Being Reflective & Purposeful
Saturday, September 14, 2019
This morning, after a day yesterday of no focus and bad food choices, I'm sitting on my porch swing sipping coffee and thinking about all the times I "restarted" my journey. Then it hit me. I never really quit or i wouldn't be here. I think we often get bogged down with the mentality that we failed. For many of us that triggers negative actions like emotional eating, self hate, poor physical actions - like not moving or sitting on the couch binge watching our favorite show. But I'm starting to get this is definitely a marathon. A life long marathon that will have many different places and phases. I hit pause many times but I haven't quit.
I also have reflected on my many phases and what went right and what went wrong. I watched my SparkCoach video today and it clicked. I've never taken daily steps to reflect on the day before. It's always been about the big picture and not the here and now. What did I do positive? What did I do that was negative? What felt right? What felt wrong? Did I find 10 minute chunks to move? Did I feel good about me?
Today is a day filled with grocery shopping and heavy duty house cleaning. (It's bad lol) But it'll also be filled with deep thought about why I'm here. What am I really doing? What do I want out of this and why? I want to be purposeful and focused with my journey from here out. I've always been adamant not to do any fad because I know I won't sustain it. And just like food choice I need to not go at my physical health following a fad or unfocused. I realize I need to go at this building in doable moments of movement and I need to remember to celebrate those moments as progress not just settling. I often do nothing because it's not an hour of exercise. Yeah that did me a lot of good. Any movement at any time is better than feeling like I failed.
So today I'll clean toilets, dust, vacuum, unpack from like a week ago and be thoughtful on my journey. I'll write my SMART goals down, my plan of life, and be purposeful in my choices. I can keep this spark burning and eventually I'll be that girl with fire.