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Drowning in Anxiety

Sunday, August 18, 2019

I'm struggling today. I mean REALLY struggling. The kind of struggling where you feel frozen and unable to breath or move. Where the whole world seems like it is spinning out of control and you have no way to stop it. It's the type of struggling where getting out of bed feels like the worst burden ever.

But I got up.

I took a shower.

I left the house.

Do I feel better? No. Not really. But I got up. I took a shower. I left the house. I still need to pack boxes and do things around the house. The movers come on Saturday morning, and I feel like I've done nothing. Well, I have done nothing. I don't want to move. This move isn't my idea. It is a financial decision that I didn't want to make. I love my house. I didn't want to sell it. But I had to. It hurts. And it hurts badly. That is where all of this is coming from.

But I got up.

I took a shower.

I left the house.
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  • DIANEDOESSMILES
    Oh hon!! I am so sorry!! That IS a huge upset!!!

    Would it help to talk to a therapist or an agency on the aging in your area about how upsetting this is? I recently moved a long time friend out of her place. She's now in a nursing home, and for the first 2 months she was so horribly lost without most of her stuff. Now 2 months later, she's settled in, but of course she misses living in her own place.

    She does enjoy though not being alone any more, not having to worry about bills, what to cook. Though she knew these things would help her out, she didn't realize the stress she had been under being on her own.

    For you the release of the financial stuff will be lightened. It's never easy though to make changes especially when it's NOT wanted. It's fine to cry, to be in shock (sounds like the shock/disbelief is causing the anxiety and that makes perfect sense.

    I hope you have those around you who can help you out?

    I am so sorry!!
    26 days ago
  • GINALYN65
    Even though you were filled with anxiety, YOU got up and did what had to be done. That is a win. You can do this! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    26 days ago
  • SWEETNEEY
    You dug deep and are preserving.
    26 days ago
  • WHYTEBROWN
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    27 days ago
  • KITTYHAWK1949
    I hate packing and a lot of other things that have to be done. I have had to ask for help a time or two. One foot in front of the other which you did today and can repeat. blessings to you.
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    27 days ago
  • NANASUEH
    Oh, man, been there. Had to sell the house I raised my daughter in because I didn't have a job and was going back to school.

    All you can do is act "as if". Get up, shower, pack a few obvious boxes. Make a run to goodwill. I know it's tearing you apart but you have to be ready on Saturday for the movers.

    You can do this. Get up; shower.

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    27 days ago
  • ARLENE2019
    I’m sorry ...for your situation.... but I do know that sometimes it is for an amazing reason we would have never known.... sometimes doors need to be closed....for us when it is too hard to do it on our own. I love my home but see it owns me...
    27 days ago
  • EO4WELLNESS
    I am so proud of you for blogging about it! Wish I could offer more support in person, but alas too far away for that. . . so hope you can find the energy to do what's needed. Moving is always so difficult.

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    27 days ago
  • FSTEWARTLA
    Moving is a bear. I am proud that you are literally moving forward. Less clutter, new start. Think of rewarding yourself at Christmas with a new, not too expensive item. How can we support you through this?
    27 days ago
  • KEEP-GOING
    Easy for me to say keep your chin up. Please, let things run the course and try to keep peace in your heart and soul. I hurt when I hear others are feeling so bad. I myself am not without sufferings. one thing I will share with you I hope will be long term help. A friend told me awhile back as she was going through a very rough period. I will not let the devil destroy my joy today because I don't know how many I have left. That really blessed me. Thank you for being honest and sharing your true feelings.
    27 days ago
  • 712237
    Man, a tough day for you. Keep going, one step ahead of the other. We're here for you.
    27 days ago
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