Wow. I am so sorry you are dealing with nasty humans. My family is dealing with some ugliness too so I empathize completely.
You can't change what happened with your dad. Your friend definitely is not a friend. A couple of things you can perhaps, do, to help you overcome because feelings of guilt aren't okay. You can get your weight under control starting now. Counseling may also help you. A lot. There is no shame in seeking help.
Meghan in Minneapolis, Minnesota, USA
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10/7/19 9:33 P
A few years ago, I was 60 lbs lighter than I am right now. A lot of "stuff" happened one right after another and I gained weight. I feel so guilty. I don't know how I let pain in my life show up on the scales.
Want to know about me? Here is what happened: 1. My parents disowned me. My dad had a brain tumor and in his mind, he believed that I did something to deserve it. He died not talking to me. The worst part is that a lot of family members are not the most intelligent and do not understand brain tumors and believe that I did something and "I know what I did"
2. I had a foot injury. I needed surgery on my foot. It was an excuse then, it is not now. My foot is fine.
3. My "best friend" turned out to be a narcissist. Instead of saying she didn't want to be friends anymore, she made up fantasy fiction stories about me and spread them around. She even told the grocery store manager that I was stalking her. He reviewed the tapes and sided with me.... I was there first, she came in and made a beeline for the isle I was in and then said I sought her out "to harass her". I felt I had to start shopping far away from my home to avoid being accused of seeking her out. That was only one example... she had me in tears practically daily with her lies.