Monday, January 18, 2021
It's such a grand feeling when you can be out of your comfort zone and be able to walk through it, feeling all the agonizing emotional pain and then get to the other side. I am pretty sure I am on the other side now. The heaviness and those extreme uncomfortable feelings have dissipated. I have succeeded without numbing myself with anything that would masque the feelings I had been feeling for the past few months.
I am settled in my new home, new city and new state. Austin, TX seems to be growing on me although I haven't really done a lot due to the restrictions of Covid. But what is magical is my closeness to my grandson who is just starting to say MIMI, and to be in close proximity with my daughter, Jaimey and SIL, Justin who live approx. 5 mins from me.
This is where I am suppose to be now although I will always miss my Marin County, CA forever. I still get twinges of homesickness; I am a native San Franciscan and have lived across the Golden Gate Bridge for decades. There, it will always have my heart.
I absolutely love my home. I was lucky to have purchased it when I did; the real estate in Austin is selling like wild fire. Austin is growing at a rapid speed; I got here just in time.
My home has been renovated, so basically I just need to give it my love for decorating in each room. I am gradually doing that now; it is a slow process. My home is bright with light, huge windows facing east and west. Bernie, my golden has adjusted beautifully and both of us have already made this house a home.
It's important to know that when you are feeling uncomfortable emotions, they pass. They are not permanent, they just feel yucky. And to go through all those feelings without numbing yourself with food or any other unhealthy choices so you don't feel each hard emotion, it's pretty awesome when you achieve that.
Be safe and dance...it's a new year and hopefully it will be a good one.