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Down the rabbit hole

Monday, July 13, 2020

I almost slipped and went down the rabbit hole on my journey to being healthier. I did manage to stop myself before any real damage was done but my head was definitely peeking into the rabbit hole. So here is the story....

The other day I decided to take a drive to a neighboring town to pick up a few supplies for my flower garden among other items that are just hard to find in our little town. One of the stops that I made was to Walmart to pick up a few essentials. This was actually my first trip to a big box store since January. I admit I was happy to be out shopping as I love to shop and really missed getting out due to COVID. I was also thrilled that the parking lot wasn't too full and the majority of people were wearing their masks, which made me more comfortable in the store to do a little browsing not knowing when I would make the trip again. One of the items on my list was bags of candy. Now candy is one of those items that I have been pretty good about avoiding and not eating in the last couple of months and I normally don't keep in my house due to temptation. I was going to purchase the candy for my grandmother as later in the week I scheduled a visit to see her in the nursing home since they were now allowing supervised visits in the patio area with staff present and as long as I got the go ahead to see her after filling out a questionnaire and having my temperature taken. While picking up her favorite candies I also splurged and bought a couple of bags to give to the staff as a small thank you for all their hard work taking care of the residents during these uncertain times.

Anyways I found myself dipping into one of these bags of candy on my drive home. Yikes! what was I thinking. To be honest I wasn't thinking and that my friends is part of my problem....mindless eating. I admit that since starting this journey I have allowed myself treats now and again but they have always been planned and this definitely was not planned. I also try very hard each and every time I put something in my mouth to ask myself why I am eating to make sure that I am staying on track and not eating just to eat or out of boredom. Somehow I was only into a few pieces of the candy when I caught myself. Thank goodness. I actually threw the bag into the back seat out of reach. I then had a long conversation with myself the rest of the trip home. First of all I forgave myself for this slip up and then asked myself if I could turn this into a learning experience and come up with a plan to hopefully keep myself from going down this particular rabbit hole in the future.

When I returned home I added the extra calories that were not planned into my tracker to keep myself accountable and also spent some time journaling about the experience. I admit that I am now grateful for this peek into the rabbit hole as it has given me more knowledge and hopefully more power to overcome this behavior in the future.

To all my Spark friends who struggle with similar eating behaviors remember to take the time to learn from it and move on without guilt and a better plan to overcome in the future. I personally would love to hear in your comments what works for you in overcoming mindless eating as I am still making changes to my plan. Until next time have a wonderful day and keep on sparking!

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    There are certain foods I had to permanently stop eating - any kind of chips or cracker. It's been almost 4 years now. However I do eat ice cream once in awhile. I don't buy the big pails of ice cream, so I will run. I shop online every couple of weeks and sometimes if I still have some left I will not order more. It's best for me not to have it in the house.
    4 days ago
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    So glad you get to see your grandmother again. I know she and the staff will appreciate the thoughtful candy gift. I loved your blog. I too made my first trip to Wal~Mart a few days ago and was pleasantly surprised by all the masks. I only saw three customers without. I thought the Down the Rabbit Hole graphic was an excellent summation. I haven't got as far as planned treats. Potato chips usually call my name. Though I seldom buy them, one is sitting on the shelf this week. I was in the Coop, so my mind told me "healthy." Ha Ha. and I listened I know I can do this. I read the success stories and love them. I'm going to keep the "Down the Rabbit Hole" picture in the center of my mind. Thank you for your help. emoticon
    98 days ago
    I've moved down into the hole, lived in it, and dug it deeper, so it would accommodate my expanded girth. Sometimes it was mindless eating, sometimes bored, sometimes emotional solace eating. Haven't really solved it yet, but nipping it in the bud is KEY! for me.

    Have a great visit! So nice of you to think of the workers too.
    101 days ago
    Oh, gosh, I feel ya. I do some mindless eating, but not as bad lately. Tracking helps me to keep focused for now, and I find myself just taking a moment to decide whether I want to eat something that isn't the best for me. That little stop prevents a lot of overeating for me. What you said about moving on without guilt is very powerful. Thanks for the reminder!
    101 days ago
    That was a quick peek but take it from experience it is so hard to drag yourself out of that hole once you have dove in head first! My experience was a bad December (missing my parents, turning older, and another yeart gone by woes) so I gave myself a month off ~ BAD idea I am still trying to fully recover and the pounds are still here emoticon I am doing good on the 5% challenge so far hoping my momentum continues. emoticon
    Go Firecrackers emoticon emoticon
    102 days ago
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