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June 22
Monday, June 22, 2020      7 comments

Logging on to say I’m trying to find my why. I thought it was my kids but I guess I’m not strong enough. Is it me?? I don’t really know. I can always see the image that I want to be but I can never get there. There is always something holdin... Read more
5/26/20
Tuesday, May 26, 2020      1 comments

So here we go. I have been in a crap storm since December 2019. My husband had emergency back surgery, my father in law has cancer, Covid19, tons of weight gain, my boss is retiring in 3 months and my son's friend just passed in a horrible A... Read more
The struggle is Real
Tuesday, April 14, 2020      5 comments

I am struggling with this surreal reality of what is going on in this world while also fighting my inner battles with food and self worth. Everything feels surreal. I work in a doctor's office, not on the front lines, but it can still be a lit... Read more
June 24, 2019
Monday, June 24, 2019      2 comments

Back again to complain how much I feel like a failure. I have a couple good days and fall right back to where I was before I started. I am struggling with my depression and anxiety which makes it even more difficult to deal with the weight. ... Read more
Totally bombed AGAIN!!
Wednesday, June 12, 2019      5 comments

I don’t know if I should quit now or keep trying. I am so tired of this constant struggle with food. I just want to live and not think about food every second of my life. Why does everyday have to feel like a struggle. Especially during pms t... Read more
September 19, 2018
Wednesday, September 19, 2018      0 comments

I am on day three of my challenge with myself to start exercising again and eat my way to better health. So far I have bombed. PMS does play a factor but my mental health also does. The past few months have been mentally difficult for me. I'... Read more
February 28
Wednesday, February 28, 2018      3 comments

Today is starting out as very stressful. Yesterday my dog tore my house apart. Tore my expensive curtains to shreds, bent curtain rods. This is only half of the destruction. My husband is mad and wants to get rid of her. I have no idea what... Read more
February 27, 2018
Tuesday, February 27, 2018      2 comments

I am feeling okay today. Yesterday was mentally hard on me. For some reason I felt really down all day like I wanted to cry. I just kept telling myself, you can do this, stay strong and stay focused. The self talk really worked for me yester... Read more
Friday February 23, 2018
Friday, February 23, 2018      1 comments

I am still struggling with life and myself and most of us in life. I strive to feel good about myself and my body as I have from day one. I keep getting stuck in the same circle. I do good for a couple days then hit a wall. I'm hoping this w... Read more
Healing
Tuesday, September 19, 2017      0 comments

I haven't been working out due to an injury. I was in steroids to heal this injury and good old steroids sent me on a wild mental roller coaster as it usually does. My neck is better but now my brain hurts and I have been eating like a pig. E... Read more
July 9
Sunday, July 09, 2017      2 comments

Well camping vacation wasn't a Total bust. I did get some exercise but not enough. Not crazy about getting on the scale tomorrow morning but I'll do it because I need to get myself back to reality. ... Read more
June 30, 2017
Friday, June 30, 2017      3 comments

Feeling decent today, so far! I am a little apprehensive about the upcoming vacation week! CAMPING! Hoping I can keep up this good thing I have going. I did go over my calories yesterday but I still logged so Im looking at that as a small vict... Read more
June 22, 2017
Thursday, June 22, 2017      5 comments

Feeling pretty good today! Didn't do so hot last night but I'm back on track! I'm hoping that with this blog, even if no one reads it, it will help me keep moving forward on my journey! I feel like I am finally at a place where I can help mys... Read more
February 13
Monday, February 13, 2017      3 comments

Still struggling to keep myself going. Having a hard time finding the mojo to workout but the good news is that i keep coming back to the site. There is still some hope for me yet!... Read more
2/9/17
Thursday, February 09, 2017      2 comments

Feeling Blah today. Snacked too much last night on cheese and crackers after eating healthy all day. Ugh!! Stress snacking sucks! I have three kids and I work full time. Trying to meet everyone needs and maintain a healthy lifestyle sometime... Read more

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