Underlying motives (Sparkcoach blog topic)
Tuesday, February 18, 2020
So the question in today's video was to question the real reason I want to lose weight. Do I want to lose 100+ pounds just because? To look good? To fit into smaller clothes?
To be honest, it's a lot of reasons. I don't want my husband worry about my health anymore. After so many years of back injuries, pregnancy, and the burden of the extra weight, my body is just tired of it. I was in so much pain at the end of my last pregnancy that Corey didn't even think that having another child would be good for me after this. My body is just too exhausted.
I know from experience that the weight makes my chronic back pain worse. I want to have the energy to keep up after my kids and not see them end up like me, daily feeling the consequences of my own bad eating and lack of activity.
I'm also tired of the chest pains. Until my liver gets smaller, they'll continue to be there. It's caused quite a bit of problems for me. At one point when I was pregnant with Lila they got so bad I had to pull over my car in rural Seattle and call an ambulance to take me to the ER to get checked out. That was a long night.
I don't want to risk diabetes either. I haven't been diagnosed as prediabetic yet, but I know and my doctor knows that I'm a high risk for it. Women with PCOS generally are. We have an insulin resistance already, and we have the weight issues. Plus it runs in my family and my mom didn't get it.
I love a lot of different outdoor activities like hiking, beachcombing, berry picking, and the like. I want to have the energy to enjoy them.