So...I Am Alive..
Thursday, May 28, 2020
It has been a looooooong, LONG time that I have added a blog post here or even really logged in. I think I tried to hold on for SO long with so many life changes these last few years, that I even started to stress myself out and avoid even coming to the site because I had let myself go so badly. I know how it started and I know what led me to where I am now but it's still hard to face it because my entire life did a 180 this entire time and then I would just come home and need SANITY,
It took a friend to let me in on a secret that jump started this a bit. Have I been able to jumpstart this whole trek completely? No. Not at all. But baby steps always did work for me so that is where I am right now and how I am taking it. I have developed terrible habits over this time and it would be nice to break them but I also know addiction is a hard thing. So that will take a lot of effort.
The quarantine has also helped me, strangely enough. Work stressed me out so much that I couldn't sleep, I barely ate. I am just not healthy. So with all of my weight gain, I lost an interesting amount of it due to COVID. I had it at the end of March through early April and it basically incapacitated me. I couldn't breathe if I bent over or stood on my feet for too long. Stairs were out of the question and we live on the third floor of the this apartment building. So that was a wake up call. But because I'm also a stubborn woman, I kept trying to push myself back into the normal routine of walking my dog in the mornings. I am TONS better now and even broke a plateau (LOL) but the fact that a friend was discovering the weight loss journey really kicked it into a higher gear for me.
So, here I am! Trying again! Better late than never. Here's hoping the baby steps work out!