What am I so afraid of?

I have been asking myself that for such a long time...lately time and time again - the word FAILURE - has been popping up in my mind when i think of the answer.

FAILURE - what a strong powerful word! I honestly feel that is what i am so afraid of.

Failing again - after failing so many times when it comes to my weight loss patterns - Doing all this work, putting in the very long hours of commitment, all the exercise - hearing all the compliments, fitting into all the clothes i have in my closet & loving shopping for new ones, feeling FABULOUS!!

ONLY to Fail and gain it all back.... That is what I am afraid of, that is what is holding me back from doing it all again - The lack of the Belief that this time will be different - this time - it will be life style change and not just a "quick fix" a "diet"

This scares me - that i am afraid of repeating the past as I have over and over again.

The lack of belief that this is it!! This is my time and my life style change FOR LIFE - not just a moment in time.

I guess the hard part is figuring out WHAT I AM AFRAID OF - now that i know - the HARDEST part will be working through this sense of failure & begin to believe in myself

That - I can do it - and all the past times were just lessons for the future