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Shame
Wednesday, September 26, 2018      2 comments

I'm so ashamed of everything I haven't done. I lost my 295 day log in streak. I can't find the ah-ha moment that makes my entire life turn around. I can't stick with anything long enough to say that anything works or doesn't work for me. I'm alw... Read more
My Issue with Mantras
Sunday, July 29, 2018      3 comments

A lot of people take inspiration from mantras. It helps them to achieve their goals, etc. Yet for me whenever I look at mantras they feel like judgments, like criticism. Rather than being inspired I become weighed down with the failure of not ac... Read more
Failure
Saturday, July 07, 2018      6 comments

I've been hear for 7 years and nothing works. Not exercise, not food tracking, and definitely not any of the myriad of reasons to try. I've tried everything and nothing works. I doubt anyone will even see this because no one cares. I'm going to ... Read more
Pudendal Neuralgia
Sunday, August 13, 2017      1 comments

Hello friends, It's been a long time since I've posted. Over the past almost two years I have struggled with a health problem. The first five doctors I saw didn't believe me when I told them my problem and said I needed to go to therapy to talk... Read more
Up and Down
Tuesday, February 02, 2016      0 comments

The week before I lost 3.5 lbs. Then last week happened. I got slammed with a huge medical bill (I'm perfectly healthy, jerk doctor) and then my car died so I had to get a new one. This all triggered an episode of depression that I'm still tryin... Read more
Milestone Achieved
Sunday, January 24, 2016      9 comments

Today I stepped on the scale and found that I had finally hit a huge milestone for me. I have lost 51 lbs from my highest weight. I still have a long way to go, but now I am 11 lbs away from Onederland and that's going to be a great victory too.... Read more
Goals
Sunday, January 10, 2016      2 comments

Today I wrote down all my health goals for 2016 and shared them with my family. I think goals are a better term for them rather than resolutions which seem to have a connotation of failure. I've set my goals, shared them with loved ones, and est... Read more
Gym?
Saturday, January 09, 2016      3 comments

I'm debating whether or not to join Planet Fitness again. I really want to use the weight machines and the treadmills so I can run. I'd like to be able to run a marathon, even in private, before the end of the year. ... Read more
In the pit
Wednesday, January 06, 2016      2 comments

After a horrible altercation Monday I'm mentally back where I was 4 years ago. So much for progress.... Read more
Walking the dogs
Tuesday, January 05, 2016      3 comments

I'm finally feeling ok if I only walk the dogs as my exercise for the day. We try to go on a 10 minute walk twice a day because it's so good for them and for so long that didn't feel like enough for me. But maybe some days it is. ... Read more
Sundays
Sunday, January 03, 2016      4 comments

I hate Sundays. They're filled with existential loathing and melancholy. ... Read more
Spark Goodies and Awards
Monday, August 03, 2015      6 comments

I normally don't come on the main Spark People website. Instead I use the app for pretty much everything that I do with Spark People. I see a lot of the content that I need, but not much of the fun extras such as being sent Goodies. Let me tell ... Read more
Biggest Loser Power Walk
Sunday, July 26, 2015      5 comments

Today for the first time ever, I completed a Biggest Loser workout video. I wish I was happier about this huge accomplishment. Unfortunately I didn't lose any weight this week. I maintained, but that's still not good enough for me. The next week... Read more
Anxiety Attacks
Monday, December 01, 2014      3 comments

That's my new thing apparently. Get over depression and BOOM have some anxiety to replace that. For the most part the anxiety meds I've been given have worked wonders. But about once a month they decide to not work for about a day. Today gets to... Read more
Happy Thanksgiving!
Thursday, November 27, 2014      3 comments

First off thank you to everyone. I'm excited beyond belief for this play. It's something to look forward to and motivate me. I've already been practicing the ASL alphabet and working on memorizing lines. This is what I've wanted for so long and ... Read more

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