Down the rabbit hole
Monday, July 13, 2020
I almost slipped and went down the rabbit hole on my journey to being healthier. I did manage to stop myself before any real damage was done but my head was definitely peeking into the rabbit hole. So here is the story....
The other day I decided to take a drive to a neighboring town to pick up a few supplies for my flower garden among other items that are just hard to find in our little town. One of the stops that I made was to Walmart to pick up a few essentials. This was actually my first trip to a big box store since January. I admit I was happy to be out shopping as I love to shop and really missed getting out due to COVID. I was also thrilled that the parking lot wasn't too full and the majority of people were wearing their masks, which made me more comfortable in the store to do a little browsing not knowing when I would make the trip again. One of the items on my list was bags of candy. Now candy is one of those items that I have been pretty good about avoiding and not eating in the last couple of months and I normally don't keep in my house due to temptation. I was going to purchase the candy for my grandmother as later in the week I scheduled a visit to see her in the nursing home since they were now allowing supervised visits in the patio area with staff present and as long as I got the go ahead to see her after filling out a questionnaire and having my temperature taken. While picking up her favorite candies I also splurged and bought a couple of bags to give to the staff as a small thank you for all their hard work taking care of the residents during these uncertain times.
Anyways I found myself dipping into one of these bags of candy on my drive home. Yikes! what was I thinking. To be honest I wasn't thinking and that my friends is part of my problem....mindless eating. I admit that since starting this journey I have allowed myself treats now and again but they have always been planned and this definitely was not planned. I also try very hard each and every time I put something in my mouth to ask myself why I am eating to make sure that I am staying on track and not eating just to eat or out of boredom. Somehow I was only into a few pieces of the candy when I caught myself. Thank goodness. I actually threw the bag into the back seat out of reach. I then had a long conversation with myself the rest of the trip home. First of all I forgave myself for this slip up and then asked myself if I could turn this into a learning experience and come up with a plan to hopefully keep myself from going down this particular rabbit hole in the future.
When I returned home I added the extra calories that were not planned into my tracker to keep myself accountable and also spent some time journaling about the experience. I admit that I am now grateful for this peek into the rabbit hole as it has given me more knowledge and hopefully more power to overcome this behavior in the future.
To all my Spark friends who struggle with similar eating behaviors remember to take the time to learn from it and move on without guilt and a better plan to overcome in the future. I personally would love to hear in your comments what works for you in overcoming mindless eating as I am still making changes to my plan. Until next time have a wonderful day and keep on sparking!