One Year Binge Free
Tuesday, March 02, 2021
I am back on Spark. I've been around the world...the diet world...trying to find my solution to my eating and weight problems. Needless to say...none of it worked for me. My last true success was here...on Spark...connecting with this community...and encouraging others. So, this is where I need to be.
I have Binge Eating Disorder. It's no fun...and I've had it since a child. I have considered seeking counseling for this...but feel the financial aspect of that may be a hinderance. So, I am continuing the self-therapy route.
Writing has been a way that I can find out what's going on inside my head and work through things so I will be relying heavily on writing to find my way out and try to get some healing from this disorder. It has been really bad since COVID broke out. Since binge eating is my coping strategy and I've had a lot to cope with...I've been binge eating a lot and am at my all-time high. I don't want to continue down this road which will end with me being too heavy to do the things I enjoy. I am already experiencing some problems...but down the road, they will be even worse, I know...and I just don't want to go there.
My plan is to eat 3 meals a day and no snacks. While I realize I could have snacks and just track them and subtract them from my calories, I also realize that every binge began as a snack. So, my reasoning is that, if I don't snack, I will not binge.
I have started an online journal where I can write my thoughts throughout the day as urges for food comfort hit me. Instead, I will write it out.
I'm shooting for 200 calories for breakfast, 500 for lunch and supper and plan to record every meal.
I have a goal of going 1 year with no binges. I did this last time I was on Spark. Last time, that was not my goal. My goal was to lose weight and track my meals. Right now, I am more concerned about the out-of-control eating behavior than I am about losing. I do want to lose weight but it is a second goal to stopping this behavior. It's very disturbing to me that I have BED and have not been able to rid myself of it or control it.
Well, today is Day 1. "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." ~ Lao-Tzu So, here I go. Hope you all have a great day! Keep up the good work! Spark on!