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I live in a freaken PINE FOREST

Tuesday, December 31, 2019

I really need to throw this is the trash!!! It makes me sad, unloved, unappreciated. So negative.

This was my one and only Christmas present. NOTHING from my husband Nothing from my kid. NOTHING but a cheap Pine scented candle that I am sure was an unwanted re-gifted teachers present. I live in a freaken Pine forest. 275+ acres and about half is freaken PINE TREES!!! To top It off I have severe allergies and asthma and sensory overload issues and am completely unable to tolerate strong smells.

Yes, I am being whiney and ungrateful. I am an adult and I know it is about giving and not receiving but really a freaken Pine scented candle.

The last month I have shopped, wrapped, decorated, cooked Christmas dinner for 11'people... did everything to make Christmas special for my family. I bought gifts for 14 different people. Nice gifts! I even took the time to hand make special gifts... One freaken Pine scented candle.... Yes my feelings are hurt. My self worth has taken a big hit. Clearly I don't mean that much to anyone.

To top this all off my husband was criticizing me because I didn't have an adequate enough gift for his mother. I got her some beautiful soft pajamas, a nice scarf, a puzzle and a few other things... He didn't think it was enough...he didn't get me a damn thing!!! Maybe his 85 year old mother can wipe his ass the next time he has an accident. My kid usually buys me a Christmas ornament...not this year... Nothing!

Today I am going to take down the Christmas tree. Put up my Christmas Village and hopefully just put everything behind me and start the New Year's off fresh.

I am important. I do matter. I just need to get the negative hurt feelings out so that I can move forward.

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    Oh I'm sorry people did not reciprocate the love and kindness you put into their present and the Christmas celebrations.
    But you were kind and loving and generous - that's all that matters.
    512 days ago
  • 1965KAREN
    Understandably upset, not whiney! You may have to start buying yourself an amazing gift and put a tag on it, from "Someone who loves you." Maybe then they will get the clue. You have taken such good care of them both. You deserved much better. Give them a Christmas List next year! At least then they will know for sure, without a doubt that you are expecting a gift from them! Hugs sweet lady!!!
    519 days ago
    527 days ago
    I am so sorry, you need to tell your children, they won't know unless you tell them and as for your husband tell him to buy his mothers presents next year. NOW go and buy yourself a present that you want. emoticon
    528 days ago
    I am so, so sorry that you're going through this. You should not feel guilty for being "whiney and ungrateful." You're not asking for much, and your reaction and your feelings are completely valid and reasonable. And I agree with Lori: tell them how you feel. You're not upset about the materialism of gifting; you're upset about the thoughtlessness. It's the though that counts, and your family completely dropped the ball this year. Tell your son. This is something he should be able to understand. (I know you would have been thrilled to receive even a handmade card!) As for your husband complaining about the gifts for his mother... I understand he's disabled, but he could probably use the Internet... He can shop online next year for his side of the family and take that pressure off of you!

    This just sucks. I'm sorry, and I'm here for you. emoticon
    528 days ago
    Tell them both how you feel. Don't suffer in silence.
    529 days ago
    emoticon Happy New Year Sweetie! emoticon
    529 days ago
    You're important, and you're special. You also have the patience of a saint! Sounds like you went above and beyond for your family and mother in law and you should be more appreciated. I'm sorry. 2020 is going to be a better year.
    529 days ago
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