January 3rd I am under construction.
Friday, January 03, 2020
I have kept my commitment for two nights to get to bed earlier..I find myself waking up earlier and that is not a bad thing..it is adjustment...
Today I will be spending my morning working on my budget and paying bills..not always fun but needful...I am working towards zero debt this year...I am aware already that i need to watch my daily choices because I have a tendency to be impulsive..at least I am aware and taking steps to do better.
I feel in this last year I was able to put my past to rest and to accept it for what it was...
My plan for this year is to implement things that will allow me to feel happiness and to live my best life ever..
My new Spark name is a reflection of that..Unapologetic.. I have spent my whole trying to be what I felt others wanted me to do..to act a certain way..to think and be what I felt others wanted to be..I would make attempts to assert myself and then when I saw I was not living up to someone else's expectations.. I would shrink back to where I felt safe...It isn't that I do not care what others think or value my friends opinion..it is just that in this year at this time..I am ready to say loud and proud .."This is me."..I am enjoying trying new things finding what works and what does not..I guess you could say.. I am under construction. I must be patient.