 14 years old, so while it was still very hard to let them each go, it was not nearly the shock of the last boy who was only 9 and went down so fast that there was no real way to prepare for losing him. These 5 were the very last I had of the breeding program I had spent nearly 30 years developing.

We still have 3 in the house, but they are from another kennel - it is not the same to me.

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My deepest condolences to you and your family. That would be really hard with two so close together.





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Well, didn't think I would be posting in this forum again this soon but.... Zeppie our husky/shepard mix went over the Rainbow Bridge Sunday Morning. My daughter called me to say that he was not eating, wouldn't walk and she could not get his pain medicine in him. We knew he had hip problems and he was at least 14 years old. We adopted him from the pound when he was about 2. He was such a good dog(and if you remember my posts about Allie that we lost just before Thanksgiving) Zeppie was the blood donor that saved Allie's life 6 1/2 years ago. So I know Allie was waiting for him when he got to the bridge just like he looked out for her here on earth.
I forgot to add that the vet thought that along with spinal problems that there was something going on in his brain, possibly a tumor.

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These posts bring tears, and make me feel that I am not alone in my love of my pets. I lost my Great Dane and loyal companion in June. I thought 2 years ago I was losing her, even made arrangements at the vet, but then she made a huge improvement and with supplements, special food, and I honestly think our love for each other made her recover. We enjoyed 2 more great years together. I still miss her so much, she was my companion, protector, my best friend who I could always talk to, and the biggest bed and blanket hog of all.

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There is nothing more precious then wet sloppy kisses,wiggling buttes,and wagging tails. Soft silky ears,warm brown eyes that look into gentle souls and paws that click on hardwood floors.Their reason for life is pure innocent ,unadulterated love,and all they ask is to stand by the human that they love.If that is not proof that God loves us then nothing is. We are to care for Gods creatures here on earth,that is our job. Merry Christmas to all from one animal lover to many!

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Tears are welling up in my eyes as I read all of these posts. To everyone who has loved a dog and then had them go over the rainbow bridge, my aching heart goes out to you. Dogs are absolutely magical creatures, angels really, who leave their blessed paw prints all over our hearts and souls. We take care of them and they give us their the very essence of their being without condition, without judgement, just the purest form of love we can imagine. I truly believe that dog love is a glimpse of the Divine. After all, dog is God spelled backwards for a reason! For those of you who are mourning, know in your heart that you will be with your beloved pup again. They wait for us--no longer in pain, but with great excitement and love-- over that rainbow bridge. Many blessings to you all.

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so do I. emoticon

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12/21/11 8:15 P

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Oh, I am so sorry about your Allie. I wish they didn't have to leave us so quickly.



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12/21/11 2:10 P

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Fancy, I am so sorry for your loss. My daughter and I went thru(and are still) this the day before Thanksgiving. It is so hard to let them go. Allie was only 6 1/2 years old and we found out on that Tuesday that she had 3 brain tumors. I will be praying for you.

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I haven't been here for a while since I don't get the notices of messages since changing email addresses (yes, Ive done the changes at Spark People, but that doesn't help).

This morning I took Blue for his last trip and sent him to Rainbow Bridge. He fought so hard to keep going, but had started to not be able to get up after he fell. So he had some good meals yesterday and this morning before we went down. I am so upset now. I have only his brother left from Annie's litter. They turned 15 in October.



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I was unable to write on monday about the lost of my Tyler, who died suddenly. he had a back injury two years so and was kept quiet for almost 6 weeks. he got most of his strength back and was able to walk again. at the time he was 6 years old. he did well until a few days before Halloween when he was unable to stand up to get out of bed. he was carried by my husband to be able to get out to go to the bathroom. we kept him quiet and resumed the drugs he took before. he was starting to recover, in about two weeks time we took him on Saturday and Sunday to his favorite park for a short walk. that Monday he passed away in my husband's arm at lunch time. I'm glad he is no longer suffering even though a short life of almost 8 years. he will be missed.

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I live in an upstairs apartment. In June of this year, my 100lb lab, Kettle, came in from going potty and stood at the bottom of the steps and looked up. She couldn't climb the stairs. So, Lola, her babysitter, let her stay at her house and I visited every day. The vet did xrays and discovered 4 spurs on her spine. She had problems with lameness off and on and in August the lameness came back. This time the vet discovered she had cancer fluid built up on her leg joint and he drained some off, allowing her to walk again. The evening of Aug 23, she was in so much pain she was awake all night and I laid by her side on the floor at Lola's. Kodak even tried curling up next to her. On Aug 24th the groomer gave a free bath, she made a visit to the office, went to McDonalds and the vet's office was her final visit. Even the vet agreed he thought Kodak would go first. I miss her so much!

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On many occasions, my 10yr old furbaby, Kodak, has refused to cross the bridge. She was diagnosed with mast cell tumor when she was 4. I believe she actually had it since she was a yr old because she had a lump; however, it was aspirated on 3 different occasions but the vets never hit the cancer cells. I finally decided to have the lump removed and it came back as suspicious. She had it removed and then it came back with dirty margins so she had to go to Purdue to have her chest opened and muscle cut out. She has had many close calls. She has been sick the past week, has lost 6lbs and tonight I discovered she has a swelling about the size of my right hand on her right side. Am so fearful she may be starting her journey over the bridge.

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They make (or maybe you can make with a sheet,large towel, etc..) an item that you tuck under his belly with and end on either side so that you can help him up by his middle, and while walking with him use the cloth to hold him up to help support him. Doesnt take nearly the strength as it would to try to pick him up. Have done this many times even to help them in and out as long as it doesnt require stairs. Good luck to you !!

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Jesswald, I just read your post. I am new to this. I actually just joined today! However, a week ago Thursday my dear pug of 14 years got into the road and hit by a car. He was still alive, so I had to take him to be put down. It was awful and I am still crying. Buzzy was the oldest and dearest of our three dog babies.

Last night I went trick or treating with my husband, daughter and my other dog, my Blood hound Big Rose. She was a real comfort, and I loved having her along. Since Buzzy is out of the house we are going to try and bring her in and make her a house dog. I feel your pain and am so sorry for your loss.

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My beloved Chauncey crossed over to Rainbow Bridge 3 years ago and I miss him every day. I received the Rainbow Bridge poem along with his ashes. I framed it and it is on my wall. My Gracie really tries to help me- She will never replace Chauncey but she has filled some void.I work with local rescue group who saves dogs from kill shelter and fosters them until we can get them adopted. Have adoption events at a local Pets Mart 2 Saturdays a month. emoticon

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Hi, I'm new. I happened on this site and I;m sorry for your loss but I need help I am an older person and I don't have enough strength to pick Foster up. He is over11yrs old and a large dog. So I can't even pick him up to take him to the vet when needed.

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How awful - trying so hard to make him feel better!
I had never heard of the Rainbow Bridge -- until Saturday when we had to - as they say - let him cross the bridge. A couple of my Spark Friends sent that to me and it was so comforting to me.
Howler would have been 10 in December, being a Christmas Vizsla. I cannot get over how quickly it went from "he's losing weight" to diagnostic tests for everything - coming back clean - to his refusal to eat and ultimately disoriented and falling down, passing blood. It was just a few days - they say now it was cancer but it breaks my heart! Could we have done more? Were we too patient with the test results taking a week or more each? He never appeared to be in pain but he had to be. I miss him desperately.

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I had to put my bloodhound Bandit to sleep on 9/23/11. He was two years, 4 months, and 13 days old. We got him from Petland and he was the love of my life. Even though he went from 9 lbs. to 109 lbs. in his short lifetime, he insisted he could fit on my lap and be cradled like a baby.

We witnessed his first seizure back in May. It was the scariest thing ever. We rushed him into the emergency vet and they basically told us he'd be OK with medications. So we went to see his normal vet, did blood tests, and found out he had hypothyroidism. Bandit would have to take 4 pills a day for the rest of his life. Frustrating, yes, but doable. I was just happy my bubba was going to be OK!

Thursday my husband called me from home saying Bandit was weak and acting really odd. We took him into the vet to discover he had a temperature of 107. We doused him with cold water and got him down to 104.6. He clearly was feeling better and did not want to be there so we decided to take him home. He spent time in the tub and outside in the cold air where his temperature got down to 102.9. He then shot right back up to 106.8. We rushed him into the vet again where tests showed that his liver and kidneys were failing. His blood wasn't coagulating so more than likely he was bleeding internally. We put him to sleep at about 2 AM Friday morning. It happened so fast I still can't wrap my mind around it. I don't know what to do without him...

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I am sorry for your loss. I can totally relate I had to put my Harley to sleep about a month ago. She was a huge part of my life and helped me get through many many days. She had a tumor and was at risk with the anestetia. I miss her every day.

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I am so sorry for your loss Lover_of_coffee. You did what was best for your friend but it doesn't make it any easier to lose him. Hugs to you and your yorkie. Take care of yourself and let yourself grieve as you need too.

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So sorry for your loss! Even tho it was best that does not take away the pain. My heart aches for you.I have been there much to often myself.I really feel your pain! God bless!

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Very sad to report that we had to let our sweet Jake cross over the rainbow bridge last night. You are right that it is the last loving thing we can do for them. I miss him so much and can't believe I will never be able to snuggle with him again. I know he is not in pain anymore and that helps somewhat. His furry friend (our tiny yorkie) is confused because she can't find him and barks at me when I cry. I've never been this strongly bonded with a dog before and feel like part of me is missing.

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Lover of coffee, There is only one more thing that you can do for your sweet dog. You can loving help him cross over to the Rainbow Bridge. You can hold him and let him go .No more pain or suffering. Its the last LOVING thing you can do!

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My heart is breaking. Our sweet cocker spaniel has been diagnosed with gastrointestinal lymphoma and I'm afraid that the end is nearing. He has lost so much weight, will barely eat anything and has no energy. It is so hard to see him looking depressed and maybe in pain. Our bond is very strong - he has been my shadow, my companion for eleven years and I don't know how to let him go

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Every dog I have rescued I have made a life long commitment to. I promise them that they will never go hungry again. they will never again be beaten or left in a cage to perish. And when the time comes I will do the last loving thing I can do for them. Help them go to the Rainbow Bridge. My 4 chihuahuas thank me every day with hugs and kisses. It is so warm at night with them snuggled under the covers with me and Art their human Daddy.I couldnt sleep well without them. They are our fur babies.

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I lost both of my dogs and one of my cats within a span of 18 months. In April 2008 my cocker spaniel Tigger died. He had a heart murmur from the time he was a baby and when he was 2 years old the vet told me he was not likely to live very long and would be a very sedate dog. He lived to be 13 years old and was hyper until the very last. I knew that a sign that his heart murmur was getting worse was a cough, so on that Monday night in April when he developed a cough I told my husband I was going to take him to the vet on Tuesday. Tuesday morning I woke up and woke my husband telling him something was wrong with Tig. My husband turned on the light and said "There's nothing wrong with him anymore". He had died in his sleep in the bed with us and our other dog Shadow. It was hard, but I was comforted in knowing that he did not suffer, just went to sleep peacefully and stayed that way; it was a good death and one that we can all only hope for.

In January 2009 my husband called me at work to tell me that something was wrong with our cat Boo-Boo and I should meet him at the vets right away. She was 3 years old and had been sick since we found her as a stray when she was less than 6 months old. I got to the vet and she was very weak, barely breathing and had blood in her eyes and nose. The vet said there was nothing that could be done, and she passed before he even got the needle ready. I knew it was her time, and we were lucky to have her for as long as we did, but it was still hard.

The hardest by a long shot though was Shadow, our pittie. Shadow came to us at around 9 months old just about dead from starvation and abuse. I promised her the first day she lived with us that I would never let her be hungry again and that I would always take care of her. In 2007 she jumped out of my husbands truck and tore her ACL. She had surgery and did fine, but we really had to watch her after that because even though she was 10 when she did it she was still as active as a puppy. In 2009 she jumped off the side of our deck and tore the other ACL. The vet did not want to do surgery on a 12 year old dog and said it was better to let her heal on her own. About 2 weeks later she developed a lump on that hip. I did not think much of the lump, just that it was related to her injury. Then she started losing weight, refusing to eat and just laying on the floor looking sad. This was in July 2009. I took her to the vet, crying the whole way because I knew what he was going to say, and because she had lost so much weight so fast that she looked like she was starving again; she was going hungry after I promised she wouldn't. The vet took one look and was sure it was bone cancer. He told me we could do some tests and wait for the results for a few weeks, but that if he was right she would be in terrible pain the entire time. My husband and I held her on the floor of the vets office while he gave her a sedative and then her final shot. I cried non stop for several days, but as they say time heals all wounds (a little bit) and today I can talk about her without breaking down, just a few tears and a lot of smiles for the good times.

In June of this year I got a new puppy, Isabel. She will be 5 months old in September and is a Jack Russell/Pit Bull mix. She is ornery as can be and tries my patience every chance she gets, but I know that these moments are future memories and I cherish each one.

To all of you who have lost a beloved pet, keep your heart open, your next beloved pet is out there waiting for you to give them their fur-ever home.

Shari

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Once again, I'm sorry to see so many new posts here telling of losses, but thank goodness we have this available to us. It helps knowing there are others out there who understand our grief, because NO they aren't 'just a dog'.

I am saddened by your losses and understand your pain, everyone for I too have been in that same position, far too many times over the years - most recently just 3 years ago when we lost our precious Maggie on August 2nd, which was also her Mothers' birthday... and then just over 6 months later when I had to let Maggie's son - my wonderful Lucky, join the rest of his family across The Bridge. Luck was an Heart Dog truly in every sense of the word - he held my heart firmly between his paws, just as his was in my hands always. He and Maggie were all I had left of the breeding program I spent nearly 30 years perfecting.

The pain does not ever go away completely, but I assure it will get easier every day to bear.

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