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Finding my new normal

Wednesday, October 02, 2019

I am beyond my comfort zone and in my first ever small group with women that meet every Tuesday. Only know them by name and not personally. We are going through the book it’s not supposed to be this way. Last night I sat and cried through most of it. When Adam and Eve were shamed, naked and exposed all that emotion hit me because that is exactly what this past year has been, every detail of the assaults over and over with police, counseling, district court, circuit court, then the media. Then the memories from feeling like this one other time when I was pregnant for my daughter and was told I have a sexual transmitted disease that will affect the baby. Each woman my husband had slept with had to be notified of which 2 I worked with and were “friends” with and the shame when I worked in the office with them and where the letters of notifications were sent from. The total exposure of shame. Time to heal!!!
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  • DOVESEYES
    My heart is so sad for you, I know from my own experience, when it comes to the surface there is healing.
    423 days ago
  • SLIMMERJESSE
    I'm so sorry you have gone through all this. I really am.
    424 days ago
  • COOP9002
    Blessings upon you as your try to adjust.
    424 days ago
  • FUNNYFACE101002
    Wow you are dealing with a lot. The best part is you are dealing with it. I hope you have a support system around you.

    424 days ago
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