Thursday, July 11, 2019
I was reading some of my earlier blogs I posted. Things change alot in such a short time. Three years ago I was just starting to come out of a very dark time I was dealing with alot. I've lived through it and have learned and grown because of it. My oldest son and his gf and my 1st grandson moved 700 kms away that was hard its still hard I miss them. On the positive side They have grown so much closer and are happy . I still see my grandson lots and spend time with him.
My youngest moved away that same summer. Got into a relationship that was not good for him but he grew and learned from it. I t lasted about 2 years. As much as it was hard to watch it was a life lesson and he's stronger for it. He seems happy
I got out if a toxic 23 year relationship. I'm not angry or bitter about it. I learned a lot and am stronger. Hes not a bad person just not the right one for me. Once I made the decision that I was done and couldn't do it any more a sense of peace and calm came over me. I knew I made the right decision for me.
For the first time in my life I can say I like me, I'm ok just the way I am. I believed there was something wrong with me. There is nothing wrong it's just me. I'm still growing and learning but I feel happy and I deserve To be happy. It's ok to put how I feel and my happiness first. Im figuring out what I want and I'm not going to settle.