What was I thinking
Wednesday, November 06, 2019
Eat, eat more, keep eating and who cares that you aren't even hungry? Lots of leftover Halloween candy didn't help. Having issues with older son isn't helping as right now we no longer seem to be speaking. I am up about 15 pounds in a little over a week. Boy, does it come on fast but I know it will be as hard or harder to take off this time as it was to begin with. It is kind of like what Indygirl says about a flat tire but I just went around and flattened the other three and why? If I only knew why then maybe I'd have a chance of changing. One big question to myself is do I really want to change and I don't think I do but I also don't want to go back to where I was. I do want to get my weight down to about 175 or whatever will get me into about a size 14. I am still so far away from either of those goals. But another good question that I can't really answer is why are those goals I have...so many whys, so very many???