Under Stress /

Oh wow - the shelves are starting to be empty at the stores again as our County and the next announced last night that every ones is required to wear face mask in public as our cases are skyrocketing. My town is seeing more positive cases too.

I called my son yesterday about having problems renewing my inspection sticker on line...come to find out he was in town. He has been having some heart pains and had one when he was here on Friday. Wednesday night he had a really bad one and thought he was going to pass out. He called his doctor and was told to go to the ER... nope.

In the morning after dealing with another very rude customer it hit him really hard - had to go into his office. He then remembered my cousin who is a top Cardiologist and called just to ask questions. My cousin told him he was on his way to his office and to meed him there NOW!!

He has all test done (like he told me - he was catching up to me!) and today is wearing a 24 hour heart monitor. He will be back today to have it removed.

I believe this is a wake up call as I have been trying to let him be aware of exactly what the doctor told him.

* Stress at work
* This Corvid Virus Stress at work
* Not eating until very late
* Drinking coffee and monster drinks
* Not sleeping well
* Quit exercising / gained weight
*** He doesn't eat anything greezy - makes his own food - mainly from the fish he catches - doesn't like sweets - I really can't understand where the weight is coming from and neither did the doctor.

He finally had some blood work which I believe it's been years.

He wouldn't tell me his blood pressure, but they had to check it 3 times as they couldn't believe how high it was. When I mentioned the 60's / 70's he said higher. Oh my gosh!

Please keep him in your prayers.

His main thing right now is stress at work. Customers can be so rude.

He has registered for on line classes for his masters or a different degree - to better himself and get a better job. - I forget - Stress

He is using his money for this so he has to keep his job as I told him.

He used to be really good financially and I almost asked him for some money to hold me over but had no idea he has put so much into the books / and this on line classes.

Me? Just like him / or him - just like me?

I have hit rock bottom in my checking account, that's why I wanted to ask him for money. The money that I would get for lessons was used for essential items (groceries etc) and I have used my debit card.
One of my bills - the promotion expired and they charged me $4,XXX plus the interest which brought my min up. Jeeze For some reason my payment hadn't been going towards the promotion all this time.

Just to mention a few. I have been having chest pains and he knew it too. I went to get tested for the virus as I had 4 of the symptoms. Negative! The tightness in the chest is stress also and if you remember I had that high count of my BP.

Why am I writing this?

You are my Spark friends. You are good listeners. You know that when we are under stress we EAT. That is why we are here to listen and help each other. Crying - I sure miss my parents right now.

I don't want to talk to my relatives about this again - their first response would be to get rid of all the pets. Never, that's what keeps me going.

I should just delete this.

Last night I rolled up all the coins that I have been saving but now I'm too embarrassed to take them to my bank. I need to find a neighbor to take it to their bank and write me a check so I can deposit it with my phone in private!! lol

Sorry for venting - at least it kept me from opening the fridge for a few minutes. Actually I don't have much in the fridge!!!!

Please give advise - strong or soft.

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