Back Inside the Gym
Tuesday, December 08, 2020
I was truly fearful that not only would I never get better, but I was going to die. In October, we had a carefully socially distanced visit to my daughter in Asheville and I needed a wheelchair at Biltmore. I was walking with a cane for months if I walked at all. And every day, I felt worse. The joint and muscle pain was incredible, and I hadn't prepared a meal in months. I couldn't do anything.
I knew I was going to die if something didn't change. I asked a doctor friend for some advice about endocrinology and neurology specialists. My local team didn't seem to understand my type of brain tumor. My friend gave me a name. I saw the new endocrinologist on November 11. He changed the levels of hormones I have been taking for months, because my body doesn't make them anymore. He said, "you need more of this, less of this, some of that, and we'll watch and see what happens." Three days later I was walking without a cane. After so many months of nothing but yoga and a little walking with a cane, I had lost a lot of muscle and bone mass.
I started following Coach Nicole videos religiously. Before my new doctor, I followed along but could hardly move. Now, I could truly participate. I started running up and down the stairs again. I had been going weeks without walking down the stairs.
About 2 weeks ago, I went back to the gym. Aquatics is my favorite of all cardio exercise. Because I am high risk, I don't go to the classes. Because I had taken aqua for so many years, I know just how to do it. I go to the pool when there is almost no one there, and the manager turns the music on for me, and I pretend I am in class. Today, I felt like I really have a chance to somehow get back to my old self. I had that tumor for more than 10 years without knowing it, and I had no idea how sick I was for so long.
Pushing the water back and forth, swinging my legs back and forth under me, treading water in time to the music, it's like a dream come true.
I'm still in here.