So many spark friends commented how kind and generous I was to offer up the expensive eye drops I can no longer use (I developed an allergy to it, and yes, my doc found a substitute that works for my glaucoma).
Not really (well, somewhat, I hope).
It’s mostly because it will kill me to throw hundreds of dollars worth of medicine that someone might need into the trash!
My doc refused the offer but I may just push it on him when I see him next month.
So, my old sparkpeeps know that I loooooove my wine.
But my family is thick with alcoholics and I am hyper-aware of that every day.
I was one of 14 children and 4 have passed away way too young, 3 from drugs or alcohol.
My dear man and I have refined our tastes with travels abroad and my dh loves to find bargain wonderful wines online and buys by the case...we even have a wine cooler.
We usually share a bottle every night with dinner (I actually have a glass while cooking).
But that sometimes creeps up to a bottle and a half....over the course of 3-4 hours.
We don’t get drunk.
We don’t drive.
We don’t even drink when the grands sleep over.
My only real concern is (besides my constant worry about becoming an alcoholic...at 67!?!) the carbs and calories in alcohol. I even tried switching to vodka as that has zero carbs but that is a slippery slope for me personally.
My weight has been stuck for years, even slowly creeping up, mostly due to health issues (I cannot work out like I used to but swim 2-3 hours a week) and stress about my son’s health, despite my HFLC, IF, meditating lifestyle.
And...my belly keeps getting bigger and bigger!
So, really the best way I can think of right now to change things up is to give up the wine for a while and see if that helps.
I am not planning on being alcohol free (AF) forever but made a goal of being AF for November except for Thanksgiving day.
So far I am 8 days of 11...the longest I have gone in years.
Sadly, I comforted myself with Halloween candy and sweets those first few days, plus we, who hardly ever eat out, ate out three times in a week and dessert was included so...
And the cravings are not easy still.
I have been drinking tall glasses of club soda with diet cranberry juice while cooking and with dinner and going into my room and meditating for 10-15 minutes when the craving gets to me.
Sorry this is so long...just wanted to share and know that you al, will support me in this.
Oh, and I am also craving a winter vacation in the Caribbean so my dear man and I are going to Negril, Jamaica in March...120 days from today!
More incentive for me to get into better shape!