In the New King James version, I Peter 5:8 says "Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour." I think I've posted this before, but it bears repeating:
Vigilance, according to Lexico online dictionary, is "the action or state of keeping careful watch for possible danger or difficulties." And this is what being vigilant is NOT:
This morning, my scale confirmed that fact that I haven't been vigilant about situations that can lead to emotional eating. Up again after last week's gain. Ugh.
Lots of things going on this week and just in general. I wrote about some of the more immediate ones last week: my car is in the shop, and the new semester is starting at the Bible school. There are also a lot of other plans in the works - good stuff that I'll tell y'all about soon.
Whether they're positive or negative, things happen. Life happens. I can prepare for some of happenings, and avoid others. But when something comes along that I can't control, I have to look out for my reaction. That I often can control. And I need to be easy on myself if I do slip up: This past week, I tended to compound matters. You know, the kind of slip-up when you eat a couple more cookies than you should and then just tell yourself, "I might as well eat the rest of the box!" I didn't go that far, but that's the mindset I'm describing.
So this week, my word will be vigilant. I'll be on the lookout for the reactions and the self-talk, and the lion prowling around looking for a chance to devour. It's about self-sabotage in the weight loss realm, but it's also much more than that!
P.S. One of the things I can't change: I lost a dear aunt on Thursday. She was 89 and lived a rich and full life. It makes me sad that she's gone - sad for my cousins, their kids and their grandkids. It makes me even sadder because I can't figure out a way to get to the funeral on Monday. I live in Germany, it's a 17-hour trip, the funeral is in Minnesota and, besides that, the new semester at the Bible school starts that day. I've also used up all my paid leave for the year - in advance for a short retreat in October and two teaching blocks at the Bible school in October and November. I doubt that my boss at the language school would have been very happy about my taking off on short notice anyway, so I didn't even ask on Friday which would have been the last day to do so.
Long story short - over-eating and worrying about what I can't change won't help! There are tears and times of sharing the emotions - all parts of the healing and grieving. I send flowers and a donation. I take another step in arranging the plans I'd been making to visit my cousins next summer - even before my aunt's passing. Long walks help. Prayer helps. I'm being vigilant about what doesn't!