2020 A Year Of Learning And Personal Growth
Thursday, November 12, 2020
Finally understanding who I really am. Would of never happened if my mother didn't pass away in March.
Almost 60 year's young
. Spent 59 years being who others wanted me to be and expected from me.
Never understood why as a teenager I always said I wanted to become a member of the Shaker Religion. I knew they were no more from my reading.
I finally understand me!. I prefer to connect with people on spiritual level people's soul's and beliefs are more important than anything else. This is new yet to so word's are hard to find. I've always been different from everyone else that I've known. This new knowledge is really a no no with my family.
I remember a time my mother's brother came out and the way she acted to the news.
I'm not a touchy feely person at all. I finally realized I'm Asexual - in the day I could have really became a"Shaker" .
I'm not the first person in my family to realize I've been living a lie. Though I am the oldest.
I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. Still not sure how to tell family or if I even need to. I feel at peace no more living as someone else.
Now I know I can finally keep my weight in check I can do this!