It's okay to be scared. Being scared means you're about to do something
When i had my children 30 years ago I was told because of my heart condition,
I could die , they could die , or my heart condition could get much worse,
My son Joshua was born first by emergency c section , not to save him or me but
because his head was to big for my hips. lol His heart was healthy and later
in teen age years developed crohns colitis ,. Not at all what the doctors expected,
My daughter born 5 years later was a different story as she had a slow fetal heart rate.
At the age of 4 she also developed a very high heart rate and was sent to get her first
pacemaker. Her heart was like mine but more complex,
Now 25 years later I am here again with the doctors and bad news but this time
it is Sara having a baby, Her baby is smallish , and does have a defect with one of his
heart valves, It is something they think fixable at the time of birth, We won't know the
extent until he is born.
I remember being so sad all of my pregnancy with Sara . I was not sure she was going
to make it, I was hoping she and her husband Michael would be spared the pain and worrying,
Today I went with her to see the fetal specialist , He knew the same doctors that Sara
saw all her life. I felt comfortable with this doctor and his willingness to learn and grow.
Today he told Sara that she was a good candidate for having a c section also,
It is hard for me to say and do the right things for her . I do try, I will say her heart condition
has brought us closer together , Here is the song I sang to her through out my pregnancy,
I hope her and her little one get to have a strong bond also, I am thankful and blessed
with so much, Thank you so much for reading and your kind comments, Keep looking
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