I tried to steal my own joy this morning! I have gained a couple of pounds and I nearly cried. Seriously, I stepped off Ms. Lofitilla Plus and I was sad. I have been working so hard and my daily weigh-ins are flat or lower. Rationally, I understand weight fluctuations and I only do it daily to keep myself focused. I know I am weight training, Aunt Flo has come by to visit and who knows where the planets are aligning - yet I was still disappointed. I was at my Sept goal last week and here I am a few days away, 2 lbs. shy of reaching it.
I did a run down of what I could be doing wrong. I slept in a couple of days, I bought popcorn this week, and I even ate over my allotment a few times.
It took me a few minutes to get myself together because I am NOT starting my week with this kind of negativity. As my nana would say: NOT TODAY SATAN!
I really had to have a serious pep talk with myself about NSV and being realistic:
1. Your weight will fluctuate. PERIODT. FULL. STOP.
2. You are working hard every day: I have not missed a workout or day of active recovery since 4/8/2020. The day after I was released from the hospital. I am currently working out at least 60 mins a day.
3. You don't drink alcohol or smoke: I have not had a glass of red wine or cigar in 181 days!
4. You can do push-ups, run and even hold a plank!
So, what I need you to do is get yourself all the way together.
And that's what I did. It took about the first mile of the new walk/run session I started on my app to stop sulking about it and really start feelin' better. By the third mile I felt great! The neighbors were out in full effect. Oh the new pink hair got a few extra waves and thumbs up
I can be so incredibly hard on myself. The expectation of perfection has driven me to make awful food choices and I am not going down that road. No, I am not going to starve myself or drink gallons of water in a desperate attempt to get back to my goal by Wed. It may happen and I really hope it does. If it doesn't, I have decided that I saw it early and I will make my own rule to be OK with that. My body, my rules!
Have a great day and let no one steal your joy!!! I am sending you all the best wishes for a phenomenal week!!!
Ms. Most Improved