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Monday, January 18, 2021

It's such a grand feeling when you can be out of your comfort zone and be able to walk through it, feeling all the agonizing emotional pain and then get to the other side. I am pretty sure I am on the other side now. The heaviness and those extreme uncomfortable feelings have dissipated. I have succeeded without numbing myself with anything that would masque the feelings I had been feeling for the past few months.

I am settled in my new home, new city and new state. Austin, TX seems to be growing on me although I haven't really done a lot due to the restrictions of Covid. But what is magical is my closeness to my grandson who is just starting to say MIMI, and to be in close proximity with my daughter, Jaimey and SIL, Justin who live approx. 5 mins from me.

This is where I am suppose to be now although I will always miss my Marin County, CA forever. I still get twinges of homesickness; I am a native San Franciscan and have lived across the Golden Gate Bridge for decades. There, it will always have my heart.

I absolutely love my home. I was lucky to have purchased it when I did; the real estate in Austin is selling like wild fire. Austin is growing at a rapid speed; I got here just in time.

My home has been renovated, so basically I just need to give it my love for decorating in each room. I am gradually doing that now; it is a slow process. My home is bright with light, huge windows facing east and west. Bernie, my golden has adjusted beautifully and both of us have already made this house a home.

It's important to know that when you are feeling uncomfortable emotions, they pass. They are not permanent, they just feel yucky. And to go through all those feelings without numbing yourself with food or any other unhealthy choices so you don't feel each hard emotion, it's pretty awesome when you achieve that.

Be safe and dance...it's a new year and hopefully it will be a good one.
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    I missed this blog. Good message to live through the feelings without numbing yourself. I hope each day you are feeling less pain from your surgery.
    33 days ago
    It's wonderful to hear that you and Bernie are enjoying your new home and getting settled in. Impermanence- a fact of life.
    44 days ago
    Remember: "I left my heart in San Francisco"? It will always be with you, but you are willing to start anew, and it is wonderful.
    45 days ago
    Such excellent advice!! Even the most uncomfortable feelings don't last forever . . . and it's wonderful that you love your new home and that it already FEELS like a home. It will only get better, with time! Austin is a very quirky and interesting place . . . lots of fun stuff to do. I enjoyed the Lady Bird Johnson Wildflower Centre https://www.wildflower.org/ (where you can take Bernie) and the Barton Spring swimming pool . . . https://austintexas.gov/department/
    barton-springs-pool. The art gallery at the university is stunning (with a great gift shop too) and there are many wonderful food trucks and places to buy cowboy boots!!
    45 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    So glad to hear things are going so well!
    45 days ago
  • DESIREE672
    I’m happy to see you here. You have such a wise attitude to life. I’m looking forward to hearing about your turning your house into your home as you put down roots in Austin.
    45 days ago
  • ERIN1128
    My old college roomate is now a realtor in Austin and she says it's insane - literally up to 100 offers on one house! You definitely timed it well. My brother and I just put my parent's condo in Novato on the market (it was a longtime rental) - it went up Thursday afternoon and there have already been 9 showings, so hopefully we'll be able to move it quickly. :-)
    45 days ago
  • EISSA7
    You DO sound settled and at peace in your new surroundings -THAT is simply wonderful! I can feel your happiness in being so close to Jaimey and family. Can’t wait to hear more about your house and the new and energizing experiences that await! emoticon
    45 days ago
    I can't wait to see how you decorate your new house! It is important to know that emotions pass. Wtg for feeling the emotions without trying to artificially silence them.
    45 days ago
    I can just see you spoiling Lev. and I bet he enjoys every minute. Hope someday you let us into a little of your new home thru photos. The Marion house was so well decorated and so you, that I am waiting to see what this will be. I know it will be just extension of you.
    45 days ago
    Well done, enjoy every single day!
    45 days ago
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  • TZAPP22
    Congratulations on so many levels! Excellent insight!
    45 days ago
    I am so happy for you! You went through a lot getting there, but it sure does sound like it's where you're meant to be. Any doubts, I am sure, are erased when you hear your grandson call you Mimi! Priceless.

    Mazel Tov. Enjoy.
    45 days ago
  • COOP9002
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  • BJAEGER307
    I am so happy to read this blog today. You have persevered which shows you are stronger than you think. Being with family is such a priority now. Your grandson will have a chance to have his MIMI in his life. You don't know how much influence you will have on him. He will be forever grateful and you will see the next generation grow up. How great is that?

    I do understand homesickness if that's where you lived all your life. I still say go with the new adventures that await you.

    Take care.
    45 days ago
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