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Interesting times getting tougher

Tuesday, March 17, 2020

If you know me, I'm an emotional eater and have been forever. Its a constant struggle for me.

I've been trying to hang on and while I haven't lost weight recently I have been trying to not gain anymore. It's hard. Of course it wouldn't be easy...getting fat was the easy way, eating my emotions was the easy way.

I work at a small law firm, 3 partners and 5 staff. Have been here for 9 yrs now. Found out this morning that with the Coronavirus causing everything to close, courts are closing and cancelling hearings, bars & restaurants are closing......instead of us closing and laying everyone off, we are being cut back to 3 days a week starting 4/1. There is something called Shared Work where we can apply for unemployment benefits to help make up the short fall. They are working on figuring out how to set that up with the employment security office.

With my injured back and back surgery last year I was just getting back into driving again. I've worked f/t as legal assistant and also p/t rideshare driver (Uber/Lyft) for the past 3 yrs. I have recovered from my surgery but I have ongoing back issues that is the new normal. So for the past year we have been using credit cards to make up that missing rideshare income. It sounds ok until you figure it out at $400-$500/mo for a year that is an awful lot of credit card usage! Before my back issues last year I had lined up a financial plan to be credit card free in 5 yrs and not have to have 2nd job. But that went sideways in a hurry.

Fast forward to now...no rideshare driving and cutting back to p/t pay. DH is on disability so my income has been it. I know others have stuff going on too and some have it worse than us...but I needed to get it out. I've been keeping all this emotion bottled up and it's exhausting.

I want nothing more than to buy some cookies and eat the whole bag. But I'm trying my best to avoid that. My health is on the line here too. I have to take care of myself. DH is having is own health issues. With out of control A1C, retaining 30# of fluid - going on Lasix to get that off and now critically low potassium. Spent Saturday in the ER he need a potassium iv infusion that took about 4 hours or so. We are waiting on his blood work results from today to see if his numbers have come up at all.

Just so much uncertainty in the world and so far reaching. Going to be looking more to God for guidance and strength than ever before.

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  • DEEGIRL50
    emoticon I hope you get some peace of mind soon. I'm glad you put it out there rather than eat the cookies. It is very scary and hopefully there will be relief soon. Take care.
    105 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/18/2020 9:33:36 AM
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  • MILLER-S
    I'm so sorry, Tracy. You're under so much pressure with all this and my heart goes out to you. I'll pray that things work out for your health, your DH's health, and your finances.

    I'm an emotional eater, too, and I admire you for trying so hard to stay away from those cookies. Take care and hang in there. Virtual Hugs to you and prayers going up now on your behalf.

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    106 days ago
  • XREPHA
    With God all things are possible. Go to him first in prayer and petition. Pray🙏
    106 days ago
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