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Sunday, July 05, 2020

. So many times it’s as if it’s just me in a one way battle always struggling . I don’t feel respected, or listened to, and I’m just taken for granted. I get in my feel sorry for me mode, have a good cry, then go on with life as if it didn’t hurt me. Over 30 years we’ve gone to my parents pond, a week ago planned our day with them and my sister, then Tuesday night they told me to not come out until 520. I felt so much hurt and rejection all day yesterday crying alone in my room knowing the rest of the family was there but I was not included. My son drove out and was not welcome so ate and left and the rest of the family went on with their fun and laughter as I was crying on the inside and social distancing myself On the outside . I feel like I am constantly trying to do more, be someone who matters, or feel accepted and as much as I try to open that part of me with everything I have it’s just not met to be. This too shall pass
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    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I am so sorry you are treated this way. In many ways I can relate. I have felt rejection in so many ways throughout my life. I have put on a smile when crying inside. Know that you are loved and cared for - especially here on SP. I am always here if you need me. emoticon
    108 days ago
    You have favor where ever you go because you are His :) every day I say " I have favor with God and He gives me favor with men". It is wonderful :)
    108 days ago
    I understand.
    109 days ago
    I'm sorry that with all you have been doing that this has happened. It sounds like you are really hurting. Know that you are appreciated and valued by your friends and chalk it up to all the stresses your family has been through over the past few months, with covid-19, your bil's near death, the wedding, etc. .
    109 days ago
    Did you ask what was the issue
    109 days ago
    I am so sorry for this--very hurtful for sure. But i had a thought and wonder---would there be someone ELSE to validate when is the time to come if they were welcome all day? Just a thought--((Hugs))
    109 days ago
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