Thursday, January 30, 2020
I have heard so often on this journey that it is all about choices. I tend to make lots of choices that I later wish I didn't.
I had a dear friend say to me yesterday "I hope that you will learn to choose you. Choose you over that Oreo. Choose you over sitting on the couch and watching mindless tv for hours. Choose you Barb"
I couldn't help but get teary eyed. It brought back memories of lining up in gym class and having kids pick others to be on their team. I remember feeling anxious and waiting for someone to pick me. I didn't want to be the last kid picked. Oh PLEASE someone, pick me!
Why do I rarely choose me? Why do I resent myself for my choices AFTER I make them?
And here I stand.... still waiting for me to choose me. I actually put little notes that say "Choose you" around. There is one stuck in my car. There is one next to my computer on my desk. There is one on my refrigerator. There is one on the side of the tv.
Two simple words. "Choose you". I hope if you do nothing else today, that you choose you! I'm going to try to better at that. I'm going to try to put a smile on this big girl's face by not letting her stand on the sidelines any more! Yep, I'm gonna choose ME!