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Shift in Trajectory
Wednesday, August 14, 2019      4 comments

I'm still struggling, but I'm getting there. So, I had an... interesting revelation (/experience/realization) yesterday night. I was going through old progress photos, especially at my skinniest (early March 2018). I'm not sure if I like that ... Read more
Down and Up
Tuesday, August 06, 2019      3 comments

My mood is down and my weight is up. I think I've put too much on my plate or am doing something wrong in my life lately. The depression has been coming back strong lately. The little monsters are biting at the edges of my mind and making lots... Read more
What about the future? What about the past?
Friday, July 26, 2019      1 comments

In the past year or longer, I've really tried focusing on staying in the moment. It's caused a weird shift in mindset. Since my birthday came and went, I've been thinking about what I want in the future. Although I really started around August 1... Read more
Positive Vibes
Friday, July 19, 2019      4 comments

So, I had a call with my health and wellness coach/ counselour yesterday. We were talking about a lot of things, but there was one big thing. I was talking about how I have good weeks (several good workouts, healthy eating, overall feeling go... Read more
Work Hard, Eat Right, Feel Good
Tuesday, July 16, 2019      4 comments

I had a conversation over text this morning with a friend's mom. She wished me a happy birthday and said she'd eat some cake for me. My immediate reply was, "I think eating some chicken and broccoli in honor of me would be more appropriate." Her... Read more
Stress, Anxiety, and Disputes
Thursday, July 11, 2019      5 comments

Ugh. Feeling... off, today. My girlfriend and best friend (who have never met) had an indirect fight through me. T_T Long story short, they have VERY different political views and my best friend is worried that my girlfriend will make me change ... Read more
"I will not feel deprived when I bypass junk food. I will feel empowered because I made the right ch
Wednesday, July 10, 2019      1 comments

"I will not feel deprived when I bypass junk food. I will feel empowered because I made the right choice." Geez. I can't believe I haven't published a post in two months. I remember when I was posting one (or more) every day! I've incr... Read more
New Systems (again)
Tuesday, May 21, 2019      2 comments

Lately (meaning the past 14 months), my weight has slowly been on the rise. With the exception of a really restrictive February, I haven't lost weight during that time period. I have, however, gone from 229 on March 15, 2018 to 262 on May 20, 20... Read more
Food, not Workouts
Tuesday, April 30, 2019      3 comments

I've been trying to think of and treat food differently. Rather than "don't eat chocolate / sugar / pop tarts/ etc.", I'm trying to focus more on "you can have as many carrots, tomatoes, asparagus, … [fruits and veggies] as you want." It works w... Read more
Food Control
Tuesday, April 16, 2019      3 comments

I'm very frustrated today. I feel like I cannot control my food. It began with a conversation about weight loss. I tried to blame my family for my eating habits, but I really can't. As I say "they may buy the food, but I'm the one putting it in ... Read more
Vision Change
Thursday, April 11, 2019      1 comments

Oof. Allergies are really bugging me today. It's messing with my stomach, my throat, my ears, etc. Workouts have been pretty good lately. Monday, my boxing coach made me do a bunch of squats. On Tuesday, I just went nuts at the gym, in additio... Read more
New Meal Plan (which is actually my old meal plan)
Monday, April 08, 2019      1 comments

Note to self: Don't stay up to three in the morning playing video games. I'm super tired today. I had a very bad for me breakfast (4.5 donuts, 2 cookies, a large brownie, and my usual eggs), but overall it's nothing I can't correct. Friday was... Read more
Depression Shift
Wednesday, April 03, 2019      1 comments

Been having a weird shift in my mood swings. Usually, I get feeling depressed around 9pm to whatever time I get to bed (often after midnight). Lately, I'm been getting depressed between 2pm and 5-8pm. I don't know what that's about except that I... Read more
Success Log
Thursday, March 28, 2019      2 comments

I feel like I need to recognize my recent successes. 1. Lost somewhere between 3 and 7 pounds this month (weighed myself twice in 12 hours last month and got very different weights), the first significant weight loss in about 6 months. 2. Ba... Read more
Wednesday, March 27, 2019      2 comments

I know I just posted a new blog yesterday, but I wanted to share this. In the past week or two, I've had four or five people come up to me at the gym and recognize me for my progress and dedication. Several folks specifically mentioned that I ... Read more

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