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Feeling torn/could use a friend...
Monday, February 03, 2014      5 comments

It's kind of late tonight. My head is filled with many thoughts about what to do. The level of anxiety and depression I go through is making things extremely difficult. (See a couple of blogs back for more info.) Tomorrow is Monday and Mon... Read more
ABC
Sunday, February 02, 2014      4 comments

A is for Age: 24 B is for Booze: none. Don't like the taste, the smell, none of it. C is for Car: None yet. One day. One day. :) D is for Dad's name: Starts with a D and isn't Dave. Don't want to share anyone's name without thei... Read more
Giant monster/I don't want to go to school anymore!
Saturday, February 01, 2014      3 comments

I have had stress and fears for a long time now. It started out with a little fear and the fear grew and grew and grew and now it swallows me whole like a giant monster. Yesterday, I was at school and in between classes, I went to the libr... Read more
thyroid medicine price increase.
Thursday, January 30, 2014      5 comments

My thyroid medicine is now $12 more than before. I have no idea why but I am really bummed out about it. I know it may not seem like much to most people but it's a big deal to me. ... Read more
Note I wrote last night..
Wednesday, January 29, 2014      6 comments

Here is something I wrote last night when I was feeling a little better. I don't know if I will believe this note all the time but I thought it would be good to write it out. Before you believe in yourself, your heart has to heal from what... Read more
Don't know about this doctor part 2
Wednesday, January 29, 2014      5 comments

I talked to my mom about the medication the doctor wants to give me and we don't think it's a good idea. It is one thing to be willing to try medication but it is another to go straight to one of the strongest medications out there. Of course I ... Read more
Don't know about this doctor...
Tuesday, January 28, 2014      4 comments

I am a bit frustrated. Spent a good amount of time writing a blog, was about to post it and then it somehow, it disappeared into cyberspace. It said everything I needed it to say. Guess I will work on it again later. For now, I'll ju... Read more
Need new friends.
Sunday, January 26, 2014      6 comments

Talked to a friend tonight. Learned more about her engagement. It's nice that things are going well for her. That is a genuine statement. At the same time, something bothers me. I have known her for 10+ years and feel like an outsider. I ... Read more
Feeling a little better today! :)
Saturday, January 25, 2014      6 comments

Today is going well so far. emoticon So... Read more
Giving up/Don't care anymore!
Friday, January 24, 2014      9 comments

I don't care about losing weight anymore. I don't care about school anymore. Nothing good will come of any effort put forth anyway. It's all pointless. Nobody can help to make me feel better. Not family, not a counselor, not myself, nobody! ... Read more
She's getting married!
Wednesday, January 22, 2014      4 comments

My friend is engaged. The date is set for the end of the year. I don't know all the details yet. She is suppose to call later. This is the only boyfriend she has ever had and she just started getting to know him this past summer. She knew ... Read more
Don't know what to do anymore...
Friday, January 17, 2014      5 comments

All of this anxiety and depression is getting to me. I go to the counseling center. I saw the Psychiatrist and he gave me medicine but it's not helping yet. It's extremely hard for me to be at school. Wednesday, I left early. I sat at a table an... Read more
Depressed & not exercising anymore...
Sunday, January 12, 2014      6 comments

Feeling depressed. Still missing my old self and feeling like I'll never find her. Ugh. I just feel like I am getting nowhere in life at all. I don't have a job and it's not exactly easy finding one either and it just makes me feel like crap. It... Read more
Sick :(
Saturday, January 04, 2014      3 comments

I haven't been feeling well for the last few days but today, it was awful. emoticon ... Read more
How to enjoy warm apple pie without eating it! :)
Wednesday, January 01, 2014      4 comments

Apple pie =delicious but way too many calories. Still, having the aroma lingering throughout the house is comforting. Pie is tempting but no worries. There is a way to en... Read more

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