sometimes things just get the better of me.
My son is very sick, three years past a very serious diagnosis, but living with that sadness and stress is now just part of daily life in our family.
I feel like we all do the best we can to keep everyone (he has three children under ten) happy, clean and fed.
We live each day to the fullest and strive to stay positive.
But once in a while, the inevitable looms large and I cannot help but obsess with it...especially in bed at night.
Plus...to avoid worrying about that big thing, I find ever more things to worry about...like my weight or my drinking or ...get this....how unsafe the front steps of my son’s new house is and what if trick or treaters fall off them?!?
I have been sleeping soooooo much better since I started CBD oil a few months ago and I am good at all the usual sleep hygiene habits ((cool bedroom, good mattress, white noise machine, no screens, regular hours).
I read recently that even the threat of major health issues is a huge life stressor...right up there with losing a loved one or a job. We have been living with it for over three years now.
Since reading that I have been doubling down my efforts to treat my family with even more compassion and loving kindness....and myself, as well. For example, I am a healthy eater, a moderate drinker and pretty much a daily exerciser. If I am not losing weight right now, so be it.
We are all finding our own way through this protracted nightmare.
But, back to my problem...what on earth can I do about my anxiety level?
I do meditate, but not as often as I could or should.
My yoga practice is barely there...a monthly class.
I try to recognize the worrying thought, breathe deeply and let it go.