Friday, December 25, 2020
Usually I’m up scrambling looking for pots and pans; getting bacon, sausage,eggs,hash browns, biscuits and gravy going. Getting the plates out; milk, juice and coffee. This year is different. After a 40 year tradition I won’t be cooking Christmas breakfast. We started this the year Michelle Hayes was born. Then we would have our big family dinner the Saturday after the holiday because everyone was so busy elsewhere on holidays. We would cook breakfast then open gifts. We continued it after the grandkids were born too. After Grayling passed I kept it up. This year it didn’t work out to do it........nothing last forever.
I guess I’m having a pity party. We didn’t celebrate Thanksgiving;(With my kids) nothing for Christmas either. Some say we’ll do it later. After things calm down. Maybe in a few weeks. Well I guess I’m grouchy. I say let’s wait til next year. I feel like I’m second fiddle anymore. Could just be the way I feel but it’s the way I feel; not by everyone but by some.
This year has bit me in the a$$ in different ways. Things I thought were right were wrong. That was and is still rough. Healing is in progress. God has a reasoning for everything. I’m still trying to understand and praying for guidance on some things; actually a lot of things. God blessed me with 2 great grandkids this year and a man who loves me. Three loves in one year! How could a person get so lucky?!?! I must have done something right!
I haven’t been feeling well. Haven’t said anything to anyone much. It’ll all going to be ok. My God is in control. I want to wish each of you a Merry Christmas. Hold you little ones tight and kiss your Mama and Daddy. Tomorrow is not a promised day. Love each and everyone of you.
What I’d give to load my kids up and go to Mom and Dads and run the hills of Horton one more time! 😢
Eat some turkey and dressing for me! Merry Christmas!!