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ONEDERLAND!! Down 186 pounds... So Far! A Saga
Monday, February 19, 2018      15 comments

Well, I've made into the 100s, finally below the 200 mark! Yes, me! From my highest of 384 (just short of 20 months ago), to yesterday's weigh in of 197.8 pounds. In UK or AU terms, that's a high of 27-1/2 stone down to just over 14 st. ... Read more
Down 168 Pounds So Far -- and only 45 or so to go!!!
Saturday, December 23, 2017      9 comments

It has taken many, many years to get here, where I am ready and willing to stay on plan -- This time, I started at my all-time high of 384 pounds, "just" 18 months ago.. But, better late then never, right? ;) I (finally) admitted I... Read more
Making Conscious Decisions & Taking My Life Back: A Tale of over 135 Pounds Dumped, & Still Going
Friday, October 20, 2017      18 comments

I started on my latest journey on the 20th of June, 2016 -- but who's keeping tabs, huh? Me. You BET I am! I was the heaviest I had ever been: 384 pounds. I was going strong until there was a(nother) huge upheaval in my marriage. (That'... Read more
Staying on Plan Gives Me Strength
Saturday, August 26, 2017      5 comments

I have not been physically hungry for ages. There are times I want to eat -- though very rarely now. But it is nearly always wrapped around my feelings. I am going through a divorce, so you can likely imagine the ups and downs of all this "st... Read more
Feeling Like My Life is on Hold
Monday, August 21, 2017      5 comments

Well, I (finally) filed for divorce. 5 weeks ago. Part 1. The judge has to "okay" the reason for wanting divorce -- no irreconcilable differences HERE! Then once that process is completed (it can take up to 3-4 months, so I am told), part 2 ... Read more
Finding Strength After Mental/Emotional/Psychological Abuse
Sunday, April 30, 2017      7 comments

Wow! This is really hard, admitting to myself that I have been emotionally, mentally and psychologically battered. I really tend to blame myself for most everything that goes wrong. I have felt it's all my fault -- I am not lovable, not worth... Read more
Decisions are not only difficult, but they're scary, too.
Saturday, April 08, 2017      9 comments

The good thing is, I don't have to decide anything right now. And actually, it's great, isn't it? I have time to think about it all. One can mull it over, make lists of the pros and cons, discuss it, and God knows what else. But it is all... Read more
Decisions, Decisions -- Where shall I go, What should I do? Go back or stay here?
Thursday, April 06, 2017      8 comments

I can't believe it's been over 4 months since my last blog entry! TIme sure flies, huh? (I was gonna add WHEN YOU'RE HAVING FUN, but it hasn't always been "fun", let me tell ya.) Last week some time I pretty much decided to return to Amer... Read more
What, No Drama?
Sunday, November 27, 2016      4 comments

Okay, LESS drama. None sounds good, but to be honest, there is still a little.. or maybe more than a little. It feels weird (in a good way, I think..?) to not have all the usual drama. It isn't totally gone, to be fair... but I am startin... Read more
I had Thanksgiving on My Own
Friday, November 25, 2016      5 comments

Yup, I had Thanksgiving alone -- for the first time ever. Although now living in England, where (of course) Thanksgiving Day doesn't exist, my husband and I used to sit and enjoy a homemade, American Thanksgiving dinner of sorts. I'd do a smal... Read more
I (you, too) Can ALWAYS Find Things to be Grateful For
Thursday, November 24, 2016      5 comments

Yes, it's been a tough several months. And yes, it feels like things are (nearly?) always going wrong, or need sorting. And moreso, yes, I feel lonely almost all the time. Well, it feels like ALL the time lately, but still.... I do have ... Read more
Why Does "Everything" Feel like Such a Struggle???
Wednesday, November 23, 2016      6 comments

Sheess, if it's not one thing, it's another! Every, little thing feels like a struggle. :( One thing may (finally) get sorted, then something else pops up - or many things! Can't I even get a short bit of time -- a small period of smoot... Read more
Whose "Responsibilty" is it When Communicating, Anyway?
Friday, November 18, 2016      4 comments

Getting tired of hearing, "Well, it's your issue for what you think I said!" Or, "You always take everything I say wrong!" Or how about, "It's not my fault you took it that way!" ?? It's almost as if "it" is all my fauit - yet again. Th... Read more
Taking Away Their Power to Hurt You with Their Words
Wednesday, November 16, 2016      7 comments

Another bit of insight -- shared by a lovely woman who authored a great book (The Caveman Rules of Survival) - is helping me see how I replay those "tapes" in my head, hearing all those awful things I heard as a child, and hearing them over and ... Read more
Is it Less Drama or Am I getting Numb?
Tuesday, November 15, 2016      6 comments

I have been feeling calmer... sort of. Almost numb, in a weird way. Is it due to less drama, or am I becoming numb to all of that "stuff"? Well, fair enough - there really hasn't been any drama to speak of. I haven't been running thr... Read more

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