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7/27/19 3:59 P

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I am on vacation now and struggling with disordered eating.
Before we left home to Stay with Them,
I had announced to my cousin and his wife that we are vegetarians and that I don't wat gluten. I didd not have the Heart to state that i also try to avoid sugary foods.
So when we arrived it turned out the wife had baked gluten free cookies, cake, White bread and desserts and I just could not bring myself to say I don't want to eat it. I barely knew Them and was anxious about staying with Them.
So after five days with Them I am hooked on sugar again, and bingeing.
I don't feel able tot go through withdrawals during our vacation. I would be very moody.

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7/27/19 3:52 P

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Good for you, CT! How are you doing now?

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7/13/19 3:14 P

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After binging on a bowl of ice cream and than frosted flakes almost emptying the box I am going to go without refined sugar for this coming week. I will not binge on sweet food today.




Kathryn, Sacramento, CA Pacific time, I am doing the best I can that will have to be enough






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7/10/19 1:59 P

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I have strong cravings at the moment, so I will post instead of overeating. I agreed with myself that I can eat again (one snack) at 8.30 pm, that's in 35 minutes.
The cravings occur because I am going through 'withdrawals', I stopped eating sugar and sweets on monday after a week of heavy bingeing.

I'm reminding myself that this is my body (my brain) screaming for a fix... because I woke up that addiction by eating the junk and the big amount of sugar.
The sugar seems such a comfort to me but I must remember and accept that when I eat it, my body demands more, and time and time again I give in and eat more. I know that when I stop eating it I feel bad for a few days - up to five days of brain fog, tiredness, cold/flu symptoms.
Is that really worth it? Plus the effects on my long term health... If I am rational of course I will chose health and wellbeing. At the same time this addiction is tugging at me.... I remind myself that if I hold on now, I can go on vacation free from huge cravings and more important: free from a roller coaster of emotions. This will get better. This craving will pass.

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7/6/19 7:40 A

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Yes, usually it helps me to write the thoughts down. Sometimes sharing them with a good friend helps me a lot too.

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6/24/19 12:13 P

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Did it help to write the thoughts down? I still haven't tried that. I get caught by worries sometimes, but still haven't written them down, especially at night.

Yes, do post instead of eating! I diverted from eating PLENTY by writing on Spark. I'm trying to find other outlets now. It's challenging finding the balance.

Six years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
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6/18/19 12:47 P

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So sorry I missed your reply, Oolala. Since last year I don't get any more notifications of replies to posts I made on threads because I live in Europe, has to do with the European privacy laws or something. It's very annoying to me because it makes it hard to participate here at SP, but, that's just the way it is. But, that's the reason I never know anyone answers to a post I wrote unless I go check to see if anyone replied...

I intend to remember this thread and to come back to it when I feel urges to overeat....


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1/4/19 10:12 P

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Good work!

Did it help to write your thoughts down? A woman in my philosophy group says that used to help her. I would be afraid it would wake me up even more to do that. Sometimes I can do a guided meditation or bell meditation and fall back asleep.

Six years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1323


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1/4/19 5:29 A

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When I was in bed, I felt very scared last night, very worried about the future, because of health issues of a loved one.
I could not sleep.
I got up and wrote down my thoughts in an email to my best friend. I did have 1 extra serving of fruit but managed to avoid eating more by going straight back to bed.

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7/8/18 5:17 A

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Thank you!

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7/6/18 5:18 P

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Every time counts.

Six years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1323


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7/6/18 3:46 P

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Did it again last night. I felt stressed and ready to overeat (more) and decided to share my worries / feelings per email with a friend. Then went to bed.

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6/30/18 2:41 P

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Thank you. It worked - this time at least.

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6/29/18 5:23 P

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Did it work? I think it can be an effective strategy that can dull the urge (but not necessarily eliminate it. Kudos on continually working to face this habit down.

Six years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1323


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6/29/18 5:09 P

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...I hope.

I read this in a book by Tara Goleman Bennet. That some people train themselves to notice their urge to give in to an addiction and then do B (healthy or non-damaging behavior) instead of A (addictive behavior).
So an alcoholic can train him/herself to phone a buddy whenever they feel like having a drink.

I was overeating tonight and I know I felt desire to eat more, make it a binge. I know that I am feeling a lot of grief - my parents are both very old and very ill, I cannot even discuss it, it hurts too much to put their situation and my feelings into words. I am dead tired and tomorrow there are workers coming over to do something like renovation on our house. I feel like it's all too much.

I read that I should feel my feelings. I feel like I will drown if I try. I've been distracting myself using internet and keeping busy, and eating.

I don't want to turn this into a binge. So I thought I'd just post about my feelings here. I really need to go to bed. That's for sure.

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