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Monday, April 08, 2013      6 comments

:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~: It takes a lot of courage to show your dreams to someone else. Erma Bombeck :~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~: My constant dream througout my life has been to become... Read more
Stinking thinking
Monday, April 08, 2013      11 comments

Just talked to my OA-friend and we both admit that we have a vary hard time to accept ourselves as okay. Yesterday I ate over my calorie range - which immedeately started the inner voice about me again being a failure. And the alterate fas... Read more
Sunday, April 07, 2013      6 comments

...as the impulsive dramaqueen I am, one week of success with weight-loss means I already see myself dancing off in the sunset looking like a crossbread of Audrey Hepburn and Fred Astaire...and I dream a little about clothes styles I will be abl... Read more
Hunger levels...
Saturday, April 06, 2013      7 comments

Found this on a spark blog: Hunger Level Sensations and Symptoms 1 Starving, weak, dizzy 2 Very hungry, cranky, low energy, a lot of stomach growling 3 Pretty hungry, stomach is growling a little-------eat at this time 4 Starting to... Read more
I did it!
Thursday, April 04, 2013      9 comments

...with a little help from my friends, both Spark support and those in my real life. Four days of fasting is over, today is eating day and it is weird that I am allowed by the theory behind this (Michael Mosleys The fast diet) to eat anythi... Read more
Fourth and last day
Thursday, April 04, 2013      3 comments

This is the morning of the last day of fasting, feels great! Yesterday was hard, not that I was hungry (it comes and goes, but was worst the first day), but I got depressed and felt like life was over... I phoned my "OA-buddy" and talked to h... Read more
Joy is here!
Tuesday, April 02, 2013      5 comments

One of the weirdest thing about fasting is the joy that enters my mind, usually on day three. According to my new guru Mosley this is a "normal" feeling after a couple of days of fasting but they do not know why - it might be the BDNF level in t... Read more
Asking for support
Tuesday, April 02, 2013      15 comments

I have learned not to ask for support when I do my "Kamikaze" efforts as most people consider it a dumb thing to do. Therefore I have also learned to be secretive about them, I keep them to myself because I don´t want to be told that I am on the... Read more
Disasters and what I am doing...
Monday, April 01, 2013      6 comments

The situation with my daughter ended in disaster yesterday - the only good thing I can say for the moment is that she is alive and so am I. And that is what my focus will be right now, to stay alive and in order to do that I have to block out th... Read more
AND rewritten...
Sunday, March 31, 2013      4 comments

...or at least half of it: An insight There are a couple of things I have vainly tried to change for most of my life. One of them is how chaotic my home always is. It seems impossible for me to find a way to constantly have a neat and ... Read more
The long blog...
Sunday, March 31, 2013      5 comments

...I wrote just disappeared when I tried to post it, it is the second time this has happened in just a week. I need to learn to copy my text before I try to send it off. I don´t think I can write all that stuff again... a pity because it was int... Read more
Cues for eating
Saturday, March 30, 2013      5 comments

This was on daily blogs www.dailyspark.com/blog.
_cravings ..and I thought about last summers theatre. There was a break in it and before that I (or my cha... Read more
My Piano
Tuesday, March 26, 2013      9 comments

I moved in 2010 my inherited piano was left behind and has since then caused a lot of brooding and bad conscienve, Last year the draw hook on my car was disqualified and I had to weld a nut on it to make it inusable - after changing car a motnh ... Read more
Monday, March 25, 2013      10 comments

My daughter arrives with a bus 11.55 today - tha means I can´t attend the AA lunch meeting I usually go to mondays.No biggie, it is just that I got reminded that when I first got sober I was really scared for relapse and listened hard to those ... Read more
Invaluable Spark Firends
Sunday, March 24, 2013      8 comments

AOmetimes I comment on spark friends blog with a simple emoticon or a ... Read more

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