Six years ago today, my Kenny chose to leave this world. We may never know all the struggles he had, but do know that he had strength and courage until the end.
The lessons learned while he was here on this earthly plane are many and treasured. Kindness being front and center.
A gentle soul, always wanting to do good. Not understanding how someone would want anything less.
What good has come from his passing?
My empathy and compassion have increased and I am a kinder, gentler person. Feeling things to new depths for those I know, as well as those I will never be connected to on a personal level.
My faith has increased and this is one of the greatest gifts of all. A rich blessing, that will help not only myself, but those around me.
Always having had a keen sense of intuition, though not always knowing what to do with it, I have had the opportunity to get better at that. The comfort and help that this has brought, a gift that I am so grateful for.
The help I am able to give others now, when their time of deep sorrow comes, is a way to pass along the knowledge gained from this experience. Especially those losing a child to suicide. I pray that even one sentence offered or a friendly look of understanding will make a difference in their grieving process.
Through Kenny's passing our family has raised thousands of dollars for suicide awareness, education, support and prevention. We do not know how may lives have been touched through our efforts to honor his life, but are confident that someones life has been saved, others have been educated and have increased understanding. Many have been helped and we shall continue our efforts.
I am a changed person and perhaps have some of Kenny's qualities within my own soul.
He is as close as a heartbeat, a memory, a Cardinal on the windowsill, the feeling of his presence , the flicker of a candle.
I love you Kenny, I miss you, but know that you are closer than we think and we will see you again.