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I feel I look worse now
Saturday, July 11, 2020      2 comments

I'm nowhere close to my goal weight, but I feel that I look worse now than I did at my heaviest. My arms are especially foul for me to look at - they're flabby and crepe-y. What makes it worse is knowing that it's all my fault for how I look and... Read more
Is the gym safe?
Thursday, July 09, 2020      4 comments

The gyms in my home are open again, but I'm still hesitant to go even wearing a mask. What are your thoughts on this? By the way, we're still in the middle of the pandemic and opened too early. I will not be taking comments on that.... Read more
Down two pounds!
Monday, February 03, 2020      1 comments

I'm really surprised because I expected last week to put me up. My anxiety with all the new changes in my life is putting me into overdrive so I think the weight loss is because of that. Still beggars can't be choosers.... Read more
2/2/2020
Sunday, February 02, 2020      2 comments

That's a fun date we get to write today. I'm looking forward to another week of practicing exercise and healthy living. Now that I'm back in school I ha e to work extra hard to stick to a schedule that allows me to get everything done. Fingers c... Read more
Day 3 of 10k
Monday, January 20, 2020      3 comments

Did my workout at the gym and at home. I also started a 30 day plank workout challenge.... Read more
Chilly morning
Saturday, January 18, 2020      2 comments

Winter has certainly arrived in my neck of the woods. Fortunately I have two wonderful puppies who still need to go for their morning walk. Spark on fr... Read more
Shame
Wednesday, September 26, 2018      3 comments

I'm so ashamed of everything I haven't done. I lost my 295 day log in streak. I can't find the ah-ha moment that makes my entire life turn around. I can't stick with anything long enough to say that anything works or doesn't work for me. I'm alw... Read more
My Issue with Mantras
Sunday, July 29, 2018      3 comments

A lot of people take inspiration from mantras. It helps them to achieve their goals, etc. Yet for me whenever I look at mantras they feel like judgments, like criticism. Rather than being inspired I become weighed down with the failure of not ac... Read more
Failure
Saturday, July 07, 2018      6 comments

I've been hear for 7 years and nothing works. Not exercise, not food tracking, and definitely not any of the myriad of reasons to try. I've tried everything and nothing works. I doubt anyone will even see this because no one cares. I'm going to ... Read more
Pudendal Neuralgia
Sunday, August 13, 2017      1 comments

Hello friends, It's been a long time since I've posted. Over the past almost two years I have struggled with a health problem. The first five doctors I saw didn't believe me when I told them my problem and said I needed to go to therapy to talk... Read more
Up and Down
Tuesday, February 02, 2016      0 comments

The week before I lost 3.5 lbs. Then last week happened. I got slammed with a huge medical bill (I'm perfectly healthy, jerk doctor) and then my car died so I had to get a new one. This all triggered an episode of depression that I'm still tryin... Read more
Milestone Achieved
Sunday, January 24, 2016      9 comments

Today I stepped on the scale and found that I had finally hit a huge milestone for me. I have lost 51 lbs from my highest weight. I still have a long way to go, but now I am 11 lbs away from Onederland and that's going to be a great victory too.... Read more
Goals
Sunday, January 10, 2016      2 comments

Today I wrote down all my health goals for 2016 and shared them with my family. I think goals are a better term for them rather than resolutions which seem to have a connotation of failure. I've set my goals, shared them with loved ones, and est... Read more
Gym?
Saturday, January 09, 2016      3 comments

I'm debating whether or not to join Planet Fitness again. I really want to use the weight machines and the treadmills so I can run. I'd like to be able to run a marathon, even in private, before the end of the year. ... Read more
In the pit
Wednesday, January 06, 2016      2 comments

After a horrible altercation Monday I'm mentally back where I was 4 years ago. So much for progress.... Read more

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