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Thursday, August 20, 2020

I knew this would happen. When I get stressed things fall by the wayside. I stopped walking. Not a hardship there since I hate doing it, but I do feel a little guilty. I still managed to log all my food, though. It's the small victories, right? I talked about eating only 1200 calories and not losing weight. It's counterintuitive, but adding more calories can actually help you lose if you are eating too little. I added 100 more calories and boy, was it hard! I can barely eat 1200, and with having no appetite this week I had to force the food down. I did it though, and lost 2 pounds this week. Apparently, my sweet spot (for now) is 1300-1350 calories. glad it wasn't more, as I can barely eat that!

work is ramping up. I now have a to do list that is two pages long. I have no desire to do any of it. Stress, again. I forced myself to do lesson plans and only got one done yesterday. We had to contact parents of our students, and now I have people calling me at all hours. Sorry, guys, but I go to bed at 6. I get up at 4. I am SO not answering the phone after that. Wish I could turn off the ringer but then I can't hear my alarm in the morning. I stepped on my housemates glasses (groggy from getting up early, and he left them on the floor) and had to pay to replace them. it didn't cost much since I got him a protection plan, but still. It will take three weeks to get new ones in.

Our cat had kittens. She had an appointment to get fixed but then got pregnant. she had 7 kittens. 2 died so she still has 5. They are a month old and she ghosted. nowhere to be found and her kittens are just beginning to get teeth and so are still on milk. I have to feed them every 2 hours or so. I have started to wean some of them onto wet kitten food. they are so cute, but again, more stress.

I have lost the desire to cook, due to stress so I am living on the simplest things I can pull from the fridge. I haven't had a salad in 2 weeks. Too much effort. It's basically anything in the fridge I don't have to put together. If I don't have to heat it up, even better. I just don't have the energy.

On the plus side, I have, as I mentioned, lost 2 pounds. I have something to do during the day. I have leaned to mostly shut my mind down after work. I get on the bed and read. I read A LOT. Always have. I am rereading a series and have 2 new books in the wings. So its not all bad. Hope things with you are going well.

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    yeah, MSMOSTIMPROVED, I have a huge amount of things to do. I am VERY organized, and i have everything broken down by day already. I don't have a support system, other than my housemate. This is the real issue. y'all on sparkpeople are basically it. He is helping with the kittens, but he can't really help with the rest. I do eat. I just have no appetite. I am trying to take things an hour at a time right now. I make time to decompress throughout the day.. mostly i make tea and go sit outside. thank you for your suggestions. :)
    98 days ago
  • KWOOD1955
    99 days ago
    I am exhausted just thinking about all the things you have to do. It's time to get some order going. You can't do everything and this is overwhelming. You might need to break out your boss lady for a spell. 1. roommate pick- up your stuff. 2. Can you delegate or share feeding kitten time? 3. You need to eat. FULL STOP. 4. That 2 page list is way too much. Pick 3 things to tackle today so you aren't so stressed. There is no way you can do a whole 2 pages.

    YOU GOT THIS!!! emoticon emoticon
    99 days ago
    I understand your feelings on getting im the calories, i have a hard time too. Hang in there. One day at a time.
    99 days ago

    Make today the greatest day of your life
    Until tomorrow!

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    99 days ago
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