Walking on Water
Tuesday, June 08, 2021
Have you had this happen to you? When for a long time you worked and watched what you ate and exercised and really , it seemed not to be accomplishing anything. You think of all the pounds ahead and need to be gone and you feel kind of in despair.
And then something happens. Something that--even though it may be a world-shaking horrible thing, it causes you to lose weight. I experienced this when my mom died. And I experienced it when I was almost dead from pneumonia or Meningitis/Encephalitis...and more recently physical pain caused my appetite to flee. In each of those events I lost amazing amounts of weight. Weighing myself following these losses of appetites became an event. The fear was gone because i KNEW there would be at the least a loss of a pound a day. This also happened in a less drastic manner when I was well and was eating very healthfully and exercising to a level at which I'd never managed before.
Weighing became a joy. But I think that there is a danger that you begin to feel and to believe that you are invincible. Little by little you consume a gradually increase in calories....and maybe you either get lazy or maybe what ever it is that stopped you from eating also will stop you from putting out the effort and motivation to exercise. This is true more for depression, chronic pain, grief and asthma.
Right now i"m teetering on the brink of of a precipice. Today I gained a pound and that is a new thing for me in the past week ...I made the mistake of figuring out where I'm at in this journey. Doing that caused me to feel kind of hopeless and kind of vulnerable to dismay. I see how very far I have yet to go. Now I know that this is a mistake. I should be doing my best to walk the walk and to keep my eyes fixed on the small successes in the present. Rejoice in my progress but also to keep one foot planted in reality. I am reminded of the famous poster quote "The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.:" and you know what? Meeting your goals day by day CONTINUES with single steps. The whole journey is comprised of one step! and the minute you fix your eyes on the waves and wind like Simon Peter did, and you take them off of your next step and you begin to panic at how very deep the water is and down you go, like a stone.
The solution is found in focus and in faith. Keep your eyes on the God who made you and do the next thing.