September 6, 2019 - Got some 7+ hours of sleep
Friday, September 06, 2019
But really, have been feeling slightly depressed these last few weeks. Even with the heat/humidity of the days and nights I cannot blame it all on that. Something else is going on. Physical? Emotional? Spiritual? A sense of deep loss has made me feel on the verge of weeping. Or is is my ever advancing age? Anyway...here's this mornings episode:
Thought you'd always be there...had not seen the homeless man, who for everyday on my way into work (6+ years) was a fixture, for a several days. This morning I smiled...he was there, sitting in the little park on his bench with his basket full of everything including his guitar. As usual at that time he was combing his long beard and hair.
For months I have said "I am going to stop and introduce myself to him. Tell him that in his painful (am I being presumptuous?) situation I found a comfort in his the consistency of his presence. Maybe take him a morning muffin & juice.
So much change in my world right now, my sense of abandonment has reared it's ugly head once more. Maybe listening to "Where the Crawdads Sing" has 'captured' my emotions'. "Everybody leaves me" Kya says more than once. I know a happy ending is in sight so I shall get past this, too. Reached out to several friends today.