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What if I fail

Thursday, January 16, 2020

Day 3 – What if I fail?
I am already failing!
"Even if you have times when you struggle or gain some weight back, don’t allow the word failure into your day. You have power over what happens in your life.

So today, start conquering your fears by changing the way you think about them.

1. Write down one of your biggest fears around managing your weight.

I’ll never get it done — lose some, gain some
I’ll just let it go and stop caring.
I’ll always want fun, nurturing and comfort more than losing weight.

2. Identify your emotional response. Let yourself feel the fear and panic.

It’s awful! I can’t get past the barriers! I’ll never reach my goal!

3. Create a logical, positive message to use any time fears creep into your thoughts.

Of course I can do it. I need to stay consistent with my plans:
Track my food, water and exercise
Keep learning new things
Remind myself that I am totally capable of reaching my goal."

I have basically gained 30 pounds in 6 months and my house is a huge disaster zone.
emoticon The new job has solved some problems but has created other ones. Can't seem to get any ying without a lot of yang in return.

I have auditory sensory issues. Hearing is something that I have to concentrate to do and because I grew up with hearing loss due to Eustachian Tubes that had crystallized and were blocked until a doctor ordered a MRI when I was 24 to see the cause of hearing loss and opened the tubes back up.

It was a bit overwhelming. I went from muffled sound to hearing overnight. My speech has improved but I will always have a "strange" accent. What I am getting at is that being a Receptionist/Secretary and in particular answering phones is stressful!! When asked about my "accent" I just tell people it is Midwestern Pennsylvania Dutch, which is partially true.

I am scared of gaining back weight, I am scared that someone will come into my house when it is such a mess. I am scared that my sensory issues will be discovered at work.

I guess what I am doing is just acknowledging these things so that I can start to accept the things I can't change and work on the things I can. My speech and hearing are things I really don't have control over but my weight and my messy house is something I can work on improving.
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  • 1965KAREN
    I reread this blog because I think it is a great blog! Very motivating! Hope you are doing well! Miss our chats!! emoticon
    320 days ago
  • 1965KAREN
    I agree with Lori. You are amazing, and beautiful inside and out. And so strong and determined. Changes in your life have caused you some challenges. You are meeting those by lessons you have learned in December alone. It is time to get back on track with making Christi happy.
    When I first met you, you weren't eating most sugars and riding your bike and were in a zone. I thought wow, how strong and focused you were. I knew I could learn so much from you. I HAVE learned so much from you! Mostly, everyone has something in their life they need to overcome. My problems may be different, but losing weight is a problem that all of us share and we need to keep each other on track. Your focus and strength, is still something I admire.
    You may feel alone in many of your struggles. You are not. I am always here for you friend. I can be there in no time to help you, when needed.
    I think this blog is perfect. You can read it over and again. Yes, you are capable of doing all things you set your mind too. You've proved that before.
    Working on a messy house is of course something I can do as well. Concentrating on my own happiness, and losing weight and self growth. Changing all that is wrong in my life, no, I can't change it all. Worrying about what we can change, is our new motto for us both. Thank you for putting this all into perspective, because sometimes when someone else says it, it becomes crystal clear! Hugs my friend.
    499 days ago
    take a deep breath and you got this
    512 days ago
    Organizing your physical space is a great idea, it relieves stress and may improve confidence.
    You are an adorable and precious human being,
    regardless of your weight and orderliness of your home.
    You may choose to lose weight or organize your belongings if you wish - but you don't have to, and nobody can make you do that!

    (if you are interested in self help books, I recommend Marie Kondo's book "The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up: The Japanese Art of Decluttering and Organizing." it is available in cheap e-book on Amazon)
    512 days ago
  • NEPTUNE1939
    513 days ago
    You are so capable of meeting your goals. You are a strong, determined woman. You have definitely faced a lot of challenges. Still, you persist.

    I am so glad you wrote this blog because it has inspired me to also accept what I can't change but work on the things I can. I can also work on my weight and my messy house.

    You are an amazing woman and I'm so glad to call you my friend.
    513 days ago
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