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Day 80 - Get a new title

I don't usually call myself names.
My self beating is usually around not being "enough".
Smart enough, thin enough, young enough...
I am working on just being me is enough.
Being kind to myself is tough.
I am worthy, I am deserving, I am whole.

Wandered off... back to the exercise.
A new name for me?
I am a strong, healthy woman. (old lady, dame, elder, crone... all fit but have a negative connotation.) (Nana) (Gran)
Not sure how to do this.

Daily life.
As a strong, healthy woman, I make time for self care. I exercise daily and choose healthy, nutritious food. I find healthy ways of dealing with my emotions. I have reconnected to my creative energy.


Wow... Day 80! emoticon

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Day 79 - Live as a "healthy" person
I still love this exercise. The entry below still stands with one exception... I am now 61.
I continue to work toward the "healthy" person I want to become.

Day 79 - Live as a "healthy" person

I love this exercise!

Mainly because it feels like where I am in this journey. I need to shift my focus from losing weight to wellness, as a whole. A healthy person. A whole person. Nutrition, exercise, addressing health issues, dealing with my emotions without eating, connection to my family and the community, learning, growing and creativity. All of me. I have trouble losing weight. My body does not let go easily. Neither does the rest of me. There are many facets to me, I have lived for 60 years and have accumulated 60 years of experiences both good and bad. I am working toward a better version of me. ( I love the gif that another team member posted!) A woman that has lived for 60 years and has made peace with her mistakes and missteps, both real and imagined. This is hard work but I am getting there. I will draw this out in my journal. Thank you, Gill and Linda.


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Day 78 - Ditch the critic

“No matter what you say or do to me, I am still a worthwhile person.”
Spangle, Linda.

I am better at catching my inner critic now... This may be a forever practice.


Day 78 - Ditch the critic

“No matter what you say or do to me, I am still a worthwhile person.”
Spangle, Linda.

My inner critic is incredibly resilient. I am getting better at catching it before it goes too far but she is still there, making sure I question my worth. Nobody is harder on me than I am. I am very good at beating myself up. So, one step in front of another. I continue to challenge my inner critic but she is tough.

"Progress over perfection." (Can't remember who to credit.)
"I am worthy. I am deserving. I am whole." Deepak Chopra




Gill - LOL I am so grateful for that camper. It is really small by comparison to most campers that we see. It works for us and right now, it is allowing us to escape the craziness and go to quiet places. We have reservations for one more trip to the mountains, the first week of October. Hoping the leaves will still have some color and be on the trees. Looking for some more waterfalls before we hunker down for the rest of fall and winter. Have you taken your beach chalet escape, yet? Was it wonderful? Refreshing? Take care, dear lady. emoticon


Waterfalls. One of the reasons why we keep going back to the ADK. emoticon











I have camper envy!

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Day 77 - The healing power of rituals

My morning ritual is right after I am dressed and before anything else, I exercise.
It is helping me stay sane in the chaos of my life.
That sounds so dramatic but it is true.
Not sure I could manage without it right now.

Day 77 - The healing power of rituals

I love this!
(I have said that here, a lot lately. lol)

I like the meditate before making dinner idea and the tea time with a book.
There are several books I am reading that would be perfect for this. Maybe in the morning? But my morning routine is already quite full. hmm. Maybe quiet time with herbal tea and a book as part of my evening routine.

One of the reasons we bought our camper was so that we could bring a little bit of home with us and have our own kitchen when we travel. Of course now, with the pandemic, I am also grateful for the small bathroom!


Edited by: ITS_MY_TURN_NOW at: 7/28/2021 (14:24)
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7/26/21 3:29 P

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Day 76 - Emotional safety

It is still a mess and it is still my safe space.
I have brought in plants, though. lol

Day 76 - Emotional safety

Ahh spaces.

I have a home office. A room to myself. I am grateful for this space but it is a mess. emoticon
That probably says more about my internal state than I want to admit.
It is full of things that matter to me. Books, photos, art and craft supplies, more books, etc. Today I will clear a bit to create an "ahh space". I have a futon that needs a pillow and a throw. I have been wanting to move some plants in, not sure what I have been waiting for. Time to get to it. emoticon

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Day 75 - Small wins

Today...
I prepped and cooked vegetables so we would have healthy foods to grab.
I am catching up with my 100 DWL
I am slowly putting a plan together for post SP
I did my exercise this morning.
I am sticking to my food plan so far today.


Day 75 - Small wins

I can do this!

Wins for yesterday
Drank 4 pint glasses of water
Ate mostly plants
Restarted my meditation class
Did my stretches and gentle yoga
Caught up with 100 DWL

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Day 74 - Watch for rainbows
I still love this...
But as I sit here with my book and old entries, my DH is getting ready to go to the hospital to have a cardiac MRI. I am swinging between relief that we will know more and fear over what it could be. I am scared. Rainbows seem very far away today.

But...
the sun is shining.
I have healthy choices to eat in our fridge.
I spent time on zoom with our kids and grandchildren.
I am grateful for this day.
and soooo many things.

Day 74 - Watch for rainbows

I love this!!!!

In addition to the other stuff, I am working on a gratitude journal.
Noticing the good things that happen. My baby granddaughter's smile, she fills my heart with joy, sunny days, the leaves are just starting to change, the joy I get from opening a new book and coffee... there is nothing like the first sip of the day.

Especially now, with all that is going on in the world, finding things that make us smile is more important than ever.

I am caught up!

Edited by: ITS_MY_TURN_NOW at: 7/26/2021 (16:21)
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Day 73 - All-or-nothing

Gray...
There is so much uncertainty in my life right now, concerning my DH health.
It sounds like a crutch and eating disorderish thing to say I need some absolutes, some rules to live by. Practices to cling to while my world is spinning slightly off it's axis.
Finding comfort in structure instead of emotional eating.
Am I trading one "drug" for another in my attempt to comfort myself?
Trading "rules" for comfort food?


Day 73 - All-or-nothing

"Embrace the gray."

Hmmm.

I am learning to "embrace the gray" with regard to my behavior but right now, I need the structure of some absolutes. I gave up trying to be perfect years ago but I still struggle if I have to decide everything in the moment. Like I said... it is easier to live with NO SNACKING.


Edited by: ITS_MY_TURN_NOW at: 7/26/2021 (16:16)
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Day 72 - Sneak eating

No snacking is much easier for me.
No food after 6:30 is easier for me to live with than the oh I can do it sometimes.
I can't.


Day 72 - Sneak eating

I used to do this a lot. It didn't count if no one saw me.

I am not snacking right now. I am working with meal timing. I find it easier to stick with absolutes like "no snacking" instead of sometimes I can have a snack or only when I meet certain criteria. Just easier with NO SNACKING. LOL

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Day 71 - It's too hard!

"I can do hard things!"
Thank goodness my neck is better.
I am still tight on my right side and I am working hard to loosen up.
I exercise every morning before I can talk myself out of it.
I am doing hard things all day long right now.
I can do this.


Day 71 - It's too hard!

"I can do hard things!"

I am very good at making detailed plans that are very hard to live by. I am currently trying to loosen my food and movement rules to make it easy for me to live in a way that is healthy on many levels, including my emotional and physical wellness. For instance, 30 minutes of movement a day without absolutes as to what constitutes movement. I have been dealing with a pinched nerve in my neck for the last few months. When I couldn't even participate in a zoom Qigong class without pain, I got discouraged and gave up. Well, I am back to 30 minutes of movement with one rule. I have to respect my body and pain when choosing movement or exercise for the day.

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Day 70 - No good or bad

Too often...
I have a SP friend that uses that language all the time.
Well, she is getting a bit better and so am I.
Thinking in terms of data.
Not good. Not bad.
Just information to learn something and move forward.
I am still working on it.



Day 70 - No good or bad

"...allowed or not allowed..."

I am really good at beating myself up for mistakes, both real and imagined. I am working on changing those patterns. Judging myself far more harshly than I would judge anyone else. Still have work to do .

Edited by: ITS_MY_TURN_NOW at: 7/26/2021 (16:06)
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Day 69 - No cheating allowed
I am still living NO S.
I am still learning to "re-frame" when I slip off track.
I am getting better at getting up, dusting myself off and getting on with it.
It takes everything I have to do that but I have other things to consume my
energy these days. Not a lot of time left for beating myself up.

We had a healthy dinner and we had DH's choice for cake yesterday.
His sister was not impressed. I immediately felt like I did it wrong, it wasn't good enough, etc.
Except we are trying to live healthy and make healthy choices every day and we did that
yesterday on his 60th birthday. That was his choice and mine.
Who is she to judge?
Why do I give my power away?


Day 69 - No cheating allowed

"...choose or choice..."

I choose to have a treat. (Thank you, Gill.)

I am playing with the NO S way of eating. I do allow myself to have "treats" on S days. I am choosing to not eat bread, chips or sweets that rest of the time. It seems to be working, we will see how it plays out in the long run. I never understood the "cheat day" thing. That way of eating would have sent me into an avalanche of eating choices that would make me miserable emotionally. Which brings me back to the "cheating" on my food plan makes me feel bad and cycles with emotional eating. ugh. Re-framing is a struggle sometimes but I am working on it.



Edited by: ITS_MY_TURN_NOW at: 7/26/2021 (15:53)
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Day 68 - I had a "pause"
Some of this still fits.
I did have a pause, yesterday.
DH birthday. There was cake.
It was just us on his 60th birthday.
A zoom party with our kids.
He is still not feeling well.
I am still very worried.
So we had cake.
I am back on track today.
Clinging to my morning exercise and self care routines like a life raft.
Praying that I am strong enough to keep us afloat.
Doing things I am scared to do because they need to get done.
I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.
Yesterday I had a pause.


Day 68 - I had a "pause"

"Spend a few minutes thinking about what got in the way of your original eating plan. Then when you've learned from that event, mentally erase the board and get on with your life."

"It's the erasing or discarding that's important."

Thank you Linda and Gill.

A pause.

The hiking example was really good for me. I have strength and stamina issues. Hashimoto's messes with both but I have not been exercising much in the last couple of months because of the pain from a pinched nerve in my neck. I gave up. sigh. When we go hiking and I get winded my immediate thoughts are "I am too old" , "I am too heavy", "I will never be strong enough, light enough..". If I say it out loud, because I am apologizing for slowing him down, he is good at telling me to stop and pointing out the things I am doing to fix it. But my internal dialog is not kind to me. SO I keep working on it. I have started exercising again while respecting my body and neck issues. There is no reason I can't hit my step goal or do some yoga or lower body and core strength training. So I am back to it.

Hiking is my head clearing, happy place. I need it to manage stress.

I wandered off track.

Figuring out the "why" of what I am doing to myself is a focus for me, right now. I am trying to rewrite old stories that have kept me from changing the things I need to change. The biggest is my aversion to exercise. I will look for any reason to stop or not start and I use the slip as a reason to quit. I can use the white board idea for this as well.

Edited by: ITS_MY_TURN_NOW at: 7/26/2021 (15:43)
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Day 67 - Never say "I blew it!"

I still love it and this still applies.
Still working on being kind to myself.

Day 67 - Never say "I blew it!"

"Isn't that interesting. I wonder what that was all about" I love this!

I am really good at beating my self up. I have done this. I already blew the day, the moment ... whatever and I just keep going. sigh. The car example is a great one. I think it will stick in my head. LOL Hope so. Learning to be kind to myself is an ongoing process.

Edited by: ITS_MY_TURN_NOW at: 7/20/2021 (11:51)
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Day 66 - Don't even start!

I was grocery shopping, on my own, the other day. My husband was not well enough to come with me. I was so overwhelmed that my first instinct was to grab some treats. Life is hard right now, I deserve a ... But I didn't. I walked away. I was so proud of myself, it carried me out of the store. lol

Day 66 - Don't even start!

I like the idea but I tend to rebel. So if I get parental and bossy with myself, sometimes that backfires.

"What do I need to run from?"
The idea that I can have just one. Most sweets are manageable for me. Except for cookies. Chocolate chip cookies being the worst or best example of something sweet that I would eat more than one of. Now chips... are my downfall. DH and I have agreed to a weekend bag of chips. NOT the huge party size bag but a regular bag which is still multiple servings.

My biggest problem is emotional eating and controlling my response to stress eating. Medicating with food. Being gluten free gives me a reason or excuse, in most social situations, to pass on being pressured into "just one" by other people.


Edited by: ITS_MY_TURN_NOW at: 7/20/2021 (11:49)
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Day 65 - Stimulus narrowing

It still applies. Sometimes the idea of a food will haunt me for days.
Getting better at letting it go but it is a practice.

I have some catching up to do after our latest camping trip.
It was fun and relaxing. I am happy to be home but we are already planning our next trip to the mountains!

Day 65 - Stimulus narrowing

Love both of these, Gill! " I choose to resist! " and "Stop whining."

I am guilty of cleaning up my kid's plates occasionally but my youngest turned 26, not too long ago, so it has been a long time. But I can turn down a treat, or even if someone suggests a food, and it will "haunt" me. Sometimes for days. When it last that long, I tend to give in. Whining. Need to work with that.


Edited by: ITS_MY_TURN_NOW at: 7/20/2021 (11:45)
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Day 64 - Instant tools for triggers.

I swish with water or brush my teeth.
Still working on re-framing old stories. I have a lot of stories. lol

Day 64 - Instant tools for triggers.

I love Gill's, "I choose to resist." I am all about re-framing old stories. That is the focus of my journey, at the moment. Weeding out the stories that are keeping me from changing the behaviors that are self sabotaging.

In the past I have brushed my teeth, at the end of a meal. It is a very good idea. I could also swish water, if I can't get to my toothbrush. Maybe a breath mint? Going to bed would work in the evening.


Edited by: ITS_MY_TURN_NOW at: 7/20/2021 (11:42)
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Day 63 - Buffers

Still applies.


Day 63 - Buffers

I am actually already working this one. LOL
CHIPS...CHIPS...CHIPS
They cannot live in my house. I will eat them so my husband and I compromised. One small bag of chips (potato, bean, corn) can be eaten once a week on Saturday. LOL

Not having any chips, ever, was actually anxiety producing for me so this is what I settled on.
From there, I have decided to do a variation on carb cycling. So far I have lost almost 2 pounds and it has only been a week. I am hopeful.

Edited by: ITS_MY_TURN_NOW at: 7/20/2021 (11:40)
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Day 62 - Non-food triggers

I should probably put the timers back on my phone. hmmm
I am checking in more often. Hand over heart...what do I need?

Day 62 - Non-food triggers

Emotions. Emotions. Emotions.

I am working on not eating my emotions but for the sake of completing this exercise...
I (used to) eat when I felt "out of control". I am getting practice in learning to manage and prevent the "out of control" situation. Right now, I check in and ground at least 3 times a day. More if I need to. I have a timer on my phone set to go off every four hours. Practice. Hoping that it will become automatic.


Edited by: ITS_MY_TURN_NOW at: 7/20/2021 (11:39)
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Day 61 - Food triggers

Add other people eating something I like...
If my husband is eating something I like it triggers something.
We are eating at the table again, now. While he was so sick, he was eating everywhere and it didn't bother me probably because I was so worried.

Day 61 - Food triggers

Probably the smell of foods. Some foods. Some cooking smells. Bacon cooking. Pizza ( I don't even like pizza.) The weird part is after I eat the meal, some smells no longer smell good and actually smell bad to me. Bacon, fish and anything that has ketchup left on it, like a plate used during a meal.

TV commercials, in this country, are ridiculous and the reason I don't watch much cable TV anymore. Fast food commercials are endless. But the visual is sometimes enticing so I avoid them. It helps that I cannot eat gluten. It helps a lot. The joint pain, I would suffer from eating gluten, is NOT worth any momentary enjoyment I would get from eating it. Now if I could just apply that thought process to everything else.


Edited by: ITS_MY_TURN_NOW at: 7/20/2021 (11:37)
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Day 60 - Create a stop sign

Checking in, heart over hand. What do I need?

Day 60 - Create a stop sign

I have tried signs, many times. They don't work for me. I stop seeing them after awhile.
I am working on pausing... checking in with myself and breathing exercises. Dealing with my emotions instead of eating them. I can't believe I made it to day 60!!! I can do this.

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Day 59 - Heart hunger "insteads"

Add painting to the list below.

Day 59 - Heart hunger "insteads"

Hugs
Hot shower
Working with my plants (indoors and out)
Candles
Reading
Flowers
Music
Dance

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Day 58 - Heart Hunger

Filling the empty spot with food. In the past I have grazed through the kitchen trying to find something to fill it with. Not doing that anymore. Learning to assess my hunger. Do I need comfort or fuel?

Day 58 - Heart Hunger

"Anytime you want to eat but don’t know what you want, think heart hunger."

"Heart hunger usually stems from empty emotions, such as feeling depressed, discouraged, or lonely. It can also show up when you’re bored or restless, as well as times when you feel hurt, disappointed, or let down. Sometimes heart hunger will relate to yearning for things such as attention or appreciation.

“What’s making me feel empty right now? What am I missing or needing in my life?”
“Will eating change this?”

Spangle, Linda. 100 Days of Weight Loss: The Secret to Being Successful on Any Diet Plan (p. 127). Thomas Nelson. Kindle Edition.

I don't usually copy so much directly from the book into my journal. Today's entry is personal. Medicating my feelings with food is an ongoing struggle for me. I am learning to manage without eating but it is hard. Eliminating snacking is helping me to recognize my behavior in real time so that has been helpful. One step at a time. I can do this.


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Day 57 - Head hunger "insteads"

Reading Deepak Chopra's "What are You Hungry For" book. I am journaling again, as of this morning. I am checking in with me many times a day. I am a bit of an emotional mess these days but I am learning how to get up, dust myself off and get on with it... again. I can do this.

Breathing exercises, journaling and literally shaking it off.

Day 57 - Head hunger "insteads"

Thank you for sharing this, Gill...
"Journal your feelings. Write the words, “I want to chew on the following…,” then list as many things as you can think of."

and this...

"One of the most effective things, I think, is probably being about to 'sit with the feeling' and not respond to the discomfort by eating. This was what CAT125 posted on our Day 57 thread back in 2015

"I don't have any insteads. I just wait it out."

I really do think this is the ultimate goal for emotional eaters - being able to stay with the feelings and not stuff our mouths with something to make the feeling go away." emoticon

"Insteads" haven't worked for me. I am learning to sit with or be with my feelings instead of eating them. I love the journal idea. Writing what I need to chew on instead of medicating with food. Going to try this today.

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Day 56 - Head hunger

It is a bit sad that the same things apply today.

Day 56 - Head hunger

"What do I want to chew on?"
"Will eating change this issue?"
"Eating simply postpones what really need to do in order to cope with life issues."

Chips. Chips Chips.
Crunchy and salty.

Frustration. anger. overwhelm.

Need a new coping mechanism. Learning to "pause", which is tougher than it sounds.

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Day 55 - Food is the consolation prize

Still working on untangling the stories I tell myself. Getting lots of practice checking in with me these days. Hand over heart... What do I need? Life continues to be a "face your fears" tour. Lots of emotion just under the surface is actually killing my appetite. Not good either but for now it is what it is.

Day 55 - Food is the consolation prize

Food as comfort, as something to soothe whatever is the emotion/situation of the day. That is my struggle. Finding alternatives has been unsuccessful. So I am now working with a counselor to try and untangle the stories I tell myself. Hopefully I will be able to rewrite a few. For now, I avoid snacking which is sort of a blanket fix. If I can't snack, I can't eat for emotional reasons, unless it is a meal.

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Gill, I borrowed the Deepak Chopra book you referenced in today's email. I was happy to find the ebook available at my library. Thank you.


Day 54 - Eating to feel better

To the list below I will add..
Paint or draw

Day 54 - Eating to feel better

1. Move your body.
2. Get some rest.
3. Distract yourself.

Instant energy plan
Drink water.
Go for a walk.
Dance
Take a nap.


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Day 53 - Food is my best friend

Checking in, working my habits and reaching out. I forgot about dancing...

Day 53 - Food is my best friend

Food becomes my friend when I am tired, overwhelmed, or lonely.
The middle of the afternoon is usually when it all gangs up on me and I reach for chips or something salty and crunchy. sigh. Flagging energy, at that time a day, makes it harder to resist.

I could start dinner earlier but I am already trying to be done eating by 6:30.
Not snacking and no food after 6:30 is the way I am trying to live.
The additional stress of this pandemic is too much sometimes. I am working on it.
Trying to live with the reality of our lives is a bit much sometimes. Anyway, managing without food would be drinking water, dancing or movement of some kind, calling a friend or family member.

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Day 52 - Food is an instant fix
Ok ... I need to do that, too.
So checking in...
What do I need right now?
Is this my emotion?

Day 52 - Food is an instant fix

I don't use it to avoid...I don't think.
I use food to soothe and comfort. So if I am upset or nervous or processing other people's emotions, I reach for food. Tired, while making dinner or before dinner if I wait too long.

(I tend to absorb other people's strong emotions. I am getting better at asking myself if this is mine but I don't always catch it.)

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Day 51 - What is emotional eating?
With my husband being so sick and our hiking/ travel plans postponed, I would think I would be diving into the nearest chip bag. Or having them delivered via instacart. Sigh. I am not self medicating with food. I am exercising and working my habits and learning to check in with myself. I am also praying, crying and journaling so there is that. It is surprising me, though. I am taking care of him but I am also checking in with myself and asking me..."what do you need right now?". Maybe that is all I need to do? We will see. Down 5lb and 5.5 inches in 6 ish weeks. Not breaking any records but I am happy with a bit of progress.

Day 51 - What is emotional eating?

"Emotional eating: Anytime you reach for food when you aren’t physically hungry or needing nutrition"

(Spangle, Linda. 100 Days of Weight Loss: The Secret to Being Successful on Any Diet Plan (p. 112). Thomas Nelson. Kindle Edition.)

Why am I eating?
Is this hunger or a desire to eat? - What is going on here? What is making me want to eat right now? How can take care of my needs without medicating with food?


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Day 50 - 10-minute solution

I really needed this one today!

Thank you Gill for still being here. I am going to finish this book and keep my posts.
I will probably keep going with this book on my own. I hope. emoticon

Something is better than nothing.

10 minutes 3 times a day or even just 10 minutes is better than nothing!


YAY!!! 50 days



Day 50 - 10-minute solution

Something is better than nothing.

10 minutes 3 times a day or even just 10 minutes is better than nothing!


YAY!!! 50 days


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Day 49 - Just do something

"Just do something; then you're started."

3 days.

I wasn't sure I wanted to catch up on all the days I missed. What is the point? SP is closing and this team will go away. BUT I am so glad I did come in to do this. It is helping me come back to what matters to me. Even in the chaos. The list below is a good one . Copying it to my journal. I can do this.

Day 49 - Just do something

"Just do something; then you're started."

3 days.

Celebrate doing something.

Just do something ideas.
am yoga
take a walk
squats
25/25/25
pick a pile of stuff and sort/toss/put away
use the pomodoro timer on your phone and something on your list.
prep some veggies
draw something
sew something
meditate


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Day 48 - You gotta want to.................
Of course, I want to.
All of the things below.
Right now with my world turned upside down. I am digging down deep to find my strength.
I am so scared but I am not frozen. I have lived so small and dependent for way too long. I am struggling and breaking down. Then I dry my face, blow my nose and get on with it. I am taking care of me. I am getting stronger every day. I am crashing through my barriers because I have to. No more hiding. I need to be strong. He needs me to be strong. I can do this.

Day 48 - You gotta want to.................
hmm...
I don't want to...

The whys here are not clear to me, other than I may be hiding behind the weight. But that is a conversation that I will have with my counselor. Thank you, Gill.

I can't lose 50 pounds.
I can't hike as far as I want to.
I can't maintain a 10000 step, daily average.


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Day 47- Kick the can't
Everything below still applies. I am working on it.

I can't heal us. Him.
Well, maybe not on my own. Maybe we need to follow doctors orders for now. But I can help him support his body through this health crisis. I can make sure he gets what he needs to recover and heal. I can take care of me so that I don't get sick from wearing myself out.

Day 47- Kick the can't

Ok, let's see...
I can't lose 50 pounds.
I can't hike as far as I want to.
I can't maintain a 10000 step, daily average.

*I can't lose 50 pounds.
(sleep apnea and Hashimoto's complicate this)
Maybe I could ignore the stories in my head that tell me it is too hard because of SA and Hashi's. Or rewrite the stories in my head. Yes, I have Hashi's and SA, my metabolism is affected by this but maybe if I can continue to move more and increase my exercise, I can lose the weight given the food changes I have made and a tighter control on carb intake. Losing the weight would improve my SA.

*I can't hike as far as I want to.
Maybe I could if I "trained" for it. I own an elliptical. I can increase my steps and work on balance. I am fighting my own stamina issues but maybe I can help that with some supplements and regular sleep.

*I can't maintain a 10000 step, daily average.
Maybe I can if I work up to it and make it a priority. Hitting my daily step goal has been hit or miss lately. Well, for a really long time. emoticon I am already working on this one. My goal for August is to hit my step goal every single day!

emoticon I like today's assignment. Need help re-framing my "stories". Been working on that for awhile now. Old stories die hard. LOL I can do this!!! emoticon


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Day 46 - If not food, then what?
The list is basically unchanged except that because we are in crisis, health and healing for Kevin and for me moves to the top of the list.


Day 46 - If not food, then what?
These are not in order of importance because I am not sure how to rank them. I know I need time with me. Time to explore my spirituality and creativity. Inner work, growing and creating things.

My family is number one and always will be. I am too far from my "kids" and my husband and I are together a lot (he is working from home these days) so it is time to take care of me.

Important to me
family - husband, children, daughters in law, grandchildren
extended family
creating
learning
studying herbalism
wellness
spirituality
hiking
camping
gardening
food


Gill - Thank you. You are a dear. emoticon My granddaughter arrived safe and sound on Thursday morning. She was 22.5 inches long (the nurses measured her 4 times to be sure. lol) and 9 lbs 4 oz when she was born. She is thriving. They are home and settling in. My daughter is the toughest of my children (3 boys and Kate) and the strongest human I know. I am so very proud of her. She is also 5 feet tall and carried her very big baby for 14 days past her due date. She is amazing, my daughter. My granddaughter is beautiful and sweet. I miss them both very much. I hate this pandemic and the suffering is it causing, on so many levels, for so many people around the world. I feel a bit selfish because my missing them is not on the scale of other's suffering. So I should probably stop whining. I will have to just get on with taking care of myself and DH until I can see them in person. Take good care of you, dear lady.


PS. Making peace with food and my relationship to it is why I am doing this journal. My inner child wants to throw up her hands and go find something else to do. LOL But I am going to keep working on this. I can't stop eating so I just need to find a way to make peace with the process. Maybe I can find a way to simplify it so it is not so time consuming. sigh


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Day 45 Food - important or not?

Still can't make it unimportant.
Right now it is about nutrients and color.
Trying to make sure neither of us is missing what we need.
I am still in charge of food.
I still can't walk away.

Day 45 Food - important or not?

I wish it wasn't important.
I wish I didn't have to be the person that has to plan and cook the meals in this house.
We don't eat out. We are about 700 miles from our nearest relatives. We are in a pandemic.
SO that means I cook our meals and we don't share meals with other people. I am really, really tired of it being the center of my life. I have to think about it and I do not want to. I would like it to be unimportant. I mean our traditional holiday meals are full of foods that I no longer want to eat. The gluten free birthday cake we had to celebrate my husband's birthday, last week, was tasty but left me bloated and unhappy.

How do I make food unimportant when I have to plan, buy it, wash it, store it, cook it and then eat it? That requires time, thought and energy. I am not feeling well today so that is probably coloring my view of the world.



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Day 44 - It's not the right time

Right now, the act of sticking to my plan is comforting. I've hear people say that habits and routines in times of great stress are comforting. It is true. My habits and routines are keeping me sane right now. But I am still really scared.

Day 44 - It's not the right time

As I write this, my daughter is 800 miles away being prepped for a C section after 32 hours of labor. My granddaughter will be born today. I am praying and worrying at the moment. Hopefully I will be able to make sense with my head full of other stuff. Here goes...

For me is it not about the "right" time, I sort of live in a perpetual "diet" space. In the last 10 years I have eliminated gluten, soda and most of the sugar from my life. We eat minimal corn, soy and processed food. We eat mostly organic, free range and wild caught. Locally grown whenever possible. I am working on nutrient density in my calories, lots of color and plants. It is easier at this time of the year.

But I am not perfect and I have an issue with emotional eating. Medicating with food. I eat really well and then I don't. A bag of organic chips can set off a whole range of bad choices all of them "legal" by my "food rules" but still too much fat or carbs or calories. Organic red grapes are so good but they set off sugar cravings. sigh. So right now I am back to working on timing. IF except on ST or hiking days. Meal spacing and no food after 6:30 and more movement. Qigong, yoga and steps today.

I want to be a healthy, strong Nana by this time next year. Because of this pandemic, I might have to wait until her first birthday to meet her, so I want to be healthy and strong when I do.

From Gill..
Thank you for being honest!

" I am really, really tired of it being the center of my life. I have to think about it and I do not want to"

I feel like that this afternoon when I know I have 'meal planning' on my to-do list. And I'm only planning for ME - I still seem to have a lot of shopping, meal prep, clearing up to do! It's never-ending! Well, yes, it IS never-ending.

I didn't realise your daughter had been going through such a hard time - how heart-breaking not to be able to be with her. I'm glad to know that the baby girl arrived OK - I hope your daughter is OK and heals quickly.


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Day 43 - Choose to, not have to

The list below and...
I choose to take care of me so I can take care of him without getting sick, too.


Day 43 - Choose to, not have to

I choose to:
Take care of me by incorporating exercise and nutritious food into my life.
Move more.
Pay attention to what and when I am eating.

I am going to work on re-framing my thinking.


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Day 42 - Make it matter

It matters. The list hasn't changed at all.


Day 42 - Make it matter

All caught up!

The ways the being overweight bothers me:
I do not feel good about myself. 8
I struggle with my health issues, some of which would be helped by losing the extra weight. 8
I have trouble hiking very far. 10
I don't like the way I look in clothes or out of them for that matter. 8
I hurt. My back, my hips, my neck. 10

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Day 41 - Motivation is a choice

Well, change of plans. I am wandering around in a bit of a daze. We cancelled that camping trip and our trip to see the kids. My husband has been running a fever for the last 9 days. A trip to the Urgent Care and another to the ER left us confused and worried. The ER said Afib and sent him home with a bunch of pills and asthma medicine. They called yesterday and said his Lyme test came back positive so more pills. He still has a temp this morning. Neither of us is getting much sleep. I am scared and tired. I also need my habits so I am exercising every morning and trying to write in my journal. My head is full of scary stuff.

Ok. On with it.

Motivation is a choice.
Apparently my husband getting sick is motivating. Or maybe it is me trying not to lose myself to my worries. Exercise and journaling are helping a little. Not having an appetite is a good thing right now but I am sticking to my eating schedule. Gives me some control when everything feels so out of control.


Day 41 - Motivation is a choice

Still playing catch up...

I wish I could find some motivation in a junk drawer!!! LOL

Get up and make it happen.

Motivation is a choice.
I did yoga and attended my zoom Qigong class this morning.
I have established a fairly consistent (30 minutes a day) movement routine over the last 3 months. Camping this weekend made a mess of it and I am stiff and hurting today. Not sure why I keep having to learn this lesson over and over. (I hurt less when I move more.)

Motivation...
I would like to add more ST into my daily movement and hit my step goal more often.
Dividing up the steps and hitting small goals during the day might be helpful.
Setting a reminder on my phone could help, too.
Not waiting for the first day of the week or month... or the beginning of a new round of whatever challenge I am working at Sparkpeople, start now!!!
Posting my goal on a sticky note.

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I am pushing ahead because we are going camping again. I don't want to get so far behind this time. So here goes...

Day 40 - Having an eating experience

Color still matters to me. We eat a rainbow most days. I am getting better at extending that to fast meals at a campsite but I am not great a it. More practice coming this weekend and next week. Then a 2 week trip at the end of July. I want to figure it out by them. Traveling 800 miles one way. Visiting family I haven't seen in 2 years, my kids and kids-inlaw and my grand babies!!! This has emotion and stress written all over it. But JOY and love and comfort in hugging my children again. Food will be a part of this but not the biggest part. Not this time.

Day 40 - Having an eating experience
Back from long weekend spent camping. Playing catch up.

My favorite meals lately are usually meals that don't leave me feeling bloated and miserable. I like it when I can enjoy food, knowing it is nourishing me. Colorful and tasty. Last night we came home, after packing up, driving almost 300 miles and unloading the trailer. Then there is the unpacking... I am still working on that today. sigh. Anyway, Last night we were exhausted. I made eggs, leftover potatoes with onions and toast. See the problem, yet? As I was sitting there, eating, all I could think about was the fact that there was NO color on that plate. I was so tired that I just went to bed bloated and miserable. SAD Standard American Diet. We haven't eaten like that in years. Today will be lots of color!

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Day 39 - Flavor or texture?

Well, we just returned from the mountains and it definitely helps reset my nervous system. We leave again on Friday. Camping is a good thing for me right now. The beach for a long weekend and then we go back to the ADK on Monday. I really want to get closer to done with the 50 waterfall challenge. We are at 33 right now.

So salty/crunchy is still a big draw for me. Chewing up my emotions. Still a struggle. At least now, when I am doing it, I am aware that I am doing it. Most of the time. When I catch myself I can stop. Progress? Think so.

I am grieving the loss of SP. It comes in waves. How am I going to stay in contact with my friends from SP, when we will be spread all over on other sites? How am I going to continue to work on this book completely on my own? I need to save these entries so I can look back on them. Thank you, Linda for this book! Thank you, Gill for your inspiration and encouragement! I am going to miss you and this team. emoticon


Day 39 - Flavor or texture?

Good question!
Salty, crunchy is what I reach for comfort. Emotional eating. Fun stuff. So "...it gives you a way to chew hard and fast, the way you’d like to “chew on” your boss?" (Spangle, Linda. 100 Days of Weight Loss: The Secret to Being Successful on Any Diet Plan (p. 85). Thomas Nelson. Kindle Edition.) That is possible. Me, chewing on my worries. Crunching up my problems and emotional upheaval.

That actually resonates with me. Hmm.

I am going to skip the descriptive exercise. We are going camping for the weekend. An escape from the city and the collective craziness of this pandemic. Mountains, trees, rivers, lakes, waterfalls and quiet time. sigh. My nervous system needs a reset. Hoping this helps.
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Day 38 - Food as power

Yes. I am still equating power with control or resisting and physically being able to do more than I think I can. Food feels like a weakness. Hiking in the mountains pushed all my limits. Facing fears and pushing this old body past what I thought it could do. I was scared a lot. Anxiety really is not fun but I did it. I was scared and I did it anyway!!! It has been a long time since I reached out so far past my comfort zone. That is power to me.

Day 38 - Food as power

Not sure I eat to feel powerful. I eat for comfort. When I am not grounded emotionally, I reach for "comfort foods". Comfort, medicate. For me, the conquering comes in when I can resist. I am "conquering" me, not a steak. I feel powerful when I can resist the cookies. I feel powerful when I exercise. I feel powerful when we go hiking and I do more than I think I can.


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Day 37 - I love to eat!

I still have a complicated relationship with food but meal timing is helping. I am working on 80% full and checking in with my body all day long in many situations so it works with eating too. It is absolutely about more than flavor and texture. It is about comfort and pleasure, too. Until I cross the line into full-overfull. Then it is about guilt, shame, and self flagellation, not to mention bloating and feeling awful physically.


Day 37 - I love to eat!

I have a complicated relationship with food, a love-hate relationship. I love to eat and I hate that I love to eat. I really don't like to cook but I really do want to eat healthy. So I cook because take away and eating in restaurants is not good for me. Too many food sensitivities, I guess. I hate that I use food to medicate my emotions. I hate feeling so full that I feel sick because I don't stop eating something because I am enjoying the flavor or texture. sigh. I am working with my emotions and how to deal with them. But this pandemic and the worries that stem from it are overwhelming to me, sometimes. So food is a comfort and a way for me to medicate my emotions. I am not sure it is about a single food that I love, right now. It is about managing my life and doing it in a way that allows me to improve my health because I really want to see the other side of this pandemic.

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Day 36 - Slow down your eating

I am putting my fork down these day between bites.

Day 36 - Slow down your eating

I eat pretty slowly. My husband eats quickly. I used to try to keep up with him. I have been practicing with a timer. LOL He has slowed down, too. Recognizing the pause I can do...sometimes. It is the stopping right there that I have a tough time with. I did manage it this past weekend. I explained the pause to my husband, (my naturally thin husband.) I actually put away my lunch and had the rest for dinner on Saturday. Sunday, I felt like I was eating everything in sight. sigh. Two steps forward, one step back. Waiting for my overdue granddaughter to be born is more stressful than I imagined. I am worrying for my daughter. So today is Monday and I begin again. Recognize the pause and stop eating. I can do this.


Edited by: ITS_MY_TURN_NOW at: 6/29/2021 (10:07)
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Day 35 - The eating pause

I forgot about this one. I will give this another try.

Day 35 - The eating pause

I sigh. Then I continue eating. Time to pay closer attention and act on signals. Today I will stop when I sigh and wait two hours. Actually this is a good experiment for the weekend!



Edited by: ITS_MY_TURN_NOW at: 6/29/2021 (10:06)
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Day 34 - Listen accurately

I am still trying to recognize 80% full and STOP at that point.

Day 34 - Listen accurately

Feeling full or stuffed. Why is that a comfort to me? I do not enjoy the bloated, uncomfortable feeling that comes with eating too much. I continue to medicate my stress and worry with food these days, though. I am working on being conscious of my satiety level. 80% full. Even when I recognize it, I don't stop sometimes. Am I nurturing myself? By making myself miserable? sigh I wish I knew. I will continue on.



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Day 33 - Fullness scale

As I sit here, uncomfortably full from too much lunch, I really wish I had read this this morning.
I was eating while distracted and not paying attention to how full I was. I made a taco salad that was too much, apparently. Practice. Practice. Practice.

I like Linda's Fullness Scale!

Fullness Levels:
0 = neutral, not hungry, not full; +1 = satisfied, comfortable, just right; +2 = too full, a little uncomfortable; +3 = stuffed, miserable


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Day 32 - The five-hour rule

I continue to use meal timing. 2-3 meals a day, 3-4 hours apart. Really hard to do while camping and hiking. My digestive system was not happy with snacking and different foods. We are going camping again this weekend and next week. I am currently planning our meals. I will cook ahead and freeze some things so I don't get caught eating things I shouldn't.

Day 32 - The five-hour rule

Years of grazing and dieting have left me without clear hunger signals. I sometimes wait too long to eat and then eat everything not nailed down or am eating because it is time to eat, even when I am not hungry because it is "time to Eat". I am trying to instill some order in the way I eat by using timing. That means IF a few days a week for 18/6 and 2-3 meals a day with at least 3.5 hours in between. I am going through an emotional time, right now so I am struggling with emotional eating as self-medicating. I continue to put one foot in front of the other. I am calling that a win.


Love this from Linda's blog! Thank you, Gill.
"If you’re really hungry, do you need more food than if you’re just a little hungry?
The answer is NO—you just think you do!"

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Day 31 - Hunger scale
Still working on hunger cues. When I am busy or distracted I get to "way too hungry" before I am aware of it. I get "hangry".


Day 31 - Hunger scale

Learning to tune in to my body is an ongoing struggle/process. Evaluating my hunger is a practice that I am working on. The last few days have been full on emotional eating, though. The pandemic and not being able to meet my new granddaughter is making me miserable. Trying to count my blessings, work through my emotional mess and get a grip on my hunger cues is today.


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Day 30 - Postpone eating

I have been working on meal timing for quite awhile now. Postponing eating is easier for me when I know when I am going to eat.

Day 30 - Postpone eating

I will experiment with postponing.



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Day 29 - Handheld foods

I have a seed and raisin trail mix that I have eaten with a spoon. lol I will try it again.

Day 29 - Handheld foods

I am allergic to nuts so I will use chips.
Be back tomorrow to report.

Note: I ate a weighed portion of chips with a spoon.
It was an odd experience, definitely slows down the eating of the chip.
I paid more attention to the flavor and texture. I had had enough by the time I finished the portion.

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