Thursday, March 11, 2021
I'm back to SP after a hiatus of about 9 months or so. I'm a lifetime member of WW from the late 90s, and a Sparker from 2009. I never gained all my weight back from the 90s but did put back on around 30 pounds. I would get it down, then pop back up. Back at the end of September 2020, I decided it was time to get the extra weight off and try and get healthy. I rejoined WW. My goal with WW from the very beginning was 164, but I was able to get down to the 148/150 range. Oh the joys of being in your 40s. Of course we all know even if we are now 64, we want to be what we were in our 40s, which I am sure is possible. But through the years, I was finding I just couldn't get back into the 150s. I would get close, then pop right back up and at times gaining again. I had a hard time convincing myself it was ok to be 164. That put me into the healthy BMI range, but I felt I was failing myself, or giving in if I was happy with the 164. Even when I restarted the journey on SP, I made my goal at 158.
Yesterday I was chatting with a dear friend from SP, Onekidsmom, and she made the statement of getting that 5 more pounds off and how we tend to do that. That got me thinking of how even back when I made goal with WW, I never went into maintenance mode. That's how I made it down to 148. But even at 148, I kept thinking 10 more pounds. It was not attainable, which put stress on me and eventually I gained. I found I was doing the same thing this time. I wasn't going into maintenance mode. So for the first time, yesterday I decided to go into maintenance mode. If I should lose some more, of course that would be fantastic, but I want to learn just to be happy and not stressed about it all the time.
I will admit when I changed my SP goals into maintenance and it gave me such a huge range, I went into panic mode. Then of course the scale went up a pound today. I was nearer the top of the calorie range yesterday and again today. I really didn't want to start that high, but I freaked and was eating from emotions. So I went to Onekidsmom and again she is helping me through it.
My advice from what I have learned from SP through the years, there is someone that has went through what you are going through and can help. Reach out and get advice. That's what we all are here for, we help and we get help. We all have our own journey, but there are those that can help us on that journey.