Feel like the morning after
Monday, May 10, 2021
I survived yesterday-my most dreaded day of the year. My sisters on a high with their kids all showering them with hugs, love, gifts and happy mother’s day. In front of everybody my youngest which keeps texting me how much she loves me and I am her best friend ask what did you get? I held the tears but I think my look said it all and awkward silence. My niece that bashed me on Facebook does the kissing up to my other sister as if their best friends. The good thing it’s over until Father’s Day and another month to prepare mentally for the constant reminder of the terrible childhood they encountered because of me. I cried for hours and no sleep as I can’t remember the horror I put them thru, so I must have blocked it out. I keep thinking -Reap what you sow, what goes around comes around, others know you by your fruit, and no wonder I have no friends as I really am a terrible, mean person. No wonder my kids have anger issues, don’t acknowledge me as mom, and I am so alone and only have this!