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One Year Binge Free

Tuesday, March 02, 2021

I am back on Spark. I've been around the world...the diet world...trying to find my solution to my eating and weight problems. Needless to say...none of it worked for me. My last true success was here...on Spark...connecting with this community...and encouraging others. So, this is where I need to be.

I have Binge Eating Disorder. It's no fun...and I've had it since a child. I have considered seeking counseling for this...but feel the financial aspect of that may be a hinderance. So, I am continuing the self-therapy route.

Writing has been a way that I can find out what's going on inside my head and work through things so I will be relying heavily on writing to find my way out and try to get some healing from this disorder. It has been really bad since COVID broke out. Since binge eating is my coping strategy and I've had a lot to cope with...I've been binge eating a lot and am at my all-time high. I don't want to continue down this road which will end with me being too heavy to do the things I enjoy. I am already experiencing some problems...but down the road, they will be even worse, I know...and I just don't want to go there.

My plan is to eat 3 meals a day and no snacks. While I realize I could have snacks and just track them and subtract them from my calories, I also realize that every binge began as a snack. So, my reasoning is that, if I don't snack, I will not binge.

I have started an online journal where I can write my thoughts throughout the day as urges for food comfort hit me. Instead, I will write it out.

I'm shooting for 200 calories for breakfast, 500 for lunch and supper and plan to record every meal.

I have a goal of going 1 year with no binges. I did this last time I was on Spark. Last time, that was not my goal. My goal was to lose weight and track my meals. Right now, I am more concerned about the out-of-control eating behavior than I am about losing. I do want to lose weight but it is a second goal to stopping this behavior. It's very disturbing to me that I have BED and have not been able to rid myself of it or control it.

Well, today is Day 1. "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." ~ Lao-Tzu So, here I go. Hope you all have a great day! Keep up the good work! Spark on!
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  • JUSTJ2014

    You took the first few steps in taking care of yourself. Recognizing the issue and how to overcome it.
    I am so glad you are here and would be happy to help motivate you in any way. There are so many amazing resources here with an incredible group of people.



    146 days ago
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    emoticon It seems long ago, I followed you--or at least posted on some of your blogs. I would like to do that again---and isn't it nice Sparks has a swinging door policy where members can come and go and always be welcomed back by those who did not forget you. I commend you for tackling your challenge and hope to be a good support. (also adding you for a friend--hope that is ok) ...
    152 days ago
    Ya know, we all have different beliefs. I believe almost a plant based diet and sometimes a little treat is fine. (I eat very few animal products)

    Also, the Law of Attraction teaches not to feel negativity while you eat (like guilt)...just find something to appreciate.

    I am 10 pounds from goal. It worked for me!

    Good luckl emoticon
    152 days ago
  • SHARON10002
    emoticon Cathy. I did not realize you struggled with this eating disorder, but I'm sure being back here on SP will help you. I thought that perhaps you had reached your goal weight! I hope that eating "three squares" with no snacking will help you to reset your triggers.
    I wish you all the best this year. emoticon
    152 days ago
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  • LINDA!
    emoticon Great goals.
    153 days ago
    Welcome back! You have a good plan and know you have support here to stay on the path. Good to see you again.

    153 days ago
    I wish you the best and hope you can conquer your BED. I also struggle with it. My weight is back up to my almost all time high. I just can't seem to stop eating candy lately. Perhaps you will inspire more than you realize. emoticon
    153 days ago
    emoticon I've missed you.
    153 days ago
    I saw the title to your blog and my fingers couldn't fly fast enough to get me here to see the secret--lol. So, I'll be waiting for next years blog! You will do it!
    153 days ago
    Nice to see you back. Your plan is a good one. I have eliminated some foods that I found were triggers to eating worse food.
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  • VHAYES04
    Welcome back!!
    153 days ago
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