Cannot Say "More Determined"
Sunday, March 28, 2021
Well, here I am again... I cannot say I'm more determined than the last time, or the time before that, or the time before that... as this roller coaster never ends! The WANT is there, the DESIRE is there... but more determined?? I feel defeated in so many ways!
Last year (around this same time) I started back here on Sparkpeople "more determined" than ever! I felt as if I was starving almost all the time... I was exercising like crazy, I was eating healthy and within my calorie range... but it felt as if NOTHING was happening. I finally said "Screw this" and threw in the towel! I DID however, manage to quit smoking - and March 12th was a year of NO SMOKING! So, I am very proud of myself for that!
I've finally decided to go to a health clinic for help! My first appointment is tomorrow. I will be starting lipo shots, and I am very optimistic about this! I'm so tired of "dieting" and getting nowhere. I see a pound loss, and then I see a pound gained... it's constant up and down, and nothing ever really close enough to make you feel like you are accomplishing something!
I have recently changed OUR (my family's) diet, mostly due to my husband's constant health issues. But, we have gone to a Pescatarian/vegetarian type of diet. With the change, I have already lost between 6 to 9 lbs. But... that is typical. Beyond that... nothing happens.
So, I've decided with eating BETTER, and trying these lipo injections, combined with more exercise, maybe I'll start to see a change. I'm hoping so, anyways. I'm planning to start an exercise routine tomorrow too. Which I have let go completely since stopping last year. So... anyways, here I am again... just as determined as I was the last time and the time before that... but feeling defeated in so many ways too. Keeping my fingers crossed and looking forward to my appointment tomorrow.