Day 29: Starting to Achieve Balance
Thursday, January 09, 2020
I'm starting to achieve some balance in my journey. I'm becoming clearer about what is important to me and what I want to achieve day to day. I'm slowly developing the habits that will serve me and once I master each habit then I can slowly add in another one until I am doing everything that I want to be doing. I'm making progress again with my weight loss and my other stats and everything seems to be on track right now.
Exercise is going pretty well but I've had to dial it back. I have a tendency to overexercise which is part of the bulimia, a purge-type habit. I was falling into a bulimia cycle again where I was binging and then overexercising (at least I hadn't started throwing up again). So I had to get a handle on that right away before it snowballed into something bigger. I have been having a lot of pain in my ribs, back, and knees from exercising too hard so I've been trying to be gentler about my workouts lately. I did a 17-min yoga workout this morning but that was all. It was really good and I enjoyed it a lot, although it was tempting to do another workout and some stretches. I was even looking at an hour long chair yoga video last night, but realized that I need to wait on doing something like that until my ribs are healed.
Nutrition is going a lot better. I've stopped binging and am eating normally, actually below my calorie range. Fat is within range now as well. Sodium and sugars are still above range, though. I've actually been below my carb range lately. Protein is still good although I keep losing muscle despite exercising consistently. I have less appetite as well. Still no cravings and of course the Topamax helps with that. The quality of my nutrition is pretty good. Sweets are minimal. Been drinking much less soda as well.
Meditation is going okay. I didn't get as much meditation in yesterday. I only did a "Calming & Steadying with the Breath" meditation yesterday although that went well. My focus and concentration is getting better. I'm hoping to meditate more today. I'm going to start doing Ram Dass's "Living Spirit" meditation again as well.
Reading is going good. I read another chapter of Stages of Meditation yesterday. The material is becoming much easier to understand now and I'm starting to move through it much more quickly.
Didn't listen to any podcasts yesterday, although I've picked one out that I want to listen to. It's another fitness one about why adversity can be your best friend. It sounds like a good one and hopefully I will have time to listen to it today.
I didn't succeed at making today smoke free. I've smoked a small bit this morning. I'm finding even my off days a challenge, but I'm going to make an effort not to go and buy any cigars today at least.
Doing better with water. I drank 4 glasses yesterday and hope to drink at least that much today.
That's all for now. Hope everyone is winding up the week well. Keep Sparking!