The feeling of hunger
Thursday, May 07, 2020
It struck me yesterday that I haven't known what hunger feels like, at least, not for a long time. I had a memory of being a child and being hungry because it was near dinnertime. Of course, as a child, I wouldn't have just raided the kitchen. My mother wouldn't have allowed that, even though she was quite overweight herself. You just don't eat between meals, and that's that.
Where did that change in my life? Where did I start to think: "I feel a little hungry. Here's food. It's not time for a meal yet, but there's no one saying I shouldn't eat it. So I will eat this food." And I do.
Or, I did.
And that's how I got to gain a lot of weight. Just eating because the food was there and I thought I was hungry. And, even if it was right before dinner, still eating a full dinner...and then snacking in the evening. All the exercise in the world (and heaven knows I didn't do that) wouldn't have made up for it.
So, in that memory of my childhood, I realized that I don't need to fear the feeling of hunger. I will not starve. I have enough food and then some.