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Love and Memories and the Kindness Challenge!
Monday, May 14, 2018      7 comments

It's my first Mothers Day without my children. And yet, I feel as though they have been with me all day. When I woke up this morning, I asked my girls spirits to be with me and get me through the day, to just give me a sign that I wasn't a... Read more
Things said without thinking
Monday, April 09, 2018      18 comments

One of the hardest things about grieving is holding my tongue when someone says something, trying to be kind, but without thinking. For example, telling me my children are in "a better place." I mean, yeah, I get that they are in heaven, w... Read more
Surviving the Days without them
Monday, April 02, 2018      12 comments

I managed to survive the weekend. I'm not going to say it was easy. I did make the effort to celebrate Sara's birthday, and I did overeat a lot, and I made it through. I visited the cemetery, I got lunch, I got a massage, I got dinner, I ca... Read more
FInding a way through the pain
Wednesday, March 28, 2018      13 comments

I want to thank everyone who has sent me messages of support. I am sorry I haven't been keeping in touch, but because my emotions are all over the place, I haven't really been taking care of myself, and that includes making sure I log in periodi... Read more
The worst has happened
Monday, January 29, 2018      28 comments

This was what happened to my beautiful girls. http://people.com/crime/cali
-suicide/ It was carbon monoxide poisoning. He left a note. But there was no custody battle. He hadn't filed for more, and ofte... Read more
What do you do for fun when eating out isn't an option?
Monday, October 23, 2017      4 comments

So, I realized recently that all my social contact with the world is through my work. Since I work with 3 year olds, I decided to go out when daughters are at their fathers to meet some grown ups and (hopefully) have a more stimulating conversat... Read more
Advice Needed Re: Fitness wear
Monday, October 09, 2017      5 comments

My weight loss has slowed down, so I am trying to exercise a bit more. I realized it might be time to get a sports bra, so when I was in my local department store I looked for one. They were ...weird. All of them seemed to have a "T-back" s... Read more
Hits a Little Close to Home
Friday, September 15, 2017      7 comments

Recently there was a Domestic Violence happening in the small city where I live. A man tried to kill his wife, then killed his 3 children. He was caught and arrested, but... As a domestic violence survivor, this was a little too close to ho... Read more
Ada's Rules #2: Make a plan: set clear, multiple, and changing goals
Tuesday, August 22, 2017      4 comments

When I first saw this (Several years ago...I've checked this book out of the library several times) I didn't get it. Why multiple? Why changing? I've grown up since then. The fact is, with as much as I need to lose, I find that setting... Read more
Reading Ada's Rules And Applying Them
Monday, August 21, 2017      7 comments

I recently checked out one of my all time favorite books from the library. "Ada's Rules" is about an overweight woman who makes the decision to lose weight. And it is fabulous. The author lost 70 lbs. in the process of writing the book, so it ri... Read more
Do hobbies help you lose weight?
Sunday, July 30, 2017      10 comments

I'm glad I started getting serious about losing weight, because I could not have gotten through the past few weeks if I didn't have energy. Admittedly, this was because I procrastinated like crazy the previous month, so it was my own fault, but ... Read more
Starting Again (and again, and again...)
Monday, July 17, 2017      7 comments

It's been awhile since I posted a blog, although I have composed a million in my mind. It's been awhile since I felt "worthy" of blogging, since I just seemed to be gaining weight, no matter what I did. I think this was at least in part due to ... Read more
A New Attitude
Sunday, March 12, 2017      8 comments

I took some time off of Spark. Honestly, I needed to reassess my own health before I did anything, and putting pressure on myself to report at the computer was not helping me to be on track. It was just another straw in the bundle this camel was... Read more
Motherhood is Not For the Faint of Heart
Sunday, March 05, 2017      9 comments

So, that was terrifying. Friday I got a call from the school nurse. Sophie had gone in complaining of blurry vision and a headache, then began vomiting, and then lost consciousness. I rushed her to the hospital, where they ruled out meningi... Read more
That's Life (plus a few product reviews)
Sunday, January 29, 2017      5 comments

The diet this week did not go so great, but I finally realized that carbs seemed to be doing me in. It seems that once I have a little white flour and/or sugar, I can't stop. So, time to think of a new game plan. I saw the movie "Hidden Fig... Read more

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