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out of control
Saturday, June 26, 2010      3 comments

Emotionally out of control,eating out of control.Anxiety is overwhelming .I have no idea why.I cant get any spark emails I dont know why.I miss them they ere my daily lifeline.... Read more
Just When I thought....
Sunday, June 20, 2010      4 comments

Just when I thought the heart ache of losing my sister was healing.Fathers day comes and I am again hurting in my stomach for Ginny knowing her husband is alone another holiday. We all spent every birthday,holiday,at Ginny's house.The emptiness ... Read more
At the new start
Thursday, June 17, 2010      2 comments

Well I have been really sick for two weeks.I had my tests and found out that I am so sick because my body is rejecting my chemotherapy pills so back to the drawing board again.On the bright side I lost 2 pounds and I am feeling a little better a... Read more
Hanging on Tight
Saturday, May 29, 2010      3 comments

After all the awesome SparkPeople and some family (My Niece and Family) I decided holding on was the right thing to do even if it didn't FEEL good. I realized Our Feelings get in the way sometime.Don't get me wrong I don't believe in the SHOULD ... Read more
letting go soon
Sunday, May 23, 2010      4 comments

I cant believe Im still here.I try to leave my life behind but I wake up to find myself still here and still hurting.No one can see the pain I live with and I want to scream at those around me ARE YOU BLIND OR JUST DONT GIVE A DARN.People dont s... Read more
Hanging On By A Thread
Wednesday, May 19, 2010      7 comments

This week was so draining and such an emotional spiral It was the first anniversary of my sisters death. my week to take my chemotherapy.I lost my sister to ovarian cancer.Even though I am surrounded by loving people,emotionally I feel TOTALLY ... Read more
My Sisters Death A year Later
Monday, May 17, 2010      3 comments

A year ago I lost my Sister,bestfriend and keeper of my deepest secrets.For the very first time my awesome neice Christina Helpped my overcome my greatest fear and took me to... Read more
Feeling Sad
Friday, May 14, 2010      4 comments

Even though my cancer is being maintained with chemotherapy This weekend marks one year since my sister died of her cancer.It is really hard for me to deal with the pain of losing her.I begged God to take me instead.She was the strongest christi... Read more
Friday, May 14, 2010      6 comments

This is the beginning of a new start of the next chapter of my life.Gaining my life back,weight,health,and emotional wellbeing. I am fighting my weight gain,my chemotherapy ,my cancer,MS and my emotional wellbeing. I want MY LIFE BACK... Read more