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The sky is blue again.
Friday, October 30, 2009      3 comments

I made it through the clouds. Dunno how. But staying out of the house forced me to be a little stronger and by the time my 9pm class was over I was in the house and feeling okay enough in my house to let the bad thoughts drift. I guess my brain ... Read more
How do you make the tears stop?
Thursday, October 29, 2009      8 comments

I feel like a lump. I keep trying to stand up and put on the brave face but the plain truth is it hurts. My brother has been getting trouble and I kept hoping he would straighten up his act but no. He was already on probation and now he wa... Read more
Tough Goals but I'm Determined
Tuesday, October 27, 2009      3 comments

My goal of making it under 200lbs for my November 6th weigh in is getting higher and higher. I haven't been losing the numbers that I needed to lose to make this goal a feasible one and each day that I let pass without reaching out to grasp this... Read more
Biggest Loser- Home Edition
Friday, October 23, 2009      1 comments

Pete and I have a challengde going. At work they started a weight loss challengde last tuesday and now today is friday and they are going to weigh in every friday. The two top losers win an iPod nano and a Snap fitness 6 month membership. All th... Read more
Who Am I?
Monday, October 19, 2009      0 comments

I used to know. I don't anymore. I keep hoping to figure it out and I am getting there. But I miss so much about the me before. When did I stop looking in all the mirrors and admiring myself. I guess I have always CARED about my weight but I did... Read more
Making the push
Saturday, October 17, 2009      0 comments

I am making a real push to make sure that when I step on that scale on November 5th it tells me that I have made it below 200lbs. It hasn't been too hard the past few days. Mon Tuesday not so good. I climbed back on the wagon and I feel li... Read more
From Slacker to Cinderella. . .
Wednesday, October 14, 2009      1 comments

. . . minus the poofy dress. . . I have been such a slacker lately. The weather got cold and my bike rides ceased to exsist. Been a couch bum. Not wanting to cook and its resulted in me eating the silliest things all day. One day I ate cas... Read more
Feeling Sexier than ever!
Monday, October 12, 2009      1 comments

The snow started today and I realized that I wasn't ready for winter. Most of my pants are still ill fitting and I've been wearing flipflops and don't have many sweaters. My car didn't have a brush and all that stuff. Lexi is the only ready with... Read more
I think its time for new friends
Sunday, October 11, 2009      3 comments

As fun as it has been I think that I am outgrowing my high school friendships. We are going in different relationships. I know that it is getting to the point were you sever the ties and keep going but she is my best friend. She can't unde... Read more
Irritating Boyfriend
Saturday, October 10, 2009      2 comments

Today is my best friends birthday and I am supposed to be going out with them tonight. Pete was invited but is ditching me. I am really disappointed. I acts like I am asking him to poke and eye out and complains that he will feel out of place bu... Read more
I think I have found the key. . .
Wednesday, October 07, 2009      2 comments

My motivation is constantly flagging but I think I may have struck upon one reason to lose weight that might just have staying power. I have been slowly moving down the weight loss ladder but the movements are so miniscle that it is depressing. ... Read more
Random Complaints and Hopes.
Monday, October 05, 2009      2 comments

Ready for my car to be fixed. I dropped it off today. Hopefully I will have my car at the end of the week. Saturday is my best friends birthday. Hopefully I can get them to a place where I won't be pressured to drink. Last time I fell of the wag... Read more
New Month- New start
Sunday, October 04, 2009      2 comments

I didn't meet my two week goal. I wanted to be at 205lb. A heafty goal I know to lose 6lbs in two weeks. I did lose 3 though and that is not bad. It is about what I normally do. I would really like to lose another pound a month. I am no... Read more
Boyfriend lost 12 lbs. . . enter the green monster!
Friday, October 02, 2009      2 comments

I am jealous. The last two weeks I've lost 2.5lbs and then I look over at Pete and he is down 12lbs in the same time period. Part of me is jealous. Part of me is happy for him. To be honest I am very happy for him and not so much jealous as wond... Read more
Broke the Baby (Again)
Wednesday, September 30, 2009      3 comments

Lexi is acting funny again. This time she isn't walking. Cried all night. I won't even try to guess what is wrong. I am going to pray that it is maybe a sprained ankle and that she will feel better soon. The poor child. She didn't fall in ... Read more

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