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Seriously thinking about starting again...
Thursday, May 02, 2019      6 comments

Which has to be better than thinking about it and not being serious, right? I have to get back on track. My clothes don't fit. I'm at my heaviest weight ever, don't even ask. I am miserable. And in the back of my mind I know that I just have to ... Read more
Day 22
Monday, April 16, 2018      5 comments

Hello everyone! The past few weeks have been good and bad, just like life, right? First, my mom was here to visit and having her around kept me on track and managing my addiction/cravings. But then she left. Which happens when your family l... Read more
Day 1
Monday, March 26, 2018      7 comments

I have struggled with my weight since I can remember. I thought I was fat my entire life and now I truly have allowed myself to let my weight get out of control. Almost seven years ago I lost 92 pounds over nine months. I was walking in 5k races... Read more
Where does the time go?
Thursday, July 06, 2017      5 comments

I can honestly say that when I was my healthiest, I was also as mindful of every moment as I have ever been. I was living in the moment and taking advantage of the time around me. That is not so much true right now. Yesterday I had a complete me... Read more
Slow progress, but still moving forward
Wednesday, May 10, 2017      5 comments

Hi everyone! It has been almost a month since my last post. Does that sound like the start of a confession, cuz I'm not Catholic, but that does sound a little familiar from tv shows. I am making steady progress in my goals but not without s... Read more
It is all mental!
Monday, April 17, 2017      4 comments

I am happy to report that I'm making some steps forward, not a ton, but some. I recognize that my thinking is totally off base sometimes, and last week when I was really struggling I started to text a good friend who kept me accountable over the... Read more
Moving in the right direction I guess
Monday, April 10, 2017      4 comments

Hey everyone! This is not a big thing for anyone else I'm sure, but last week I did make some doctor appointments. Friday of last week I went and got allergy testing done. I want a pet. I need something else to take care of in my life because th... Read more
Another new month
Monday, April 03, 2017      5 comments

Happy Monday everyone. I started this blog over the weekend, but just could not make myself write out what I'm thinking. Why is it so much easier to believe what I say to myself than to say it out loud? I know what I am thinking is mean and unre... Read more
Spring break update
Tuesday, March 14, 2017      4 comments

The last couple weeks have been so stressful. Between work projects and trouble with two staff members, who are both more than 20 years older than me, and being unhappy in my life I am exhausted. My parents are here for a long visit and I love t... Read more
Depression is the devil
Sunday, March 05, 2017      8 comments

Where to start? The last week was really stressful, about 70 hours of work and stressful. I let my walking go and messed up with my food. The short story is that I started to do good about six or seven weeks ago. Pretty much gave up gluten and a... Read more
Thursday of a tough week
Thursday, February 16, 2017      5 comments

Not a big surprise to anyone but Valentine's Day and I have always had a rocky relationship. Growing up I spent one of the holiday's in the hospital getting stitches after trying to cut off my finger at work and twice I spent the holiday at fune... Read more
...and we begin again
Monday, February 13, 2017      5 comments

First, if you are following my blog, a warning for you. I have always thought that I needed to blog a long thing if I was going to put anything down in writing. You know, be all thorough and deep, but that is really not what I need right now. Ri... Read more
I cannot seem to do anything right...
Tuesday, October 25, 2016      9 comments

I have been carrying around these thoughts for days and I need to get them out into the world so I can try to let them go. As a warning, these are not happy nice thoughts. I cannot seem to do anything right. I cannot nourish my body correct... Read more
What am I doing?
Wednesday, September 28, 2016      3 comments

This is a long one. Or until I get tired of typing, whichever happens first. So, I started 2016 doing alright. Not great, but keeping things balanced. Then I started looking for a new job and things got a little crazy. But then things kind ... Read more
Where has January gone?
Tuesday, January 26, 2016      8 comments

I have avoided writing a blog because I was sick of always writing how sad or depressed or overwhelmed I was feeling. That has not changed. I do appreciate everyone's advice about seeing a counselor, getting meds figured out, etc. The difficult ... Read more

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