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Changed Mindset
Tuesday, October 08, 2019      6 comments

Yesterday, something clicked. I was reflecting and asking myself "What is it that I did three years ago that I am not doing now?" While activity was definitely different, the biggest change is my mindset. I was focused on the positive. I'm not... Read more
Doing Better
Thursday, October 03, 2019      4 comments

I'm feeling like I'm getting back on track. I'm noticing that a big part of my equation is having a purpose, at home, in health, and at work. I think what's really helping me is that I've begun to have purpose again at work. I've also started ... Read more
Oof (Weight Gain, Depression, ADHD, and just a rough week)
Monday, September 30, 2019      3 comments

Depression has been hitting me hard this year. I'm appreciative that my symptoms aren't as bad as others. For me, the symptoms are heightened anxiety, mood swings, feelings of inadequacy, questioning my decisions, eating my emotions more, feelin... Read more
Foods I want to try (again)
Wednesday, September 25, 2019      1 comments

Here are some foods I'd like to try making. Some I've never made and others I haven't made in a long while: Tuna Casserole (Skinny version) Chocolate Peanut Butter Cups, homemade Frozen Bananas dipped in chocolate and nuts * Orange segme... Read more
New Goals (again)
Tuesday, September 24, 2019      2 comments

I realized that I've taken my eye off the ball again. I'm cutting down the number of goals I have. New goals: Get to 250 pounds by November 27, 2019 (11/27/2019). - Steps: Crack down on eating. Swap between focus on quality (making hea... Read more
Life is Hard (I broke up)
Monday, September 23, 2019      7 comments

Life is hard. I'm lucky to be well paid, to have a support system, to know how to control my depression, and so on, but, still, it's hard. I'm in a bad/ down state of mind today because I broke up with my girlfriend. I keep having the same conve... Read more
Imbalanced and In Flux
Tuesday, September 03, 2019      4 comments

My mind isn't where I want. I'm imbalanced and in flux. I feel a big change on the horizon. I'm recognizing that a big shift is needed in my life. I'm falling back into old habits, especially when I'm tired. It's not as bad as it used to be. ... Read more
Shift in Trajectory
Wednesday, August 14, 2019      4 comments

I'm still struggling, but I'm getting there. So, I had an... interesting revelation (/experience/realization) yesterday night. I was going through old progress photos, especially at my skinniest (early March 2018). I'm not sure if I like that ... Read more
Down and Up
Tuesday, August 06, 2019      3 comments

My mood is down and my weight is up. I think I've put too much on my plate or am doing something wrong in my life lately. The depression has been coming back strong lately. The little monsters are biting at the edges of my mind and making lots... Read more
What about the future? What about the past?
Friday, July 26, 2019      1 comments

In the past year or longer, I've really tried focusing on staying in the moment. It's caused a weird shift in mindset. Since my birthday came and went, I've been thinking about what I want in the future. Although I really started around August 1... Read more
Positive Vibes
Friday, July 19, 2019      4 comments

So, I had a call with my health and wellness coach/ counselour yesterday. We were talking about a lot of things, but there was one big thing. I was talking about how I have good weeks (several good workouts, healthy eating, overall feeling go... Read more
Work Hard, Eat Right, Feel Good
Tuesday, July 16, 2019      4 comments

I had a conversation over text this morning with a friend's mom. She wished me a happy birthday and said she'd eat some cake for me. My immediate reply was, "I think eating some chicken and broccoli in honor of me would be more appropriate." Her... Read more
Stress, Anxiety, and Disputes
Thursday, July 11, 2019      5 comments

Ugh. Feeling... off, today. My girlfriend and best friend (who have never met) had an indirect fight through me. T_T Long story short, they have VERY different political views and my best friend is worried that my girlfriend will make me change ... Read more
"I will not feel deprived when I bypass junk food. I will feel empowered because I made the right ch
Wednesday, July 10, 2019      1 comments

"I will not feel deprived when I bypass junk food. I will feel empowered because I made the right choice." Geez. I can't believe I haven't published a post in two months. I remember when I was posting one (or more) every day! I've incr... Read more
New Systems (again)
Tuesday, May 21, 2019      2 comments

Lately (meaning the past 14 months), my weight has slowly been on the rise. With the exception of a really restrictive February, I haven't lost weight during that time period. I have, however, gone from 229 on March 15, 2018 to 262 on May 20, 20... Read more

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